Corazon, your sweet silver lips haunt me.
I dream of us, eyes wide open.
Your laughter booming grips my diaphragm,
My breath becomes a ghost.
Your smile, a fist in the air, a victory.
Querido, nothing about you is bittersweet
The pain I carry is a privilege
A reminder you were mine.
Moon shaped scars, proof I had peace, I was the owner of a silent heart with a steady beat.
Happiness was you in my arms, chest lingering underneath my fingertips.
Sweet jazz notes fill my head when you speak,
Tu voz, maravillosa.
Cariño, lo siento,
My Darling,
I am a **** fool.
Nov 23, 2017
Nov 23, 2017 at 2:19 AM UTC
Your origin tastes sour trickling down your throat,
your present filled with self-doubt and resentment.
asking why we’ve reached this place
How? in the first place.
A palace filled with all your nightmares painted ivory white,
the walls made of marble begin to crumble.
your bed soft as feathers, flat as every lie you ever dry swallowed
Damnation carved into the headboard rendering the dream catcher suspended above you, useless.
You do not matter, not in this cosmic plane.
Look at the mountains on their tip toes like the black swan ballerina.
The ocean vast, mysterious, endless.
the leaves so green with envy that they are not the ones breathing in.
The dirt like your own mother giving you, (a selfish fiend) every piece of them until there's nothing left.
The hyenas laughing at your ignorance.
Ignorance is bliss.
so much better than this.
So much ******* better than this.
Looks like you’ve given up.
have you had enough?
Ashes to ashes dust to dust.
maybe it's simple maybe, like dying...
It’s just that simple,
It’s just that time.
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 4:52 AM UTC
There are flowers blooming in a long forgotten garden with dead soil and skeletons 6 ft under.
There is a thunder in a still air where time has long been frozen.
There is a dark red flow in a dry riverbed, thumping, thumping, keeping my heart thumping.
There is a breath of fresh air in a toxic toxic atmosphere and it smells of you.
There is finally laughter in a dead silent room, it is raining down my cheeks and I am the one laughing.
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 4:32 AM UTC
Soft golden rays dance off of your lips,
With Fervor you smile, in a world dull and gray,
Leaving me nothing in sight but you,
A rainbow, gleaming through the mist,
an illusion of magic all too real,
Que Lindo eres
I wish to bear witness to your unendurable insignificance,
to how you mean so little,
to how you mean so ******* Much,
The way, like a ghost, warmth haunts me,
lingering from your touch
I Fear my dear, I’ll never have enough.
I fear amor,
I never will be.
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 4:14 AM UTC
Ruby red flames Illuminate your eyes,
Ember glow stealing my last breathes
I am rendered speechless, in a world where words are all I have,
Soft lips and a cool smile,
allow me to survive the warmth surrounding you,
How becoming.
Once I saw you like really saw you,
my heart blushed a shade any rose would be jealous of.
My soul awoke to take a second glance
My eyes couldn't believe what they'd been granted.
A mind trick? A demon in disguise?
My mind distorts your beauty in attempt to keep me safe,
but *******
you are beautiful.
*******
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 4:02 AM UTC
A waltz with broken legs and a wailing heart.
A constant state of fear, of the inevitable darkness this way comes.
Where every thought sings to me “Do it.”
She sounds like me, and I’m afraid.
I’m afraid I’ll do it.
My blood would run a crimson red,
My heart would cry me a river.
Tongue tied ******* looking to escape a body, not mine;
a mind out to **** me.
A living broken record.
Without skipping a beat I'm floating again.
What a high! My, oh my!
The whirlwinds calm,
for a moment.
I come back to life.
I go home.
Only For a moment.
A moment..
You see? darling,
If you wait long enough, dear,
I will have plummeted again, and again; Forever, again.
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 3:36 AM UTC
So out of reach;
Your feathers soft, peach.
Sapphire heart beating in front of me,
You an astronaut meant free.
O tell me dear, can you see?
A crystal clear reflection in your glacial blue eyes
My downfall, my slowly approaching demise.
I see my pain in a different suit,
Your strawberry blonde lashes hiding your burning truth,
O tell me dear, tell me you see!!
Whilst soaring amongst stars,
May your past scars fade to Black
as you travel through different galaxies,
Leave behind old fallacies
Tell me you've found peace; in the pitch black majesty,
Miamor, Dime que me ves a mi.
Jul 14, 2017
Jul 14, 2017 at 4:22 AM UTC
I am the cold silver light in the darkness.
The rattling madness polluting sanity.
I am both, I am everything.
But mainly I am burdened with truth.
That, is why I am so Afraid of living
Why I am so afraid of Not living
Why I am not afraid to die.
I am the lead tainted paint in a bottle, stirring, absorbing the artist's pain.
In madness I am used to depict a reality ideal.
With every brush stroke, every color, I am killing him, he is using me to **** him,
as he paints murals for the masses to alleviate their suffering.
He suffers from truth.
He is not afraid to die.
I am a chameleon blending in with the rest of you,
Fools, drunk off of false hope and fairy tales
I am the paint, and the painting
I am the artist,
And I am not afraid to die.
Jun 8, 2017
Jun 8, 2017 at 2:37 PM UTC
The world falls quiet,
And so do you.
My ears are ringing
Heart swelling
Mi Amor,
The silence burns.
I submerge my mind in liquid courage
and slur my silly confessions,
Puking emotions all over your unread text messages.
Ruby shame becomes me
Whispering evil things to me
Convincing me that I am a burden.
That I am the one that's crazy here.
Crazy in love.
Crazy to admit it.
I am the one that’s crazy here.
You were the one that begged for me to love you.
So why do I have to ask for you to tell me that you love me?
How am I supposed to believe your I love you’s?
Am I so insecure, paranoid?
Is it just me?
Am I crazy?
Crimson waves fuel my heart that whisper Jehime in the silent crackle of the fire that blazes through the night in between my rib cage.
Can you feel that,
Corazón? Do you hear that Mi Amor?
Or am I crazy?
My ears are ringing
My doubts are shouting
as it sears it's emptiness into my soul,
The silence burns.
Pero mi Amor Porque?
Quando yo te di todo mi corazón, porque me haces esto?
Why?
God, why don’t you love me?
It is your silence when I ask you these questions,
Your silence when I bleed Te Amo,
that burns, burns, burns.
Nov 2, 2016
Nov 2, 2016 at 12:19 PM UTC
How lost one can get,
I cannot begin to explain.
The impulsive, reckless behavior drives you mad.
In such darkness shines a light.
The flame of survival.
Vicious, untamable, destructive.
But it burns on.
It burns on.
Even on fumes, it blazes through the night.
Because you know this suffering is not forever.
You know that this will end.
You don't know what the **** is happening.
But you know, you have to
Survive.
You know, how, to survive.
Because there comes the point where you no longer wish to be saved when you no longer wish to fight.
And that is terrifyingly comforting.
Giving up brings relief it brings, the end of suffering.
But fighting and destroying the shadows will bring you life, happiness, and peace.
So **** it.
**** it all.
**** everything.
You will survive.
You will survive falling from the clouds, and you will survive the trenches.
And when you do,
Life will be waiting.
I will be waiting for you.
Nov 2, 2016
Nov 2, 2016 at 11:57 AM UTC