I was lost among the shadows
Clawing and crawling on my knees
Until finally I opened my eyes
I can’t wait to get back to me
I lost myself for sometime
But I’ll never lose who I am
Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 1:01 PM UTC
This is what it is
Running in my dreams
Hands crushing flowers
To smell what it means
I climb branches to peak
No fear of the fall
A glimpse of your face
Just to lose it all
I'm in these frail states
Life and death
Don't know which one begins
While the other one ends
Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 12:59 PM UTC
I’m looking for a place to settle
A comforting pillow to lay my head
A place where I’m not alone
Windows broken from the inside
Doors sealed with a purpose
Feeling cold roaming these streets
My feet are bruised from scattered mistakes
Every house is different but none are a home
The feeling of giving up creeps behind me
I’ve been knocking on empty houses
Turned away by careless looks
But you stood there signaling me
Will you take me in your home?
Give me a place to sleep
I’ll lay my head on your heart to keep
Nov 5, 2020
Nov 5, 2020 at 9:35 AM UTC
My hand placed on your chest
Your eyes closed
Closed off from me
Lost in your thoughts
Ignoring my existence
Reciprocity doesn’t exist in this room
I second guessed it all
Baby girl, don’t cry now, later
Sedated by the stillness of your skin
I’m just another body resting
On a still pale corpse
Hoping my touch will awaken life in you
You could be hiding from me
Or are you really like this?
No arm around me to raise my head to see
You were emotionless
Off in your world
I was barely hanging on
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 12:14 PM UTC
At some point
Everything stops
I wanna be at a new level
I’m tired of this compulsiveness
Need to stop reading into this
Need to focus on baby girl
I gotta make a life or two when I get back
Listen, I’m gonna go back to me
I’m gonna peel back your skin
Let it rest in the sun to bake
I’ll let you continue on
Thinking you got the life here
I’ve got a little love left to give
It’s too late now
Pick up the pieces of your skin
Try putting them back together
It’ll never be the same
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 12:00 PM UTC
I ventured into this
Not knowing the purpose
Was it to play the leading lady in your world?
Your agenda of curiosity
But in part, you warned me
I guess I played the role well
I took it a step further
Hoping, praying, imagining
All actions that can lead to ruin
Some will say it was all a game
Others think it wasn’t meant to be
What matters to me is what I will become
You continue towards your path
You made a fork in mine with a dead end
My hands shake as I pave a new road
There’s something about your sad eyes
They’ll never tell me the story
Despite what I know, you played the part well
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 11:54 AM UTC
I want you to tell me this is over
Release these words from your quiet mouth
I need this closure from you
The silence sparks sleeplessness
I don’t know what this was
But I’ll be missing it
I don’t want to be pushy
But you’re bringing out the worst in me
I’ll ask you the simple question
Tell me if this is the final chapter
Should I drop the pen and let ink dry?
I can’t leave you without a final goodbye
A part of me wants to continue
But I know this is the end
I was looking to understand you, not change you
Maybe this has been over for you
Your silence gives it all away
I should know better but I’m a hopeful soul
I can’t leave this heavy door open
My arms can’t take the pressure
My shoulders can’t support the frame
Understand it needs to be closed
I’ll need to lock it before it’s opened again
I can’t let these feelings loose into the world
I know I’m being desperate
I need to work on myself
But just this one time, please tell me what I need to hear
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 11:53 AM UTC
We pressed into each other
Sticking like hot glue
Mixing our minds and bodies
Encapsulated by the residue
As we tore ourselves apart
Remnants stayed behind
Leaving marks on our existence
Forever engraving our minds
I feel these pieces of you
Blending into my awareness
No matter how hard I pull
I was unprepared and defenseless
Oct 25, 2020
Oct 25, 2020 at 2:30 AM UTC
Where do I start?
You’re my rock, my pillar of hope
From the moment you shared with me
Our fate was sealed for this lifetime
Your Taurean dedication is unmatched
You don’t shy away from the truth
I openly admire your stubborn ways
You’ve never let me be other than myself
There were times I was absent
Left you to soak in life’s disappointments
Don’t take it to heart my beautiful blue eyed friend
I’ve always kept you safe in a corner of my spotless mind
Our laughter brings me right eye tears
There’s only understanding in our sacred world
That’s why we keep coming back to each other
We can’t live without being true to ourselves
You fight through life’s battles
While I stand and give you the ammunition
I lay and dwell on life’s failures
While you lay beside me and give me reason to get up
Judgement doesn’t exist when we’re together
We layout the carpet for the good, bad and ugly
You’re the sister that lifts my chin up
Looks me in the eye and tells me, keep going
Your sensibility guides me through my struggles
We began with sharing and will end with it in old age
As we navigate through life’s labyrinth of unpredictability
We hold on to our friendship that makes the journey worth it
Oct 24, 2020
Oct 24, 2020 at 11:18 AM UTC
I’m asking for peace
A moment of silence
Join my hands together
Praying for guidance
I look up to the sky
Visions of your face remain
My eyes burn with grace
I let go of this fleeting pain
I’ve reached the peak
Peering back down
Letting my past remnants fall
As I drape my silk green gown
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 3:31 PM UTC