She's prettier than me-
and i know it
She gets the front row
in the life of the star
She plays guitar
I tried, but never could
And for a second
I feel a spark of something
A feeling I can't quite name
but it somehow changes things
I hate how she fits in
when I never could
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 2:38 PM UTC
제게 ‘사랑’은 여전히 복잡한 말입니다.
제가 단 한 번이라도 누군가를 제대로 사랑한 적이 있었을까요.
그 질문을 오래 붙잡고 있었지만
확실해지는 것은 하나뿐이더라구요.
나는 아직도 잘 모른다는 사실.
지난 한 해 많은 것에 갇혀 있었어요.
있다가도 사라지고,
오다가도 떠나가는 것이 얼마나 많은지
그 사이에서 숱하게 흔들리고, 괴로워하며
많은 실수들을 지나왔습니다.
그 시간을 거쳐
이제 겨우 봄을 바라보고 서 있는 기분.
이 기다림이 마지막은 아니겠지만,
그래도 멈추지 않고 여기까지 왔어요.
다행이죠.
저는 생각이 참 많고,
매번 성장했다고 앞으로도 믿어보려 하겠지만
또다시 실패하고 실수할 거에요.
그 과정에서 누군가를 서운케 하고
스스로에게 상처를 입히기도 하겠죠?
다만 이제는 알 것 같아요.
잘 해보려 했다는 말이 모든 답이 돼주진 않는다는 걸.
오랜만의 복귀가 무척 설레면서도
마음은 겸허합니다.
말을 숨을 고르고 골라도 아직도 거칠고 서툴고,
또 말이 많아지는 이유를 잘 모르겠습니다.
그래도 숨지 않고 말해보려 해요.
여전히
좋은 음악이 만들어지면 심장이 뛰고,
멤버들과 장난치다 보면 아이처럼 웃게 됩니다.
그리고 밤의 숲처럼 빛날 관객석의 아미밤들을 생각하면
눈물이 날 것 같은 기분이 되어요.
이 에너지와 마음이 저를, 그리고 우리를
여기까지 데려왔다고 믿으니까요.
누군가는 지켜보고
누군가는 떠나고
누군가는 걱정하고, 아쉬워하고, 비난하기도 하겠죠?
그럼에도 어떤 형태로든
저희를 기다려주는 마음이 있다면
그게 당신의 사랑이라면
저는 몇 번이라도 다시 일어서고 싶습니다.
비틀비틀 하더라도!
한 사람이 세계를 사랑해보려는 방식.
살아보려는 방식.
우리 모두가 하나의 우주라면
그게 그 우주의 전부일지도 모르겠어요.
그런 마음으로
기다리고 또 기다립니다.
새해 인사가 늦었습니다.
저 말이죠 이제 더 나아가 보려구요.
해가 떠오르는 곳, 봄이 들리는 곳-
그리고 마침내 당신이 계신 곳으로!
최근 마음에 오래 남은 릴케의 문장으로
엉망인 글을 마칩니다.
사랑은 여전히 복잡하지만,
그럼에도 저는 단순한 마음으로 말하고 싶어요.
사랑한다 고
!
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
I feel dizzy like my world's always spinning
guess there's really no way of winning
don't know what to do, am I really that bad?
won't even tell me what I did... please don't be mad
apparently now editing and kpop are "weird"
these thoughts, god my mind needs to be cleared.
glad they had the night of their lives
meanwhile im over here trying to survive.
I feel numb all over, inside and out
thats all I can think of, forgive me in the drought.
Feb 22
Feb 22, 2026 at 6:32 PM UTC
why do you follow me just to make me mad
idk if u know this
but yeah. im sad.
when i said take care of him I actually meant it
but now you're just ******* me off
and i need something to hit.
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 8:17 PM UTC
(a story not poem)
Chaos Pt. 2
Cast:
UC - Beck
Sugar- aspen
The Vandalizer- Leila
Evan- gets hit by car
Use this for animated canva part!
Includes Suga vs Splenda
📽 SCENE 4: (Glitch Scene)
About halfway through the movie, the screen cuts to:
ERROR: TOO MUCH CHAOS. SYSTEM OVERLOAD.
Then a bootleg version of the movie starts playing—animated crudely in MS Paint.
UC’s voice is like “Shoot, I think we overloaded the budget??”
💥 POST-CREDITS:
UC shows up.
He’s holding a remote.
“I think this ends the movie.”
He clicks it.
Nothing happens.
He shrugs.
Falls.
The movie crashes and shuts off.
The Plot
Start movie with scene of us robbing bank. We are team. Sugar suggests they go to Mount Jawbreaka since there is a treasure (the Caramel Core) and they are banned from 147 cities. UC says “that’d be good because we’re banned from most of the states.” They decide to go anyway, using The Vandalizer’s portals. Mt. Jawbreaka is a cursed, candy-themed mountain full of mildly dangerous terrain, like:
* Lollipop quicksand
* Echo caves where your voice roasts you
In the echo caves, Sugar talks in the cave, and a voice roasts UC with the highway burn. Along the way, they encounter a sentient marshmallow named Blop who offers riddles but only speaks in backwards riddles.
They meet Splenda, Sugar’s old nemesis and an epic battle ensues. (On canva)
Isn’t that the candy I stole the other day?
Yeah. Problem?
Nah.
The trio
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 12:15 PM UTC
I should let it go
you already have
weren't trying to be rude,
but it just made me mad
Now you're with her,
that dumb blonde, I see
I still often imagine
if you were still with me
The shows that you did,
I came to every one
but now that it's over
I feel I can't run
That one special night
I hung with my friends
you decided to call me
but suddenly it ends
Now looking forward,
at the future ahead
I'm scared now to see you there
at the performance I love and dread
Feb 10
Feb 10, 2026 at 1:18 PM UTC
I left School that day feeling warm and excited
Thinking’ bout last night, and the trip, I ignited
Wearin’ the bracelet he made me
After he emerged from the stage mist…
Got in the car
Put it in drive
With my best friend
Nothing but vibes
Drivin’ so fast, we’re going wild
Turn up the music, wonderfully styled
Texting our loves, the party goes on
So let’s dance till the break of dawn
let’s dance till the break of dawn!
Arriving at the hotel, finally here
Looked out our room window, blue sky so clear
Take a picture, I got his
I showed my friend, she got in a ****
Then later we got in the car
Put it in drive
With my best friend
Nothing but vibes
Drivin’ so fast, we’re going wild
Turn up the music, wonderfully styled
Texting our loves, the party goes on
So let’s dance till the break of dawn
Football games and restaurants, the trip was a buzz
The most fun two nights that there ever was…
Now he’s gone but I still remember those nights
Where me and my bestie played with music and lights,
But now our loves are gone, no more texting heights…
But now we’re- Drivin’ so fast, we’re going wild
Turn up the music, wonderfully styled
Texting our loves, the party goes on
So let’s dance till the break of dawn
let’s dance till the break of dawn!
The break of dawn…
Feb 10
Feb 10, 2026 at 11:43 AM UTC