I believe in saying things out loud
To me a thought is an incomplete bargain
Unsealed until invited
to the world of the living
With a voice, a sound, even a gesture will do
That’s why it’s paramount
To say, ‘look it hurts right here”
To say, ‘it’s been 11 years, yet to me you’re always in the next room, through the door past the kitchen’
Do not let your grief bother the ghosts
A thought unsaid lives with the phantasma
And one shouldn’t haunt more alive than dead
-UV
Mar 4, 2025
Mar 4, 2025 at 12:57 AM UTC
I long to loose track of time,
To wake and fill my mornings with food and movement.
To find company in the afternoon,
Read, work or simply chat,
lounging afloat the lazy river of time.
Looking up, wine in hand,
At the cherry blush setting sky,
Bemused in wonderment just how easily a day can go by.
Scrubbed clean mind, body, and soul,
To climb in with a book and welcome
The sweet dreams with open arms.
Swaddled warm and delivered,
into the realm of peace.
Instead I get to greet every second of every day,
With the unbearable sting of frayed nerves, plucked.
Sour of mouth, and heavy of head.
The apathetic march of time feels like a menacing countdown.
Unable to live in the past, present or future,
Not a moment goes by without my searing awareness,
That tomorrow cannot be stoped.
Night fall is nigh.
The afternoon oozed dreadful musings.
And the morning unproductively lost to self medication.
Jun 15, 2023
Jun 15, 2023 at 9:51 PM UTC
I offer up a sentence
A key to my thoughts
Words fall lightly, a lover’s bargain
Hoping you would pick up my words
As one would the scent of petrichor
Eager, perhaps a little greedy for more
But you murmur something
Absentmindedly, forgetting the words before you finish speaking them
My gaze finds its way back to the lines of my palm and the creases over my knuckles
Imagining you looking up at me with something to say
-UV
Feb 6, 2023
Feb 6, 2023 at 10:11 PM UTC
Tragedy kissed me gently,
It didn’t mar me enough,
So people couldn’t see.
Tragedy kept me company,
Writing letters from foreign shores,
So people thought I lived alone.
Tragedy hid presents in my keep.
Tucked away in memories,
Cloaked within friends, parents, and lovers,
I’d find them at my leisure then merely weep.
Tragedy has always been thoughtful.
She’s never left me unattended,
No matter the span of time without meeting,
I know I’ll find her in my sleep.
-UV
Jan 22, 2023
Jan 22, 2023 at 6:36 PM UTC
Looked at it all night,
Kissed it before bed.
It stayed in it's glass sleeve,
An empty milk bottle,
I didn't own a vase you see.
I gently appreciated,
My bedside felt decorated.
The severed stalk with it's bloom,
Survived and thrived,
For longer than I'd expected.
I must say I liked the scent,
Even as I threw it away,
A lovely wilted, dead flower.
I'm writing this because
It oddly reminded me
Of the way you loved me.
-UV
Feb 15, 2021
Feb 15, 2021 at 4:35 AM UTC
I always put away the pen instead of painting you in
How can I win describing?
Nothing I could write would ever hold a candle to how you make me feel.
My words fail me unlike your love.
You weren’t a shallow promise
Not a lovers dream
You’re real
Behind the mask it’s just you
In loving you I’m made kinder
To the world, myself and the rest.
Cause I see you in your infinite facets
I’ve known for long it takes imperfections
To make a true masterpiece.
To steal a quote from those who came before me
‘Beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror’
And baby I’ve been terrified since the day we kissed.
-UV
Dec 18, 2020
Dec 18, 2020 at 8:39 AM UTC
We are left with the tameable
Cause that's what it took to survive
The one's with the true message
Couldn't bear to be here now
The youth with all the purpose
Are muted in the dark
The crowds that stick around
Are faded, broken down.
I don't know what this is,
A prayer, poem, a song
With all the early graves
With all the good men in the ground
I guess my heart needs consoling,
So I write to remember
This is what it took to survive.
-UV
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 1:23 PM UTC
I must have kissed you a hundred times
In between the packing
And the pleading glances at the clock
Wishing for the time to freeze
For just one second
Boarding pass check
Departure card check
The taxi is waiting and your suitcases are out front
I must have kissed you a hundred times
From that dawn to the moment you walked off our steps
But when I stood there at the window
watching you leave
I still couldn't help but want one more kiss.
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 7:36 AM UTC
Proceed with caution
There are so many shades of truth
Proceed with caution
Promises get broken
When their master evolves
Proceed with caution
Pain is addictive and
Sadness turns into a passionate habit
Proceed with caution
Good men make misery like it's their art
So I say it one more time
Proceed with caution my love
Because you'll never trust again
Once you realize how reckless it is
Like a love affair between metal and rust.
Feb 11, 2017
Feb 11, 2017 at 8:14 PM UTC
The eclipse of two hearts
With lips and souls meeting
Life will flash
With purpose and meaning
This is what we believe
That true love is not destructive
And that most of us deserve it
We trust it's all we need
We so eagerly believe
Because how else will you paint your life
When the only perfect tint
Is born in the lips
Of a lover's Red lie
Feb 3, 2017
Feb 3, 2017 at 7:29 PM UTC