I was struggling to curl into sleeps somber embrace, I couldn’t accept his warm and gentle touch. You had aided me in times of restlessness, whispering words that had me lulling into that blissful darkness. I’ve found myself yearning for it as days pass, as the connection between us goes silent yet again, so I’m awake pondering over the endless ideas of you and I, some evenings I’ll even try to whisper the same sweet nothings to myself to see if it’ll help, but it only get me thinking of you a little bit more. Some evenings I paint over the purple bags under my eyes, trying to pretend that everything is ok, but it fades away throughout the day, along with that tenuous hope. So I go on, unnoticed and exhausted.
You keep me up well through the break of dawn, just as the sun begins to peek over the horizon, I can’t help but feel my heart break get just a little bit worse with each sunrise.
Sep 7, 2020
Sep 7, 2020 at 2:31 AM UTC
“I’m not hungry, I’m not full. I’ve starved myself of you for so long, I dont want to even begin to imagine what you taste like.”
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 1:54 AM UTC
"Slam my head against the wall, pretend all you want. My body protests your want. A pounding headache filled with no’s and stops’s.
My love has evaporated and I wish with all of my heart that it would fill the void between us, but when I lay next to you, all I feel is emptiness."
Jul 9, 2020
Jul 9, 2020 at 11:20 PM UTC
"Tailgate gazing, feet hanging.
One glance and you’ve got my heartbeat hammering.
I’ve been hungover on the thought of you.
Dazed, and missing you.
I’m being consumed."
Jul 7, 2020
Jul 7, 2020 at 11:33 PM UTC
”Infinite galaxies come running down my tear stained cheek.
I’m swept away in this pain.
Cherished memories washed away, always down the drain.
I envy the days where I felt so endless, even when I ached.”
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 3:17 AM UTC
“Remember our cigarettes & the oil rigs. City lights, and drunken nights.
Remember the scabbed lips and 1:00am road trips. Races and white long sleeves. Christmas Eve burn outs, empty parking lot makouts. Piggy back rides, and best friends forever. Remember the kissing and love making. Shirtless & in love, punches in the face, followed with forgiveness. Unfairness and regret. How I see you and seem not to forget.“
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 3:21 AM UTC
“So strong, so fierce, forever bright is the fire that lines my core. The burning and churning of my brain, will it end; never will come that day. Ignite my heart, set it aflame. Blood seeps from past mistakes, I feel no pain, so I ponder on the idea of going away. I scream at you, you’ll scream back, but I’ll scream louder leaving a crack. I’ll always be louder, pushing you farther and farther back. Take my reins, try and take control, I’ll forever reign in this big black hole. Long live the past, a part of me that will forever last”
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 3:12 AM UTC
“I see the orbs in the dark of night, they float, grow, and glow causing such a fright. A fear so menacing, a fear so bright. Do not scurry away into the night. The orbs so rare, so real, what an awful dread. Before you know it, you’ll be dead. They’ll catch you, trip you, pull you away, they’ll make you fall simply far far away. There’s no escaping something so tall, don’t turn from the inevitable crying, instead welcome it smiling”
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 3:10 AM UTC
”Look to the heavens, see the angels soar. Feel the laughter reverberating off of the shore. Sheer happiness coats his tongue. Looking off into the distance, Lucifer hears a roar, a roar of laughter, seeing his father in such joy. A twang of jealously soon jabs him away. The taste of guilt so evident, clear as day. His fair maiden has been swept away, she has made such a chore, deceiving the Devil once more. Lucifer falls to Earths very core. They’re betrayal will forever be the beginning of the end. The greatest mistake our father will ever commit. He who will walk this floor, wrecking havoc on those who are so poor. See him mercilessly march through the flames, anger and temptation at his very touch. You’ll never escape the Devil, not after he’s done so much“
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 3:08 AM UTC
“Grocery store glances, and one right hand turn.
Run away from roaming eyes, ignore the faded t-shirt and broadened back.
Eyes of blue, eerie, distant and filled with dismay.
Dangerous and taunting, tormenting my insides, so I’m daring the fates and stealing a glance, all the while I’m losing a staring contest. I sigh, and try not to remember.
Heart hammering and breathing begins to become heavy.
Heart aches, and bones shake. Surrendering the thought of you, while sanding down my heart to refinish it to its normal state.
Steady breathing, and bare bodies, memories flash, heated glances and hurtful chanting.
Hating distances and grocery bags, I sag at the thought of you, and forget why I ever hated you.”
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 2:35 AM UTC