my mind is forever underestimated
no one sees the true sparkle i am making
they talk about me behind my back,but in front of me i become intimidating
everyday i'm hallucinating,
ground crumple beneath the wisdom i am sharing
little did i know how much i was suffocating
and when i knew,i let it be like i knew the end was closer than it may seem
heart pounding while the days are passing by me
it always sounded fuzzy to me,but why was i forever asleep?7
maybe its because of the way i was made?
god save me from this game
it becomes harder everyday
and the players less but that doesn't make sense..
maybe i am the one whose not making any sense,
i never put it this way before but maybe i'm the reason why,
the reason why everything around me seems never ending,
maybe its true but that is still senseless
what if it was all a part of my mind
playing games on me every night
oh god i am so tired
always wondering when this **** will die
and let me be the butterfly that deserves to fly.
Aug 29, 2015
Aug 29, 2015 at 1:04 PM UTC
As I grew I knew..
I knew I was being used by all ..
I knew I was hated by all ..
I knew I had no control ..
I knew my existence was wrong ..
I knew I was in the dark for too long ..
I knew I had many scars to show ..
I knew they were too stupid to know ..
I knew I was tired of pretending to be strong ..
But the most painful thing is that the more I knew,
the more i realized I wasn't wanted it this world.
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 7:42 AM UTC
Can you feel my heart bleeding
I'm trying to find a way out and you're blaming
Blaming me for making you feel so mistaken
But the truth is that its not you fault I'm breaking
They called me words and you were just there starring
They knocked me down and you weren't even caring
But now you come back and say that you understand
Understand the fact that I've been all by myself
Waiting for someone to get me out of this mess
But you know what the biggest mistake I did?
It was waiting for you or anybody else
I thought that they could save me but I was wrong
I felt so guilty but guilt isn't helpful anymore
And cutting myself was the only thing I knew
But now I see the world from a whole different view
Don't get me wrong I'm not that kind of human
I might seem reckless but I'm in fact just very clueless
I just needed care and it was the only thing I didn't receive
So instead I started harming myself thinking that somebody would believe
Believe the fact that I'm just not perfect
Look Me in the eyes and tell me what do you see
Cause in case you didn't know it's where my demons remain...
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 11:08 AM UTC
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Break the logic and make me see a star
Mirror mirror can't you see,
the angel you're showing is a demon to me
Mirror mirror despite the truth,
And show me a lie of my ugly bruise
Mirror mirror hide my scars,
Maybe then I'll handle the fact
Mirror mirror can't you see,
What you're showing is destroying me
Mirror mirror why are you so cruel,
You've ruined life's without making a move
Mirror mirror on the wall,
The ******* society is responsible for it all
And you know what the funniest thing is?
We blame the society and don't realize we are it.
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 8:56 AM UTC