I'm a dreamer,
And I dream dreams of being things that I can only fathom.
I have a vision for the provision of a new meaning.
Against all odds they beg me to keep silent.
It took my breath away,
I closed my eyes and began to pray.
I don't conform to the standards of the wicked,
The morally unjust,
Unethical and vile creatures.
I cannot put a price on what I'm trying to obtain.
I was granted the chance to live again,
So I have to make it count.
I refuse to become a victim,
To be to powerless to change.
I refined my intellectual skills and began to seek truth.
Submerged in the words of the wise,
I chose to follow the one who sees and not the blind.
The decision is yours.
Dec 22, 2015
Dec 22, 2015 at 2:54 AM UTC
Why life is so hard,
And why am I alive?
When nobody cares about me,
About my pitiful life,
So, why am I still here?
Why did God creates me?
Was is so I could tip a hole through my soul?
Pull my heart tight out of my chest?
Stomp on it and watch it breath for it's very last breath?
I have no purpose in this forsaken world,
So why am I still here?
You've given all others purposes,
But you've left out me,
Does this mean I should take my own life?
Am I just an empty vessel in your eyes?
Was it mean I created as pawn in your game?
My life means nothing,
I have no purpose,
So, why am I still here?
I have no heart nor soul,
Should I take my own life?
Is that what I was created for?
Am I just an empty vessel?
That has been born and that will die,
So, why am I here?
And why was I created?
Was it so I could suffer for what I may have done in my past life?
I don't understand why am I still here.
Can somebody help this empty vessel to find a purpose of life?
I trapped in this little world,
Because my heart and soul,
Have been ripped right out of my chest,
Devoured by darkness,
I'm left here to die,
Crying for eternity,
I'm just an empty vessel.
So, for the last time I ask again,
Why am I still here?
Nov 30, 2015
Nov 30, 2015 at 9:40 AM UTC
Why is it that I'm never be seen?
I'm the only one that doesn't gleam,
Through my joyful, happy disguise,
Can't you see the pain in my eyes?
Though still I have friends,
But I locked in my head,
Hurtful words they never said.
You made me feel worthless,
Like I'm the odd one out,
But on the inside,
I have won.
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 12:32 PM UTC
The ice on my heart cracks with every touch,
Your gentle hand makes my blood rush.
The wind it blows outside,
So quietly,
As you lay here beside me.
The fear inside rises quickly,
With the thought of you leaving,
I can't breathe when you're gone,
Without you I would die.
I don't want you to leave,
And this is why I'm crying,
Please stay with me tonight,
Don't leave me here in fright.
Please stay and love me,
Only you who can free me,
You are my light,
My heart,
My breath.
Only with you my soul can rest,
Only you can heal the pain in my chest.
Without you,
I feel worthless,
Nothing can make me feel the way you do.
I will never love anyone,
As much as I love you.
So I will ask,
And continue to plead,
Please just don't leave me.
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 1:43 AM UTC
Sometimes it's hard to turn yourself different,
Where you won't get hurt depending on who you are,
How your heart is.
Hoping this time,
I won't get hurt and it works out,
I've tried to turn into someone different,
Where I won't get hurt but I care too much.
I can't change,
My heart is different,
That's why I hurt so easily.
If it doesn't go good this time,
I'm giving up,
So it won't happen again.
Nov 22, 2015
Nov 22, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
Perhaps a few years hence,
You'd know what I meant,
When I asked you to stay;
There are feelings disfigured,
Emotions you've triggered,
That don't separate,
Making me weak and useless.
Maybe you'll never understand,
For it was truly unplanned,
When for once I asked you,
To wait, to stay, to be...
Yet you've told me,
You were busy.
I'll forget these feelings,
And wait for my heart,
That'll heal with time;
Of all things I've done, will do,
I shall never beg for you.
Nov 21, 2015
Nov 21, 2015 at 7:16 PM UTC
We sat at the park staring at each other,
Promising ourselves a future we knew nothing of,
Are we going to stay happy together forever?
That was what we asked ourselves always,
But then we looked up and in the sky and said time will tell.
Well the beginning seemed promising,
You were my best friend,
We looked perfect together,
We promised not to hurt each other,
We were so in love with one another.
Days passed,
Months passing by,
Then problems started,
Arguments settled in,
We were both insecure,
We loved each other and the thought of letting go hurt,
The though of me seeing you walk away,
Or seeing you with another man hurts the most.
Despite these problems we held each other closely,
I promised not to let you go of what we had,
I couldn't let go of something I could never stop thinking about,
I couldn't give up on the future we had planned together,
We fought through all these problems and become victors,
I guess we are destined to be together,
I pray to God to keep us happy and stronger together forever.
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 5:41 AM UTC
It's been a year since first time I've met you,
I don't know how to explain,
It's late at night,
And I still can't get you out of my mind,
I remember when I saw you,
I couldn't believe my eyes you were so beautiful,
Nice looking,
That perfect smile,
I just couldn't believe it,
At the moment,
I didn't know if I were dreaming or what,
But you were the most amazing girl in the room,
I almost had you in all my classes,
But I was too scared, and shy to approach you,
And now,
Its like, if I don't say,
"Hi I feel like if I was, I'm the darkest place in some universe where you are my sun"
Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 10:00 PM UTC
I don't understand,
You trash me away,
With no reason to say.
You packed your bags,
And walked away,
With no farewell to say,
I am all alone thinking,
In the darkness wondering.
I loved you,
I cared for you,
But you didn't even care,
You broke my heart as if I wasn't there.
You lied to me all along,
The love I gave you,
You took it as a joke,
I should have known,
But I have to be strong.
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 11:04 AM UTC
For who am I, compared to you,
For you are a lion and I'm a mouse,
Living among lies in an abusive house,
I skitter and skatter until you pounce,
For there is nowhere to hide,
And none by my side,
I feel alone,
In this broken home,
Day by day I wish and pray.
But no one listens,
For what I have to say,
For that after all who am I compared to you,
For you are a lion and I'm a mouse.
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 6:12 AM UTC