Zmęczona kawka,
Przycupnąwszy na chodnik
Zastygła na wieki.
Mar 31, 2020
Mar 31, 2020 at 12:53 PM UTC
I got friends
Whom I adore
For keeping me sane.
When I'm on a fence
Like many times before
They help me with pain.
When life makes no sense
And my body feels sore
They come to entertain
There is no chance
For me not to be bored
But they alleviate
My friends are not humans
They are sensations and things
A console with games
Books that make me think
A cup of hot tea
Before I go to sleep
And last but not least
Music
That gives me feelings to feel
Mar 29, 2020
Mar 29, 2020 at 3:42 PM UTC
'To cease to exist is what I am after.'
I thought silently, then I masked it with laughter.
I looked in the mirror, cursed my reflection
Then I winked at it as a playful banter
I swear my head is a house of slaughter.
You better lock your doors and mark your borders
As I come like wolves to happy mortals
And destroy all hope like a rain of mortars
I stand in a crowd, let the people pass me by
The flood of smiles as I'm trying not to break down and cry
A hurricane of lies spins the web of our demise
A purpose is a disguise when the times are hard
I count to ten, twice, let the storm calm down.
But the waves come crashing down from the starboard bow
I either swim or sink, so I live or die
But I cannot swim when my thoughts are paralyzed
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 12:46 PM UTC
My mind's a quarantine, I'm isolated now
I've broken hope within, my hopeless state of art
Abandon what I seek, that ship has sailed away
I dance upon my grave, at nights I try to pray
But as the shadows grow, they laugh right in my face
The ceiling stays the same, I imagine the sky.
All of the stars I've never seen
Will I see them when I die?
The silence pierces ears
In the shadow of the night
My mind is quarantined
Sick of being alive
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 11:30 AM UTC
I've been writing a lot, putting about everything that I got into the lines
that should help me deal with my mind, so nowadays everything is filled with rhymes, half of the time I'm bound
to see the words combined, and still hurt;
still got my feet in dirt, still feeling anxious and burnt.
I got candles all over the place, but the light is too weak
I turn on the lightbulbs but
but they're all too dim,
sometimes I want to scream
but the walls are too thick
and I don't have the energy to get through them,
so I'm sick, and my throat is ripped, so I can't speak
Walking around like I lost direction, always looking for connection
But never taking action to connect the dots, I'm facing
the ego annihilation, never been too mainstream, that's too basic
Sadness in your faces, happiness impatient,
It must be out there waiting in a different constelation,
Feelings that I'm chasing, are a bunch of dumb sensations
In this living session, always searching for compassion
But we turn into the ashes, our smoke becomes a message
Now play the essence of the feelings like a radio station
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 11:56 AM UTC
I'm too wasted to have a conversation
And you all seem way too happy!
I should wait for our altercation
Before you get too snappy
Driving up in my sunset high
When the sky is clear and open
When I steer, my thoughts can fly
Like wings that have been broken
Well, I've wrecked my hopes,
Washed away by time
That's the destination "nowhere"
Gonna drive until it rains
Doesn't life seem over?
As I burn the bridges,
I hit the gas and speed up
Like a heart on *******
When they burned the witches
No one begged to differ
Well, I do now and that's okay!
I may be different, I may be worse
But I'm better in my own skin
Get off your throne or I'll wreck your horse
And the empire of all kings
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 2:02 PM UTC
Welcome, sir, and get up to the last dance.
Not my fault - you made the choice when you went through the entrance.
Have a little bit of patience, though,
I'm in demand on this masquerade.
Oh, how the lights flicker, see? And the shadows spoil my senses.
That's a tad senseless of you to get on my nerves - offensive...
But I understand the sentiment, you are restless,
Well, I never let you close your eyelids once you drop the curtains.
All the offenses a gentleman like you keeps in his memories,
You are a cancer to the working class.
Your defense is - you desired to be wealthy.
Have a glass of gin, your mouth seems filthy.
The oppression you have built, indeed
Needed a mastermind, alike to mine
A nine to five would not be fine for us.
The masses abiding us; we even control the foreigners.
Please observe my lovely smile,
This balet - stand on your toes and prance around.
Like the puppet on the strings I have pulled a thousand times.
Are you sure you are worthy to see through my disguise?
Pardon me, sir, henceforth
I'm your conscience, the one you have cancelled
Hidden in the stacks of gold
But the truth is, a soul can't be sold.
Weep, my dear, in quiet sorrow.
For us, as it turns out, there is no tomorrow.
The combination of ***** and alcohol
Is known of being thorough.
All this injustice you have caused
Was working on the time you had borrowed.
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 8:04 AM UTC
We praise the broken pictures
And hail the holy scriptures
Inhale the superstitions
Stare into shiny mirrors
No matter what your fear is
Let me guide you by appearance
As the place that we live in
Is bleakly mysterious
A mistful satisfaction
I’m shivering from the tension
All by myself I’m dancing
In futile comprehension
Does that make make you anxious?
Under the microscopic lenses
All we are is a fairly transient
Bunch of aliens, barely sentient
Is this a worthwhile desire
To seek for a world to admire?
Is this what I want
Or is my brain a liar?
So I keep up a smile
And it’s been working wonders
Whether I’m feeling content
Or I’m hiding in dark corners
Jan 11, 2019
Jan 11, 2019 at 10:31 AM UTC
A friend always told me
To speak when necessary
I took it to my heart for life.
Even when I’m lonely
Of many words I’m wary
Unless I want to show my mind.
Sometimes I wonder, though
How many thoughts I’ve buried
Instead of using them to fight
Now nobody calls me,
Even when I’m worried
Laying awake, all alone at night.
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 8:22 AM UTC
Like a leaf in the wind, I whirl around and fly
If I move my wings I might meet you in the skies
Right across the street, drowning in your eyes
Following your dreams or whatever might apply
Close my moonlit eyes, follow into space
Love is a disguise, and you cannot know my name
I live in the stars, right behind the frame
Look into my heart, my dreams wrapped in cellophane
Uncouth gait, do you believe in fate?
Silence in the air as the flower petals fade
Almost like the days, well I don’t follow the dates
And I’m, on the same page, till it becomes my main
Reading broken lines, looping all the words
And I’m breaking time, reversing the clocks
I don’t require a fire if I never had a spark
But, I could use your lighter if I go into the dark
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 8:12 AM UTC