Relationships flourish when there is a connection,
And yet both sides are scared to show true affection.
To take a chance and put it all on the line,
And risk looking like you're asinine.
As the bond gets stronger, you begin to question,
The unknown soon becomes your obsession.
Black and white, defined lines in the sand,
Unsure of what to do, frozen where you stand.
Should you do this? What should you say?
To cross the line and turn the colors grey?
A leap of faith is all it seems to take,
It could end well or be another mistake.
The heart burns inside as you make a decision,
As both your fates seem to be heading for collision.
You either make it out alive or watch it unfold,
Unsure of what will be left to behold.
You fight with emotion, you fight with it all,
As you lose yourself in a bottle of alcohol.
The night is long, you say hello to every hour,
As you try to forget all that isn’t in your power.
Peace at last from the thoughts in your head.
Everything goes dark, silence, at least for a while,
But your phone; a text from her with a smile.
It gives you life, it gives you drive and yet also sadness,
As it sets you again on that deadly path to madness.
To find someone as innocent and pure,
So difficult to not succumb to the allure.
And yet you wait until the time is right,
But then she says she found someone the other night.
Crushed, hopes dashed, you never had a chance,
You try to stop yourself from going into a trance.
The struggle in your mind has finally ceased,
Your demons finally have been released.
The decisions been made, out of your control,
Fates have chosen for you, to them you extol.
As much as it pains you, you were blinded,
Made to believe something you minded.
Yes, you loved her, you have a history.
But now your feelings remain a mystery.
Thoughts of you holding her close, tightly embraced,
Sorrow sets in; realizing that you’ve been replaced...
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 3:06 PM UTC
I stand in harms way,
Just to protect you,
I call you beautiful,
Just to make you smile,
I listen to you speak,
Just to hear your voice,
I try to spend time with you,
Just to see you be happy.
And yet despite it all,
No matter what I do,
No matter what I say,
I am merely a shadow,
Until it's something you need,
When no one else is there,
Only then do I matter,
Only then do you care.
I am an open book,
You know who I am,
And yet you choose others,
People that disrespect you,
Treat you in the worst way,
I see you in pain,
And yet despite it all,
I try my best to make it right.
It comes full circle,
I can't help but be who i am,
I want to see you smile,
I want to see you laugh,
I want to wipe away the tears,
And take away your sorrows,
No matter what I do,
No matter what I say...
I am nothing more to you,
But another shadow,
That will just fade with time,
Into the darkness...
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 2:28 AM UTC
Yearning for that connection,
Teased with it, for all these years,
Blinded by it, enveloped by it,
Finding it again, my only goal,
I miss it, I'm incomplete without it,
A part of me dies, each time,
That it's ripped away,
One day, maybe I'll succeed,
Find it and keep it close,
But odds are, it'll be torn away,
And leave me worse for ware,
Tis better to have loved and lost,
Then to have never loved at all,
They always seem to say,
But it is those that are in love,
Seem to say it most,
Built up and torn down,
Seems to be my curse,
Dangling the prize,
Just outside my reach,
Oh, you almost had it,
So close, yet so far,
An endless battle,
With no end in sight,
A broken soul is like a puzzle,
With missing pieces,
No matter how close you come,
No matter how many pieces you find,
It will never be whole,
It will never be complete...
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 1:21 AM UTC
Day in and day out,
We drive ourselves,
To be better, to be great,
And yet for what?
To satisfy others?
To make us happy?
Happiness seems so distant,
When it's in perspective.
It's perplexing,
Trying to comprehend,
Who are we to decide,
What makes us, us?
Society?
The opinions of others?
We aren't made,
By things around us.
Through actions we grow,
Words fall on deaf ears,
We can say one thing,
But mean something else,
We can't be led astray,
Down a path of darkness,
To a place where,
You lose yourself,
Forget who you really are,
No matter where you are,
It will come to an end,
When you look around,
No one will be there,
You will be forgotten,
Despite that grim outlook,
Stand tall, stand proud,
Oppose the slander,
Fight the opposition,
Stand alone...
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 1:04 AM UTC
Darkness surrounds us,
Smoke clouds the room,
Bass shakes our core,
Music moves us,
As one solid form,
Your body against mine,
Ecstasy controls me,
Caressing your curves,
Feeling your touch,
Sweat drips to the floor,
You close your eyes,
Move to the beat,
Your body follows mine,
Movements flow smooth,
Your breath grows heavy,
You pull me closer,
Our movements slow,
Time slows to a crawl,
The crowd disappears,
We are in our own world,
An endless moment,
A moment without end,
Or so it would seem,
Alone we dance,
As the world stands still...
Feb 10, 2014
Feb 10, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
The cold wind blows, reaching though your very soul,
Making your body shiver, trying to keep warm,
Each step you take, echoes along each wall,
Moonlight shining through clouds in the sky,
Suddenly the light disappears, it all grows dark,
The echoes stop, you're breathing heavy,
Looking around each shadow seems to move,
Whispers come from all around, panic sets in,
Heart races; you lose track of time,
The whispers grow louder as they seem to close in,
Your hearts in your throat as you feel someone near,
Closing your eyes, the voices become deafening,
Laughter begins to fill your ears, fear is all that remains,
In an instant, it all stops just as fast as it began,
Nothing stood where you once were, just emptiness,
The winds blow away the dust that remains,
You're gone, consumed by the darkness,
Only leaving a memory of what was once there,
Moonlight shines through the clouds in the sky,
Showing that what you once were was gone...
Jan 7, 2014
Jan 7, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
I would always hold my head up high,
Trying to make you smile when things seem dark,
Never do I expect anything in return,
My voice would always speak those reassuring words,
Letting you know that everything is alright,
Wishing away all the harm from ever being near,
Protecting you from pain and putting myself in its path,
Giving everything I know up so that you are happy,
I hold you closer than you will ever know,
You'll never know how I feel when you're smiling at me,
My knees tremble, my palms grow cold,
I refuse to let these things show, bright as day,
Pulse races when you touch my skin,
Fighting the urge I hold my tongue,
Your heart is held by another, one I will never be,
Being who I am, I will never step in the way,
The happiness you have is more important,
Than the feelings I may have,
I want whats best for you, to never shed a tear,
Stifle those emotions I feel, not risking pushing you away,
I'd rather have you as a friend than not at all,
It pains me to see you with another, but no matter,
I'll be here, whenever it is you need me...
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 11:36 PM UTC
Looking into her eyes,
I lose myself,
Hearing her voice,
The sound; calming,
Her touch,
Sends chills up my spine,
My eyes close,
I think to myself,
Of what could possibly be,
In a different world than this,
One where I am not who I am,
A place where I am another,
Where I am the one you want,
Where I am by your side,
If only this were that world,
Maybe life would be better,
In this world I walk alone,
As time passes by,
A road travelled by only me,
Only one set of footprints,
Walking the path of life,
In this world, she's taken,
By someone else,
And yet all I do is hope,
And pray at night,
That everyday she wakes,
She wakes with a smile...
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 11:36 PM UTC
It's difficult to find the words,
When you can't foresee the response;
Fear grips at your soul, the purest intentions,
Leaving you unknowing and scared...
The mind draws up every outcome,
No matter how good or bad they may be;
The uncertainty is unbearable, nerve racking,
All leading up to the point you finally break...
The weight of the world comes down,
Bringing you to your knees;
Unknown is the response that will come,
And yet, the unknown is strangely calming...
They may not know the pain I feel,
Every single time they see me;
Nor do they know how much they mean,
Maybe they too have this same fear...
One can only hope this to be the case,
The world is a strange place;
Crazier things have happened in life,
To sit in the shadows or welcome the light...
Dawn comes each day,
Bringing with it new chances;
New risks and challenges to test us,
We must best them while we still can...
I'll take the risk, once again,
Despite the many failures of my past;
I'm scared, I'll be the first to admit,
But life isn't life without taking those risks...
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 11:35 PM UTC
The nights grow long and cold,
Leaves begin to fall, as the winds bring change.
The world around me slowly dies,
Leaving everything barren and empty.
Walking the path, the leaves crumble at my feet,
Crunching, crackling, broken down into nothing.
I've walked this path for a years,
Watching the seasons come and go.
I grow tired, but still I press on,
Down the long winding path that is life.
Everything around me changes,
And yet I still remain the same.
Unchanged, unmoved, alone in this endeavour,
Carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.
The burdens of so-called humanity,
The sins of a society doomed to crumble.
Crumble like the leaves underneath my feet.
Sweat covers my brow, muscles ache,
Breath becomes heavy, as pain grips my heart.
I am all that remains of a noble breed,
A man most would call a gentleman, a nice guy.
I would throw myself into the fire,
Just to save those I love, and yet, here I am.
As the world keeps changing, continuing to sin,
The weight growing with each passing season.
One day I will break, and I shall finally crumble,
Just like the leaves, leaving nothing behind.
Oct 2, 2013
Oct 2, 2013 at 1:37 AM UTC