tori-valentine - Hello Poetry

I will smile As if you never hurt me I will laugh Louder than I ever did when I was with you I will sleep Without crying over you I will see Different shade that I could never see with you I will be fearless No more will I be afraid of having to keep you satisfied I will be strong Stronger that I ever was with you I will cry But it sure as hell won't be over you I will cheer Until my voice can no longer take it I will be happy Because I know I'm worth it I will treasure myself Because you never did I will cherish my scars Because they have made me stronger But there is one thing I will do for you I will thank you Because you are the reason I became the one I am today ~vf

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Nov 12, 2013

Nov 12, 2013 at 3:28 PM UTC

This is My Sweet Revenge

I will smile As if you never hurt me I will laugh Louder than I ever did when I was with you I will sleep Without crying over you I will see Different shade that I could never see with you I will be fearless No more will I be afraid of having to keep you satisfied I will be strong Stronger that I ever was with you I will cry But it sure as hell won't be over you I will cheer Until my voice can no longer take it I will be happy Because I know I'm worth it I will treasure myself Because you never did I will cherish my scars Because they have made me stronger But there is one thing I will do for you I will thank you Because you are the reason I became the one I am today ~vf

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I stand here Frozen in fear In fear of what you might say In fear of what you think of me today I've liked you for a long time A very very long time And I have finally told you But now you don't talk to me Not anymore Though we never talked much in the first place I was far too scared Far too nervous to speak to you Now I have And now you ignore me. What did I do? What can I do? ~vf

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Nov 12, 2013

Nov 12, 2013 at 3:11 PM UTC

Untitled

I stand here Frozen in fear In fear of what you might say In fear of what you think of me today I've liked you for a long time A very very long time And I have finally told you But now you don't talk to me Not anymore Though we never talked much in the first place I was far too scared Far too nervous to speak to you Now I have And now you ignore me. What did I do? What can I do? ~vf

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Maybe I'm a little crazy Maybe I'm a little sad Maybe I'm upset Maybe I'm mad Maybe I hate myself And maybe I don't Maybe I want to hurt myself And maybe I won't My own mind scares me It hold a lot It hold all of my pain Every scar I got Maybe I'm scared To love again Scared to be rejected over and over again Maybe I'm tired Of being put down And maybe my poem Can keep me on the ground I can't say I hate myself I don't myself yet But when I do I'll hate her too From what I have become To what I will be I have honestly turned into Not even the person I want to see I'm tainted and scarred All are self-inflicted I need help Please save me ~vf

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Nov 12, 2013

Nov 12, 2013 at 3:02 PM UTC

Maybe I'm....

Maybe I'm a little crazy Maybe I'm a little sad Maybe I'm upset Maybe I'm mad Maybe I hate myself And maybe I don't Maybe I want to hurt myself And maybe I won't My own mind scares me It hold a lot It hold all of my pain Every scar I got Maybe I'm scared To love again Scared to be rejected over and over again Maybe I'm tired Of being put down And maybe my poem Can keep me on the ground I can't say I hate myself I don't myself yet But when I do I'll hate her too From what I have become To what I will be I have honestly turned into Not even the person I want to see I'm tainted and scarred All are self-inflicted I need help Please save me ~vf

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Hello? Germaine, you there? It's been a little over a year since you left us all I miss you so much You have no idea how much I miss you I wish I could have talked to you that night I wish I had given you more hugs More smiles More laughs I wonder every night why you killed yourself And I feel so lost You were the one to hug me, make me laugh, make me smile when I was sad And now I know you can never come back It makes me so sad I wish I had hung out with you more And I wish I was there for you when you needed me the most Please forgive me, Germaine. I love you and miss you. Hope it's nice up there in heaven.

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Nov 8, 2013

Nov 8, 2013 at 2:05 PM UTC

I Miss You(Tribute to a friend who commited suicide)

Hello? Germaine, you there? It's been a little over a year since you left us all I miss you so much You have no idea how much I miss you I wish I could have talked to you that night I wish I had given you more hugs More smiles More laughs I wonder every night why you killed yourself And I feel so lost You were the one to hug me, make me laugh, make me smile when I was sad And now I know you can never come back It makes me so sad I wish I had hung out with you more And I wish I was there for you when you needed me the most Please forgive me, Germaine. I love you and miss you. Hope it's nice up there in heaven.

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I hate you You used me I trusted you You fooled me You played me I feel so lost What did I do to deserve this? I thought you loved me I really thought you cared I thought you said you would always be there for me You are a liar A backstabber Why the hell did you even think I was worth saving? I was alright before you came along, then you ruined me Your actions are the reasons I have cut myself The reason I started after ELEVEN long months of being clean You are the reason I cried myself to sleep at night I hope you are proud of what you have done I hope you can see the mess I have become I hope you realize that what has happened was because of you You stole my heart withouy any permission And refused to give it back You nailed it to a tree, then smiled at me

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Nov 8, 2013

Nov 8, 2013 at 1:56 PM UTC

The Things She Would Never Say

I hate you You used me I trusted you You fooled me You played me I feel so lost What did I do to deserve this? I thought you loved me I really thought you cared I thought you said you would always be there for me You are a liar A backstabber Why the hell did you even think I was worth saving? I was alright before you came along, then you ruined me Your actions are the reasons I have cut myself The reason I started after ELEVEN long months of being clean You are the reason I cried myself to sleep at night I hope you are proud of what you have done I hope you can see the mess I have become I hope you realize that what has happened was because of you You stole my heart withouy any permission And refused to give it back You nailed it to a tree, then smiled at me

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You damaged me Abused me Played me Fooled me You left me in the dark Leaving me to fall apart I trusted you I should have known, I wish I knew You left me out in the rain To bathe in my sorrow, my pain But with all this stuff you put me through You made me stronger, it's true But no matter how much I try I sit there and wonder why I cried Over you, a liar Until I tired But now I smile, not trying to hide All the pain I kept inside I've grown up a lot since we last talked I stood on my feet and learned to walk With my two strong legs, which have grown strong I wish I could see this all along My cuts are healed But my scars are real But they are my scars from battles I won I am the one

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Nov 8, 2013

Nov 8, 2013 at 1:34 PM UTC

From the Girl You Used

You damaged me Abused me Played me Fooled me You left me in the dark Leaving me to fall apart I trusted you I should have known, I wish I knew You left me out in the rain To bathe in my sorrow, my pain But with all this stuff you put me through You made me stronger, it's true But no matter how much I try I sit there and wonder why I cried Over you, a liar Until I tired But now I smile, not trying to hide All the pain I kept inside I've grown up a lot since we last talked I stood on my feet and learned to walk With my two strong legs, which have grown strong I wish I could see this all along My cuts are healed But my scars are real But they are my scars from battles I won I am the one

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Everyday I am haunted By the scars on my hips, wrist, stomach, and thighs. I hope everyday my parents won't see them. I'm scared of what others think I'm scared that I will be sent away again, Away to a place that filled me with fear, A place people call, "The Mental House," Yes, I did try to **** myself, but that was long ago But now I struggle with the razors that call my name The yearning for the sting of a cut across my scarred skin The desire to feel like I'm not in a dream. Everything is so unreal I never thought it would happen But it did, now I'm living with it. I'm happy to say I am three weeks clean, But I don't think it will last very long Life is not easy and I'm not that strong.

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Nov 6, 2013

Nov 6, 2013 at 1:40 PM UTC

This Is My Life, My Struggles.

Everyday I am haunted By the scars on my hips, wrist, stomach, and thighs. I hope everyday my parents won't see them. I'm scared of what others think I'm scared that I will be sent away again, Away to a place that filled me with fear, A place people call, "The Mental House," Yes, I did try to **** myself, but that was long ago But now I struggle with the razors that call my name The yearning for the sting of a cut across my scarred skin The desire to feel like I'm not in a dream. Everything is so unreal I never thought it would happen But it did, now I'm living with it. I'm happy to say I am three weeks clean, But I don't think it will last very long Life is not easy and I'm not that strong.

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I've moved on from the last guy, He no longer makes my heart race, After what he did to me, I'm amazed I took him back. He played me for a fool, Saw my true self, And crushed it in the palm of his hand. I cried and cried believing it was my fault, When he was the one really pulling the strings. I was fooled into thinking he loved me When really, I had no clue Why in the world would he love a girl like me? Though it is painful, I'll say it again, I have moved on.

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Nov 6, 2013

Nov 6, 2013 at 1:30 PM UTC

Believe It Or Not

I've moved on from the last guy, He no longer makes my heart race, After what he did to me, I'm amazed I took him back. He played me for a fool, Saw my true self, And crushed it in the palm of his hand. I cried and cried believing it was my fault, When he was the one really pulling the strings. I was fooled into thinking he loved me When really, I had no clue Why in the world would he love a girl like me? Though it is painful, I'll say it again, I have moved on.

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Does not exist Is not real Though we cannot resist To really feel A sense of accepting To keep us smiling. I don't know what perfect means, All I know is what it will cause. It clouds what a person sees And keeps them focused on their flaws. So listen to me, I tell you the truth You are all perfect, I promise you.

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Nov 6, 2013

Nov 6, 2013 at 1:17 PM UTC

Perfection

Does not exist Is not real Though we cannot resist To really feel A sense of accepting To keep us smiling. I don't know what perfect means, All I know is what it will cause. It clouds what a person sees And keeps them focused on their flaws. So listen to me, I tell you the truth You are all perfect, I promise you.

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What did I do? To deserve this bruise I thought I was your little princess But now I'm a little demoness I've loved you, Daddy, with all my heart Even when you would hit me, throw me, hurt me I forgave you from the very start But you continued to abuse me You called me 'worthless,' and 'a waste of time,' Made me cry for having a different mind Put me down emotionallly And yet, I still forgave you immediately For all this time I cried at night All those day I sat with such a fright I still forgive you, you hear I still love you, Daddy dear.

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Nov 6, 2013

Nov 6, 2013 at 10:40 AM UTC

Dear Daddy

What did I do? To deserve this bruise I thought I was your little princess But now I'm a little demoness I've loved you, Daddy, with all my heart Even when you would hit me, throw me, hurt me I forgave you from the very start But you continued to abuse me You called me 'worthless,' and 'a waste of time,' Made me cry for having a different mind Put me down emotionallly And yet, I still forgave you immediately For all this time I cried at night All those day I sat with such a fright I still forgive you, you hear I still love you, Daddy dear.

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