tiffany-lewis - Hello Poetry

A great battle between my past and the present I came here to this stage to drop my words and vent. Repent, From my sins. So what? I gave in. Keep judging , not budging, thinking you're lies are gonna win And inside I am boiling and toiling, the line is getting thin. Working hard to keep cooled, I'm playing nice But ya keep testing me and next time I might not think twice To explode Reload And blast ya with the truth Was trying to keep ties But now they are coming loose You won't listen, you won't try You sit there like you know Then why do I cry? Say I'm cold and I'm changed Maybe I am, from all the pain Is all this hurting me fun and what is there to gain Keep pushing me away And even though you don't know it today You will and I promise regret your choices Later on in your ear, you'll hear the voices Its your mind nagging And bagging on the decision you made Try to push it away but the noise, it won't fade. So keep the turmoil raging inside Keep on the attack because you have something to hide How silly of me, to think in you I could confide Change of ways, darker days, and to you I am seeing a new side It is black and consumes No more blossoms, nothing blooms And my fire it burns, shut your mouth, no more turns Just keep quiet and listen as I spit out the fumes I am tired of this and of that My heart has taken a beating like blows from a bat Quit complaining and saying Things that you know couldn't be real *** miles become feet and feet become inches And I am getting closer to showing you how I feel You once had a cover to keep you looking clean But now it is worn and it is starting to peel And as all of this happens, I pick up steam Moving on Moving forward Moving past Better hurry and get wise This offer just won't last Once I'm over the edge No I can't come back Can handle a bruise but watch out I might crack Think ya got what ya need but it's all going to lack The one thing The true meaning to this The purity and bliss Hope ya have fun *** that's what you'll miss.

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Jul 8, 2011

Jul 8, 2011 at 7:20 PM UTC

Testing Me

A great battle between my past and the present I came here to this stage to drop my words and vent. Repent, From my sins. So what? I gave in. Keep judging , not budging, thinking you're lies are gonna win And inside I am boiling and toiling, the line is getting thin. Working hard to keep cooled, I'm playing nice But ya keep testing me and next time I might not think twice To explode Reload And blast ya with the truth Was trying to keep ties But now they are coming loose You won't listen, you won't try You sit there like you know Then why do I cry? Say I'm cold and I'm changed Maybe I am, from all the pain Is all this hurting me fun and what is there to gain Keep pushing me away And even though you don't know it today You will and I promise regret your choices Later on in your ear, you'll hear the voices Its your mind nagging And bagging on the decision you made Try to push it away but the noise, it won't fade. So keep the turmoil raging inside Keep on the attack because you have something to hide How silly of me, to think in you I could confide Change of ways, darker days, and to you I am seeing a new side It is black and consumes No more blossoms, nothing blooms And my fire it burns, shut your mouth, no more turns Just keep quiet and listen as I spit out the fumes I am tired of this and of that My heart has taken a beating like blows from a bat Quit complaining and saying Things that you know couldn't be real *** miles become feet and feet become inches And I am getting closer to showing you how I feel You once had a cover to keep you looking clean But now it is worn and it is starting to peel And as all of this happens, I pick up steam Moving on Moving forward Moving past Better hurry and get wise This offer just won't last Once I'm over the edge No I can't come back Can handle a bruise but watch out I might crack Think ya got what ya need but it's all going to lack The one thing The true meaning to this The purity and bliss Hope ya have fun *** that's what you'll miss.

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Never-ending war wages behind the white picket fence line Mommy dearest will greet you with a smile and assure you everything is fine But behind closed doors it's a whole different world. From outside it looks so wholesome but inside its dark and twisted The kids beg for a normal life but it's sure they've missed it From outer appearances, it looks like they're living the life Till' the older one breaks and lets lose with a knife And its hard to even go one night Where there isn't screaming, pain, and fist fights It's just not right Unhealthy to both body and mind Living life with no one to reach to that's kind Normalcy is what everyone wants to believe But if only inside one would find The welts and bruises The games and control that mommy always uses To keep them afraid Like animals in a zoo, locked in a cage Continually bouncing between caring and rage To her this power is all a little game And sometimes the pressure builds and the victims struggle to stay sane Ready to break at any second Tired and worn from the continual attacks The family base is weak and full of cracks Compassion is what her heart lacks Little one on her knees and crying Sister can't stand to see her in pain and her heart feels like its dying Her mind is rolling and feels regret It's her fault, she was suppose to be the shield and be there to protect Maybe Mom was right, she's just some reject Made a promise to her lil baby sister and she couldn't follow through Promised "I'll be there, I won't let her hurt you" Finally they older and younger broke away Went to their Daddy's but the middle one stayed And paid For the problems that she caused "You ****** up and that's why you sisters' are gone" Haha, Yes mommy just keep telling yourself that Haha, Why am I laughing you ask? Why, because you're wrong. They left because of you, come on now just swallow the truth And for now I'm stuck but soon I'll be strong I'll gain my wings and be moving along And where will you be? You really wanna know? You will be all alone, in this cold empty home. Left to yourself You created this darkness, now live in your in hell You've pushed too far Look at your life and know you were the one who pulled us all apart.

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Jul 8, 2011

Jul 8, 2011 at 7:16 PM UTC

Pulled Apart

Never-ending war wages behind the white picket fence line Mommy dearest will greet you with a smile and assure you everything is fine But behind closed doors it's a whole different world. From outside it looks so wholesome but inside its dark and twisted The kids beg for a normal life but it's sure they've missed it From outer appearances, it looks like they're living the life Till' the older one breaks and lets lose with a knife And its hard to even go one night Where there isn't screaming, pain, and fist fights It's just not right Unhealthy to both body and mind Living life with no one to reach to that's kind Normalcy is what everyone wants to believe But if only inside one would find The welts and bruises The games and control that mommy always uses To keep them afraid Like animals in a zoo, locked in a cage Continually bouncing between caring and rage To her this power is all a little game And sometimes the pressure builds and the victims struggle to stay sane Ready to break at any second Tired and worn from the continual attacks The family base is weak and full of cracks Compassion is what her heart lacks Little one on her knees and crying Sister can't stand to see her in pain and her heart feels like its dying Her mind is rolling and feels regret It's her fault, she was suppose to be the shield and be there to protect Maybe Mom was right, she's just some reject Made a promise to her lil baby sister and she couldn't follow through Promised "I'll be there, I won't let her hurt you" Finally they older and younger broke away Went to their Daddy's but the middle one stayed And paid For the problems that she caused "You ****** up and that's why you sisters' are gone" Haha, Yes mommy just keep telling yourself that Haha, Why am I laughing you ask? Why, because you're wrong. They left because of you, come on now just swallow the truth And for now I'm stuck but soon I'll be strong I'll gain my wings and be moving along And where will you be? You really wanna know? You will be all alone, in this cold empty home. Left to yourself You created this darkness, now live in your in hell You've pushed too far Look at your life and know you were the one who pulled us all apart.

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A rush of heat runs through and over my body Uncontrollable urges; my body is begging His words fall upon my ears, and my body craves more His smell, his face, and all his being drive me wild I want so badly to feel his body press up against mine To feel his hot whispers against my soft ears My body aches for his In my mind I hope

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Jul 8, 2011

Jul 8, 2011 at 7:10 PM UTC

Hoping

A rush of heat runs through and over my body Uncontrollable urges; my body is begging His words fall upon my ears, and my body craves more His smell, his face, and all his being drive me wild I want so badly to feel his body press up against mine To feel his hot whispers against my soft ears My body aches for his In my mind I hope

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Malignant cancer That you are Metastasizing within my body and soul Displacing the tissues of me With your dark and threatening disease From my blood you feed Shiny, sharpened scalpel To remove you from within Pressing the blade against my tender skin Trying to gain the strength But I continue to let you take

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Jul 8, 2011

Jul 8, 2011 at 4:43 PM UTC

Shiny, Sharpened Scalpel

Malignant cancer That you are Metastasizing within my body and soul Displacing the tissues of me With your dark and threatening disease From my blood you feed Shiny, sharpened scalpel To remove you from within Pressing the blade against my tender skin Trying to gain the strength But I continue to let you take

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Near death experiences surely open up your eyes I finally saw the devil In very clever disguise I took a look in the mirror and I saw him in my eyes. Feels like I’m fading from the world, so no one hears my cries I found temptation where my demons seem to hide Trying not to be the kind to follow Yet to this sickness I did abide Thought I could outwit it, and that’s when my world began to slide Started with one wrong decision And led to many others Far beyond my vision Like hurting those around me and my body in such a collision For those people I love, I’m sorry, I can’t change it or make it right But what this experience has done, is to turn on a glowing light That helped me to see To turn around my life For those others with eyes upon me Rumors and whispers I hear them speak I understand my wrongdoing That’s why I’m struggling to my feet My disappointment in myself is already quite enough Plenty of other obstacles to face Besides your judgment, my life has gotten plenty tough Only reason to look back now, is to learn from my mistake So I can keep on climbing My strength it will not break Reality is waiting, and I’m ready to come back From inside out I’ll remove this disease I must be on the attack I must be relentless and give no pull or slack

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Jul 7, 2011

Jul 7, 2011 at 4:00 PM UTC

A Lesson Learned

Near death experiences surely open up your eyes I finally saw the devil In very clever disguise I took a look in the mirror and I saw him in my eyes. Feels like I’m fading from the world, so no one hears my cries I found temptation where my demons seem to hide Trying not to be the kind to follow Yet to this sickness I did abide Thought I could outwit it, and that’s when my world began to slide Started with one wrong decision And led to many others Far beyond my vision Like hurting those around me and my body in such a collision For those people I love, I’m sorry, I can’t change it or make it right But what this experience has done, is to turn on a glowing light That helped me to see To turn around my life For those others with eyes upon me Rumors and whispers I hear them speak I understand my wrongdoing That’s why I’m struggling to my feet My disappointment in myself is already quite enough Plenty of other obstacles to face Besides your judgment, my life has gotten plenty tough Only reason to look back now, is to learn from my mistake So I can keep on climbing My strength it will not break Reality is waiting, and I’m ready to come back From inside out I’ll remove this disease I must be on the attack I must be relentless and give no pull or slack

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Don’t do that. Give me that look of epitomized stupidity. You must be kidding me. Just stop before I lose control Of everything and all I know. Every time I open up I find myself getting hurt. You don’t want to hear about my pain? Why? *** is causes you discomfort. So then its all about you? Your life on that silver platter. Read between the black and white, the grey matter. Open up your eyes Shed the hollow life, your living lies. I’d test you, maybe bring out the best in you. Try these on for size; my shoes Take a journey of what I’ve been through. I’ll like to see how you do. So what if I have stumbled, I didn’t crash. If it was you, do you think you woulda last? No I didn’t burn, Went straight arrow Never took the wrong turn. Its been a never-ending battle. Me against all Everyone watching to see if I would fall. But I won’t back down I’ll crack down Stay focused on what I have May not be what I wanted but man it was the hand I was dealt Sometimes I think love was an emotion I've never felt. Even if I have to walk this life alone I’ll be sure that one day I could say, Yea, that I made it on my own.

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Jul 7, 2011

Jul 7, 2011 at 2:49 PM UTC

Make It On My Own

Don’t do that. Give me that look of epitomized stupidity. You must be kidding me. Just stop before I lose control Of everything and all I know. Every time I open up I find myself getting hurt. You don’t want to hear about my pain? Why? *** is causes you discomfort. So then its all about you? Your life on that silver platter. Read between the black and white, the grey matter. Open up your eyes Shed the hollow life, your living lies. I’d test you, maybe bring out the best in you. Try these on for size; my shoes Take a journey of what I’ve been through. I’ll like to see how you do. So what if I have stumbled, I didn’t crash. If it was you, do you think you woulda last? No I didn’t burn, Went straight arrow Never took the wrong turn. Its been a never-ending battle. Me against all Everyone watching to see if I would fall. But I won’t back down I’ll crack down Stay focused on what I have May not be what I wanted but man it was the hand I was dealt Sometimes I think love was an emotion I've never felt. Even if I have to walk this life alone I’ll be sure that one day I could say, Yea, that I made it on my own.

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Nowadays I struggle when I look to find something honest and pure To rest the mind. There is so much I wish that I’d never have to see Young kids who barely know how to read Resorting to a life on the street. When times are dark and power is corrupt Minds are brainwashed And some many people are stuck In a rut And are trying to survive Well I don’t get down like I use to No I pull through And why? *** of the spirit The Spirit in your eye Whenever I am lost ,I now know I can be found And who do I have to thank? Well you So true. You brought me to a higher ground Lifted. Endowed with a power to overcome I feel gifted Like I have become strong Far from where I have been, the journey has been long. But worth every moment I owned it And now living my life in better ways I can work for the better for all In coming days. -Tiffany S. Lewis

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Jul 7, 2011

Jul 7, 2011 at 2:47 PM UTC

Spirit In Your Eye

Nowadays I struggle when I look to find something honest and pure To rest the mind. There is so much I wish that I’d never have to see Young kids who barely know how to read Resorting to a life on the street. When times are dark and power is corrupt Minds are brainwashed And some many people are stuck In a rut And are trying to survive Well I don’t get down like I use to No I pull through And why? *** of the spirit The Spirit in your eye Whenever I am lost ,I now know I can be found And who do I have to thank? Well you So true. You brought me to a higher ground Lifted. Endowed with a power to overcome I feel gifted Like I have become strong Far from where I have been, the journey has been long. But worth every moment I owned it And now living my life in better ways I can work for the better for all In coming days. -Tiffany S. Lewis

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A battles been chosen Started from the lies you have woven A government meant to protect Is failing That's what I detect Defect Dishonorable choices Overriding and shutting down the power of our voices The first generation to be afraid to speak Is growing weak Complacency is all the youth seems to know Please tell me where did critical thought go That's right, I thought I saw it fly right out the window Creativity and education Have been replaced in our nation By drugs and thugs Speed, **** and greed Video games, dropping names Glorification of stupidity Stories that fall short of validity The selling of *** has reached an apex Controls minds like a hex I'm afraid of what may come next When the only concern Is not to learn But of things going viral Sure seems we've found ourselves in a downward spiral. -Tiffany S. Lewis 06/29/11

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Jul 7, 2011

Jul 7, 2011 at 2:30 PM UTC

Downward Spiral

A battles been chosen Started from the lies you have woven A government meant to protect Is failing That's what I detect Defect Dishonorable choices Overriding and shutting down the power of our voices The first generation to be afraid to speak Is growing weak Complacency is all the youth seems to know Please tell me where did critical thought go That's right, I thought I saw it fly right out the window Creativity and education Have been replaced in our nation By drugs and thugs Speed, **** and greed Video games, dropping names Glorification of stupidity Stories that fall short of validity The selling of *** has reached an apex Controls minds like a hex I'm afraid of what may come next When the only concern Is not to learn But of things going viral Sure seems we've found ourselves in a downward spiral. -Tiffany S. Lewis 06/29/11

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