Eyes
They follow me
Even when alone
I can't mess up
I must be perfect
Eyes
They've become lenient
They watch me
But not when I'm alone
I have some freedom
Not a lot
Eyes
They stopped watching
They're gone
I can do whatever I want
With limits from
The outside
Eyes
Hidden
All
Around
Me
I thought I was free from them
But they are my own demons
That will never leave
I can't mess up
I must be perfect
Because the Eyes
They are always watching.
Apr 30, 2021
Apr 30, 2021 at 12:59 PM UTC
Inspiration
It's what helps to write
A poem
A story
A letter
Inspiration
Where are you
I've been looking
You're hiding
Inspiration
I know you are near
I know you are far
I know you exist
Somewhere
Inspiration
Fall onto me
Breath into my heart
Bring words to my head
Let me share you with the world
Inspiration
Come to me
Give me power
With my little words
Help me grow
And share
Experience
Inspiration
Inspire me
Apr 19, 2021
Apr 19, 2021 at 11:23 AM UTC
I drew this for you
My dear
To express how I feel
What you mean to me
Are you lost?
I thought a picture was worth
1,000 words
Oh I forget
There are no words
For how I feel
The complete opposite of love
Bitter hatred
You shouldn't said those
Few but strong words
That hurt to this day
If only you had noticed
It was painful
How much you hurt me
But I forgive you
For now
I had my payback
You can see it in the picture
The dead flowers
Sitting beside a nameless gravestone
You know who's here?
I know I do
And I know you'll never read this poem
Because this grave...
It's for my sanity
It's for my pain
It's for a life ended
It's for...
You
Then next is me
See you in hell *****
Apr 15, 2021
Apr 15, 2021 at 12:57 PM UTC
Forever is a long time
But it's what I must endure
What is less known is that forever is not infinite
It only lasts until the memories fade
Off the living Earth
Out of the mind of those who stay
So if you say you'll love me forever,
That may just be a week
Forever is a long time,
But it's short
Days zoom by
One by one
Until there is none
When the feelings are forgotten
Forever is gone
There is no forever
I know this for sure
Because you said forever
Now you are with another
As I'm on the sideline
Watching
Forever is a long time,
But forever is no time
Forever is gone
Forever never happened
Forever
Forever
Forever
Never
There is no forever
Never was
Never will be
But just for now
Let me believe
That is does
Mar 19, 2021
Mar 19, 2021 at 12:52 PM UTC
I have simple goals
To make you happy
People with young souls
Keep saying life's ******
I hear it all the time
How sad and lovely they are
If every time they smiled I'd gain a dime
I'd be too poor to go far
Yet I still stay
Say hello and ask how they're doing
Same thing every day
Blindly shooting
Who am I if not the jokester?
Do I really belong here?
Even in my sleep I stir
All the voices in my ear
Is everything not enough?
Everything I do...
I understand it's rough
But can I still stand by you?
Jan 25, 2021
Jan 25, 2021 at 10:44 AM UTC
He was a child
Loving life
Enjoying the world
His parents loved him
His peers were kind
He was a teen
Pondering life
Questioning the world
His parents fought with him
His peers were mean
He was an adult
Regretting life
Hating the world
His parents ignore him
His peers were drunk
He was alive
Scared of life
Leaving the world
His parents left him
His peers were sad
He is gone
Loving death
Forgetting the world
His parents despise him
His peers joined in
Nov 17, 2020
Nov 17, 2020 at 10:32 AM UTC
This ache in my head
Lingers as I stay
Still and silent in my bed
In pain here I lay
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 10:53 AM UTC
This place
It feels familiar
Darkness envelopes me
I stick my hand out
At arms length is a wall
Four corners
No door
Trapped
I reach above
Right over my head
Is the top
It feels familiar
These wall's surrounding me
On all sides are
Damp
I take a deep breath
The air is dry
Despite the walls
Each breath leaving me
Makes me thirsty
Suddenly, there's a light
Seeping through the walls
It was dim
But just enough
I find it
The way out
A handle
Clearly wan't there
Before
I open the door
And sprint through
SLAM!
Darkness
What happened?
This place
It feels familiar
Darkness envelopes me
I stick my hand out
Four corners
No door
Repeat
Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020 at 4:58 PM UTC
I look back
Into the room of black
Leaving it all behind
Out of sight, out of mind
Yet it follows me
Darkness is all I see
Follow the light
Continue the fight
Fading like my hope
The light helps me cope
But gone it will soon be
I will see
Only darkness around
So profound
Running to it
I'll never fit
I did not
Guess I'll sit here and rot
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020 at 5:04 PM UTC
I held this thought
Most find troubled
I yelled and fought
The pain only doubled
I held this ideal
That I could love
I fear it never was real
As I push and shove
I held this dream
That I can be happy
Thoughts run like a stream
How life's only ******
I held these close
My heart thumping madly
The pain only rose
I tell, just and sadly
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 10:46 AM UTC