I still find myself sad
I didn't want to take down your pictures
I miss the drawings you made for me of the times we had.
I miss you still, but not every minute;
I'm trying to move on, but every time I start to appreciate this life
I can't help but wonder how much better it would be with you in it.
I loved you, and I still do;
I wish the best for you and I hope you can have adventures
that can replace the bad memories with me and give you a life like new.
Untainted by my existence,
innocence regained and dreams sweet; not bitter regrets,
better yet a whole new world where I never wrote you songs and you never listened.
I still find myself missing you,
but what's worse is what I put you through.
I couldn't change fast enough for a soul as wonderful,
and adventurous, and pure, and as fast as you.
I still have dreams we're running across town,
racing to the beach, drinks in hand, and smiles on our lips.
I still seem to think subconsciously the reality in which we live
is one where you still love me.
I still find myself missing the feeling of your lips,
and the lilac smell of your hair.
If only I could have been as spectacular as you.
If only you were still able to see the wonder in me, too.
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 12:12 PM UTC
I miss you with every particle of my being
I am burning
I am dying
I still love you and I am trying to move on
All I want is to go back in time
To one day when things were good
A day when you and I were happy
Because we made each other happy
I just want one last day
One last kiss
One last time with you in my arms
One last day where you still love me
Just one day to spend with you
By my side and in my lap
Watching movies and cuddling
And loving each other as we once did
I want to wake up from this nightmare
And call you
Tell you a story
And know you still love me
If only you still did
May 8, 2016
May 8, 2016 at 9:36 PM UTC
Our love was so innocent
so sweet
you were the sweetest thing I had ever seen
your eyes were full of wonder and so were mine
the future we'd have, all the happy times
now it burns in my heart
and defeats all intentions of ever getting better
I'm trying to heal
but all I can do is remember your letters
you loved me
I still love you
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 10:26 PM UTC
I once said
"The multiverse theory suggests that there are infinite universes,
which means that, theoretically speaking, there is a universe that exists
that is comprised solely of you,
and I think that's beautiful."
Now all I can think of is that I wanna be in the one
where you still love me and we're still happy.
Apr 21, 2016
Apr 21, 2016 at 8:16 PM UTC
I'm so lonely
there's nothing for me to do
except to think of how much I miss you
Apr 21, 2016
Apr 21, 2016 at 8:06 PM UTC
Empty promise
I suppose
the only empty promise either of us made
to one another
was each other
You promised me everything
I did the same
Now I am empty
Nothing to you
A meaningless name
Apr 21, 2016
Apr 21, 2016 at 4:43 PM UTC
I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I HATE THIS
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I DON'T GET HOW YOU ALREADY STOPPED LOVING ME YOU TOLD ME YOU'D LOVE ME UNTIL THE STARS TURN COLD AND NOW THERE'S NOTHING BUT A ******* HOLE AND A BURNING SENSATION IN MY HEART
STOP MOVING ON JUST HOLD ON FOR A SECOND DON'T YOU SEE ME FALLING APART? OR DO YOU EVEN CARE ANYMORE?
MAYBE THAT'S WHAT YOU LEFT FOR.
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 2:37 PM UTC
You were my everything
now i'm your nothing
you loved me once
you never will again
not only were you my lover
you were my best friend
whether or not
you're in the arms of another
it doesn't matter
i'll never hold you in mine
i'll never forget our days together
not until the end of time
because that's when you said
that you would stop loving me
now i have to live in this reality
a hell you said would never be
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 2:36 PM UTC
I talked to you every day
for one year and two months and three weeks and four days
funny how that works out to be one two three four
but hey we were a phenomenon full of coincidences
and exceptions
but everything particular must decay
and when we finally broke apart
and you decided to leave
the blast lasted 6 seconds
and sounded at the frequencies:
61.74Hz for 1s
82.41Hz for 1s
65.41Hz for 2s
55.00Hz for 1s
and though these frequencies are low enough to bury me underground
the amplitude at which my heart broke
allowed your name to be heard the whole world round
funny how the first time I was able to emote
in so long
was when my heart broke
and you were gone
Apr 8, 2016
Apr 8, 2016 at 8:00 PM UTC
You told me you loved me so much
no matter what you felt or where you were
you told me you would be my lovepug
my birdie, my lemur
and now seem to have no hesitation to leave
Apr 8, 2016
Apr 8, 2016 at 7:40 PM UTC