In the blink of an eye, all was lost
I've burned every bridge I've come across
Dancing in the flames stand those I'm forced to forget
Their once loving faces fade further into silhouette
Chest pains on par with cardiac arrest
Reminiscing of a time I was once at my best
Only wishing my shoulders would not succumb
To the weight of the world of the man I've become
But the values which make a man have long ago frayed
Empathy and understanding and caring decayed
It rings true that "The past should stay dead"
Well how many bullets are needed to get it out of my head?
How many more tears will need to be shed?
How many words that can't be unsaid?
Left alone with only my thoughts to dwell,
I suppose this is the definition of a living hell
Oct 31, 2014
Oct 31, 2014 at 11:06 AM UTC
I will wait for that day
That day my pen will no longer write my wrongs
I will be set free from the bonds of my mind that day
The rage and sorrow inside will finally dissolve
And for that day I pray
Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 5:53 PM UTC
Just when I thought the pain had gone
I get a text and it's about my ex
The girl My Heart's not over yet
The one I swore I'd never forget
Just months after our years, she goes and gets pregnant
And I knew it'd only happen to me
I hope you found your 'perfect love'
I hope you found your 'perfect love'
Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******** and you can save it for the birds
I knew we'd never work it all out
but that's not what this is all about
After all the memories made in adoration and devotion
Of course I will lash out with such emotion
Try to tell me I'm wrong for feeling such a way
I'd confront you now but I don't care what you have to say
Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******** and you can save it for the birds
And I could only laugh and cry at the irony
and remember all the times I've felt your body
But now I see, I see with such clarity
You and I could never be more than a hilarity
Oh the compromises and contradictons you've made! Deep down I had wished you stayed!
But that was long ago and now this love has decayed!
Ha! Oh God! The irony!
I hope it was all in spite of me!
For all the times you've ******* about your chastity
For every lie you told
to keep that ring on your finger reading "purity"
For every minute you held my hand and whispered three false words
This irony is ******** and you can save it for the birds
Oh how ironic, I could laugh.
What's done is done
It's in the past
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 9:41 PM UTC
So this is love to you?
How can that be true so soon?
This lust is a cruel thing baby
And you're mistaking it for love little lady.
You don't know about commitment
It's a lot harder than it looks isn't it?
I swear this isn't what it looks like darling
Its not just something you can say
Don't go opening your mouth with no intent to stay
One day you'll know how it feels to bleed
Bleed for the only person you felt you'd need
No such thing that's worth it
No such thing as perfect
We've had so many firsts
Lately, too many lasts
My heart now hurts
From dwelling on the past
Whatever you do, don't forget me
My love for you was always true
Maybe one day you'll stop and see
Nobody will know you like I do.
You've slipped my mind a thousand times
But you still linger in my head
I can't imagine your pretty face without wishing I were dead
For a bitter year I've been asleep
Dreaming of reasons
to quit rolling in the deep
What we've had and what we've lost
The past should stay gone
But when I see your smile....
Where did I go wrong?
Did it satisfy you?
Giving in to lust?
Opening up like it's nothing?
Breaking my trust?
Did you know what you were doing?
You should've killed me when you had the chance
Slit my throat while in your trance
This bottle is getting lighter in my hand
And the carpet underneath is being torn out from under me
It's always 1 step forward 2 steps back
Can you promise me I'm on the right track?
It should make you cringe, the sight of my demise
But don't sympathize for me, I'm right where you want me to be
With a gun in my hand, I'm down on my knees
I squeeze real tight and pray I'll be alright
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 8:49 PM UTC
If it were easy staring into infinity
I wouldn't mind catching the divinity
in your eyes
Oh it aches
and it pains
to strain for a gaze of the open night skies
Look once more in your heart's direction
and find it in yourself to feel the affection
Feel the infection coursing through each vessel
Curse each line drawn by my pencil
Feeling infinite
Getting intimate
We share what we're worth in a passing night
to lose it all in a moment
Did I squeeze too tight?
Did it not feel right?
Why do you cringe at my sight?
What's it going to take to make you see my light?
Need to medicate to alleviate what evils congregate
in the crevices and recesses
of the percussion now ceased
by the destruction of your seduction
How can you expect me to function?
Left only with voided actions and emotions
in my mind
Would it be too much to ask
to stare into infinity
one last time?
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 6:38 PM UTC
I've kept your head above water from atop my shoulders
Never once bothered to look down to see if I'd drowned
I couldn't breathe around you anyway
For the air in my lungs was lost the day that you were found
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 10:00 AM UTC
I walk amongst the living
Without fear of the dead
Feeding the hate of the unforgiving
Who whisper sweet nothings inside my head
Souls of the loving made peace with themselves
And the evils are thrashing sending items off the shelves
Demons and spectres so wrought with malice
Snarling with anger for their energy's unbalanced
Bringing mayhem and grief to a space once called home
Each step taken, is not taken alone
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 9:58 AM UTC
Should there ever be a rhyme
That could bend the fabric of time,
I'd recite it to you
So I could remind you that nothing's changed for me
This love is true
And oh, quite bold
This love is new
But somehow so cold
It pains me to know
Your heart beats slow
And your imagination runs wildly
This pen could write forever
Yet, it will never bring you back
Is it out of line to say what I'm thinking?
Indeed, I'm childish by nature
However, wise beyond my years
No amount of wisdom helped fight back the tears
From you I could never sever
I know what it means to be forever
All that's heard is never
The sun's dropped and my heart's stopped
To you my love is endowed
For me, you are too proud
The words I used to whisper in your ear
Will never be spoken aloud to anyone else my dear
Drink up the courage to find another
I dare you
Remember alcohol tastes better with regret
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 6:31 PM UTC
The revelation of my ways lead me back
But that wall, it never crumbles
If we forget and forgive how long
Till we relive all our fouls and fumbles?
Carry me back to that time at the water
And your skin never looked so good
Your lack of persistence I never understood
And where are you now?
Where are you now that I'm gone?
Do you feel wronged
Or regret that I had to write you this song?
It was never gonna work
You told me last
Did you even bother to look through our past?
Who called it bad?
The only thing you told those faces is why you're so sad
But why not me? I was always open to suggestions
My bones could break from the weight I carried for you
And you can't turn away and act like it's not true
Stop this front, it's getting old
You always do what your music told
Wanna hear some romantic ****
Take a seat and let us handle it
Us, not the voices in your ears
The ones who don't know the good in our years
Carry me back to that time at the water
And your skin never looked so good
Your lack of persistence I never understood
And where are you now?
Where are you now that I'm gone?
Do you feel wronged
Or regret that I had to write you this song?
I'm not sounding desperate
In saying we need to fix this
I know it, you know it,
Always swing and a miss
How hard can it be for you to forget everything that I miss.....
Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 2:27 PM UTC
If I tell you I love you, believe me.
If I tell you I need you, don't leave me.
If I say that I want you, don't tease me.
But don't abandon your morals to please me.
When I say to trust me, do it.
My love will help you through it.
But you won't allow me the space to prove it.
You need to be wiser
Stop treating me like some womanizer
You're not the only one upset
I have feelings too don't forget
Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC