they say the things you do
often perceives they way you're taken,
i think that's how your beauty
is so commonly mistaken.
they see the way you treat him
like he's nothing without you,
but I've spent a lot of time with him,
we both know that's not true.
they saw the look of envy
that crawled across your brow,
as i picked him from the darkness
and said he made me proud.
they watched your acts of bitterness
as they began to eat away at him
and how they only worsened when
I broadened his grin.
they caught the words that slithered
from your mouth into his head,
saying 'You'll never make it in this world'
and 'I wish you'd just drop dead'.
they say that makes you ugly,
when I've seen the way you are-
so desperate to make your mark,
you live to leave him scars.
Aug 3, 2017
Aug 3, 2017 at 11:24 AM UTC
I found myself saying:
***"I want to relive Monday;
every last moment
til I went home"***
and believe me
that was true.
I wanted to feel you close again,
to feel no-one else
but you.
to look out into the depths
of a crowd and still meet the eyes
of you.
to remind me of the friendship,
that blossomed into something more
with you.
to hold your hand and squeeze
it tight when my laugh was caused
by you.
to stroll along the streets without a
care knowing that I
had you.
to feel the way you made me happy
the feeling I hope I give
to you.
to rekindle that padlock security
that I was truly safe
with you.
You see I've come to realise,
or maybe more so hope,
that when it all comes down to it
that I could finally be,
with you.
so with that in mind, I say again,
with joy secure like stone,
***"I want to relive Monday;
every last moment
til I went home"***
Jun 3, 2017
Jun 3, 2017 at 4:15 PM UTC
go away
get away
while you have the chance
feel the way
know the way
that you hold your stance
close your eye
take a breath
know the way you beat
feel your heart
hold it close
this won't be your feat
caught in time
no escape
seems you're truly stuck
slow it down
see it move
it doesn't give a ****
nor should you
as nor do I
this may be the end
but I ask you
focus
on what you need,
friend.
Jun 2, 2017
Jun 2, 2017 at 2:12 PM UTC
he wants to say
"I love you"
but he leaves it at
"Goodnight"
because love will
mean some falling
and she's afraid
of heights
Sep 15, 2016
Sep 15, 2016 at 12:59 PM UTC
please forgive me
if I don't talk at times
it's already loud enough
in my mind
Aug 18, 2016
Aug 18, 2016 at 2:40 PM UTC
I just hope
someone can relate
so that I'm not
alone in this
Aug 18, 2016
Aug 18, 2016 at 2:29 PM UTC
you made flowers
grow in my lungs
and although they
are beautiful
I can't breathe.
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 2:53 PM UTC
gender identity can be
one of the hardest things to fight
because the only thing you can do
is lean on what you think
and hope that it's right
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 2:41 PM UTC
Some days,
I feel everything at once,
Other days,
I feel nothing at all
you see, I don't know
what's worse,
drowning beneath waves,
or dying of thirst.
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 1:59 AM UTC
Dear Victoria,
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me?
My heart has gone cold.
Dear Mindset,
Why did you come?
You tell me I'm worthless,
Useless and dumb.
Dear Victoria,
I need you back,
Without you I do things,
My soul's turning black.
Dear Mindset,
You've changed this child,
You've broke my jawline,
And stole my smile.
Dear Victoria,
Right now, I am lost,
I'm confused, worried, doubtful,
My wrists pay the cost.
Dear Mindset,
You've ruined my life,
It was you who told me,
That salvation was in the knife.
It was you who began my now grand addiction.
Thank you so much,
Love Victoria x
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 10:24 AM UTC