thexxavier - Hello Poetry

I like depth, but I always drown. You're not what I was looking for, but what I found. I don't like your words, but I like your sound. You lifted me high, and dropped me on the ground.

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Feb 9, 2017

Feb 9, 2017 at 8:35 PM UTC

i, you

I like depth, but I always drown. You're not what I was looking for, but what I found. I don't like your words, but I like your sound. You lifted me high, and dropped me on the ground.

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"I want to lay next to you in the dark and feel more than your physical existence. Let me breath you in and open you up in a way that'll light the room."

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Feb 6, 2017

Feb 6, 2017 at 5:38 AM UTC

Midnight Confession

"I want to lay next to you in the dark and feel more than your physical existence. Let me breath you in and open you up in a way that'll light the room."

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My silence radiates like the sun Burning hot into my seat But I look so cool, calm Like the Dead Sea My body is stained from you like red wine on my white shirt I'd never thought you'd bring this kind of hurt It the dark hours when the moon follows me to the shore line I drop and unwind like a sweater undone by that one thread that holds it all together You.

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Dec 19, 2016

Dec 19, 2016 at 3:35 PM UTC

Unwind

My silence radiates like the sun Burning hot into my seat But I look so cool, calm Like the Dead Sea My body is stained from you like red wine on my white shirt I'd never thought you'd bring this kind of hurt It the dark hours when the moon follows me to the shore line I drop and unwind like a sweater undone by that one thread that holds it all together You.

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I grip tight. The air in my lungs is forced out by the intruders that slip off your tongue. A thin layer of glass, fragile and ready to shatter on your command, I am. Suffocating from suspense, wishing to pour my genuine thoughts out for you to drink so you could feel their warmth and truth in your empty stomach. My eyes water and my face burns. I want to pull my insides out so you know how empty I am without you. I'm dead and I don't even know it yet. That venomous phrase flows from my thoughts and into my veins; burning and tainting my heart. This is all my fault, it always is. My last meal is your breath as I inhale you in and kiss your lips for one last taste of love.

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May 26, 2016

May 26, 2016 at 9:27 PM UTC

Coup de Grâce

I grip tight. The air in my lungs is forced out by the intruders that slip off your tongue. A thin layer of glass, fragile and ready to shatter on your command, I am. Suffocating from suspense, wishing to pour my genuine thoughts out for you to drink so you could feel their warmth and truth in your empty stomach. My eyes water and my face burns. I want to pull my insides out so you know how empty I am without you. I'm dead and I don't even know it yet. That venomous phrase flows from my thoughts and into my veins; burning and tainting my heart. This is all my fault, it always is. My last meal is your breath as I inhale you in and kiss your lips for one last taste of love.

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The waves are getting rough I'm feeling stuck, A rock and a hard place The winds are pushing back Which direction do I face? I'm not as tough as I thought and I have fought and fought but drown I do in my actions Spinning in my hurricane I catch my efforts Smile through the pain and no one there to blame But a reflection in a broken mirror My luck has changed, it never existed I lost it all, I gained it all The knowledge The road is clear, not yet paved Balance on one foot to save energy I'm coming down your street Guide me along, blank maps Split my whole world in half.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 8:41 AM UTC

Realization

The waves are getting rough I'm feeling stuck, A rock and a hard place The winds are pushing back Which direction do I face? I'm not as tough as I thought and I have fought and fought but drown I do in my actions Spinning in my hurricane I catch my efforts Smile through the pain and no one there to blame But a reflection in a broken mirror My luck has changed, it never existed I lost it all, I gained it all The knowledge The road is clear, not yet paved Balance on one foot to save energy I'm coming down your street Guide me along, blank maps Split my whole world in half.

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Raging on my thunderbolt Flying through dreamy clouds And with drunken eyes I scream aloud "All you've given me is lies" Fly close to the sun Live this life of luxury It's never ever forever fun Unread love letters You're my mind's main header In glamorous flames I fall to earth Wrecking trees & I witness My birth Gently murdering silently Telling in high vocals Swiftly pass through To your heart's face. Keep an open mind.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 8:39 AM UTC

Icarus

Raging on my thunderbolt Flying through dreamy clouds And with drunken eyes I scream aloud "All you've given me is lies" Fly close to the sun Live this life of luxury It's never ever forever fun Unread love letters You're my mind's main header In glamorous flames I fall to earth Wrecking trees & I witness My birth Gently murdering silently Telling in high vocals Swiftly pass through To your heart's face. Keep an open mind.

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Slow oceans emotionless emotions never alone but alone all the time a body of glass and a mind of steel feels it wont last looking to make a **** door less rooms windowless homes open sky like open minds endless lines like the desert in my head sacred heart shaped temple surrounded, guarded by golden ideas dry my mouth with your words everything goes unheard silent like poetry heavy like the soultry sound outlandish, out of bound.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 8:36 AM UTC

Mirror

Slow oceans emotionless emotions never alone but alone all the time a body of glass and a mind of steel feels it wont last looking to make a **** door less rooms windowless homes open sky like open minds endless lines like the desert in my head sacred heart shaped temple surrounded, guarded by golden ideas dry my mouth with your words everything goes unheard silent like poetry heavy like the soultry sound outlandish, out of bound.

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I sit here silent and solid, In my armor of glass . You with your strongest gun, Aiming and ready to blast. Empty faces and cold places. Buses and trains through sun shine and rain. My feelings like a hurricane deep with in, Deformation of constant reality. I see my way in eyes of damage, Your stare is silent cruelty. You claw your way into me. I've been here, but never this far. Sitting on the curb watching feet and cars, I'm a stranger in my own home, A beginner to my own game.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 8:33 AM UTC

Novice

I sit here silent and solid, In my armor of glass . You with your strongest gun, Aiming and ready to blast. Empty faces and cold places. Buses and trains through sun shine and rain. My feelings like a hurricane deep with in, Deformation of constant reality. I see my way in eyes of damage, Your stare is silent cruelty. You claw your way into me. I've been here, but never this far. Sitting on the curb watching feet and cars, I'm a stranger in my own home, A beginner to my own game.

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The days are growing short, shorter in time. Caught in the tragedy that is my mind. As cliche as it sounds, sometimes I'm so over whelmed I wish I could drown. Drown out the sound, all my feelings, and just be numb. The more I feel, the more I set myself for disappointment, hurt. You can say I'm dumb but with this heart I wish to take no part in life. I'm too vulnerable, weak, and unbalanced. I'll fall over warm words and crack like an egg shell. I want to be adored, I want to be taught.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 8:31 AM UTC

Teach Me

The days are growing short, shorter in time. Caught in the tragedy that is my mind. As cliche as it sounds, sometimes I'm so over whelmed I wish I could drown. Drown out the sound, all my feelings, and just be numb. The more I feel, the more I set myself for disappointment, hurt. You can say I'm dumb but with this heart I wish to take no part in life. I'm too vulnerable, weak, and unbalanced. I'll fall over warm words and crack like an egg shell. I want to be adored, I want to be taught.

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Here I stand, there I lay Never safe, always by value of face I'm only living for the day Leave me without a trace Weak like old bones Sunk into the gap in my chest I'm always always alone My heart gets no rest We walked in cities and along shores I stuck to you instantly Brush me off, you can't do us anymore Now we wonder separate, distantly Deep in a sinkhole of my thoughts I can't eat, I can't breathe, I can't sleep All I can do is suffer and rot I whisper from the bottom of my soul "Choose me to keep".

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Apr 14, 2016

Apr 14, 2016 at 5:36 PM UTC

Garde Moi

Here I stand, there I lay Never safe, always by value of face I'm only living for the day Leave me without a trace Weak like old bones Sunk into the gap in my chest I'm always always alone My heart gets no rest We walked in cities and along shores I stuck to you instantly Brush me off, you can't do us anymore Now we wonder separate, distantly Deep in a sinkhole of my thoughts I can't eat, I can't breathe, I can't sleep All I can do is suffer and rot I whisper from the bottom of my soul "Choose me to keep".

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