I kept the stubs from the movie of our first date,
And a vial of the sand we once walked on.
Snippets of words you've said to me
Commited to my memory.
I've seen so many face,
None of them feel like you,
None of them feel like your soul,
None of them feel like home.
I watch you
Day after day,
Standing in the doorway,
Waiting for you heart
With both feet at the entrance,
And my heart on my sleeve.
I remember what it feels like to hold you.
I could never forget that.
I could never forget you.
And in the doorway,
I realise,
That it was you,
Its always been,
YOU.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:47 AM UTC
Blow to the gut,
Sought out and
DESTROYED.
Muscle Ache,
Tension,
Anger,
Insomnia,
Hunger.
Fool me twice,
Shame on me.
Acceptance,
Focus,
Perspective,
Progression,
Redirection,
Success.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:43 AM UTC
I know the pain that you feel
You may not be able to overcome,
And;
Perhaps,
You can't mend those parts of yourself,
Perhaps,
They are meant to serve as a reminder,
But always know that
I will always be there,
To help you feel again,
To help you become vulnerable.
Even in the silence,
When there is so much to be said.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:40 AM UTC
Denying what you truly feel,
Only makes those feelings stronger.
So will you deny yourself,
By keeping me at a distance?
Will you chose to forget,
The way I once made you feel?
OR
Will you take that chance,
To get everything you have ever wanted?
The fact of the matter is,
I wont wait for you,
Even when you jealousy shows.
Because I deserve more,
Than a maybe.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:37 AM UTC
Their eyes finally swing
Toward each other,
And all the rules,
Terms and conditions,
Fade away,
In a moment of
Fleeting Permanence.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:34 AM UTC
Close your eyes,
Listen closely,
To the humming
of my heart;
When you hold me
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:33 AM UTC
You bathe in my radiance,
With your eyes closed,
Taking what you need from me,
to strengthen your bones.
You stick around,
Just long enough,
But now its time for you
To wander off.
I expect that you will soon return
To use me again,
So I wait patiently,
Here on spectrum end.
When you return
You will regret not wandering sooner,
This time too much of me
Might just destroy you.
I am
Ultraviolet
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:31 AM UTC
My heart flutters,
At the thought
Of holding your hand,
Under the Northern Lights.
But
If you would have me,
As I am
And in this moment,
There is no place else I would
Rather be,
Than right here
And right now,
In the place where
We are meant to be
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:27 AM UTC
He struggles to accept himself,
To reconcile sexuality with religion,
He fears that he would lose his friends,
He fears that he may lose his family,
But,
He realises that this is the path he needs to walk.
To walk alone.
But never in the shadows.
Never in the darkness.
No More.
The journey to come out takes time.
It has taken time.
His moms words echo
"Are you ever going to change,
Will you at least try?"
Destroyed.
But
Still he walks on.
In the sunlight.
Where its warmth kisses his skin.
He is who is.
Who he was always meant to be.
Free.
I am me.
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 6:38 AM UTC
5h30: First Alarm. Snooze. Urgh. Bed.
7h00: Awake. Running late. Hustle.
7h40:
Traffic selfie. To long distance friends. Smile.
8h05:
Work. Cheeky wink from work wife. "You look great"
12h00: Lunch. Rooftop Carpark The View.
17h30: Late afternoon coffee. Gym. Motivated.
19h30: Home. Dinner. Stuffed.
22h00: Bed. Find something to be Grateful for.
Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 6:27 PM UTC