STOP REBLOGGING MY POEMS
I WROTE THESE TWO YEARS AGO
WHEN I WAS THIRTEEN
WHY WERE THEY SO EDGY
May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 4:31 PM UTC
I sit alone
In this dark cold room
Listening through the wall
Of your angry screams
I don't know why I keep doing wrong
I don't know why I can't control myself
I don't know why you always scream at me
You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster
In my bed
I just can't seem to rest
Screaming silently
At all this violence
I don't know what I am
I don't know what I did so wrong
I don't know what to do when you scream at me again and again
You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster
In my room
Wishing I could punch the wall
Wishing I could just runaway
From all this pain and misery
I don't know how I stopped fighting
I don't know how you keep killing me
I don't know how I got this way
You wonder why
I'm so empty
You wonder why
My silence is screaming
You wonder why
I'm this soulless cold monster
This soulless cold monster
You wonder why I'm soulless
You wonder why I'm so cold
(It's all your fault.)
Jun 15, 2015
Jun 15, 2015 at 12:13 AM UTC
Once you left me
I felt lost
When I found myself again
I didn't know what to do
Once I found you again
I lost myself again
To what is real
And what is make believe
I reached out
Just to see if you were there
Every time it feels as if
You're going to disappear
Once again
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 9:11 PM UTC
You're here, trembling with fear
You made it clear
You turned your back and now you've gone astray
Nothing left to say
What's standing in your way?
You had the chance to never walk alone
But you gave it all away
When I needed you to stay
Just open up your arms I need you here
I can't do this on my own
I got nothing left to show
Open up your arms I need you here!
Again, lying in your bed
Nightmares is in your head
Facing all that you just threw away
At the edge again
It's coming to an end
You had the chance to never walk alone
But you gave it all away
When I needed you to stay
Just open up your arms I need you here
I cant do this on my own
I got nothing left to show
Open up your arms I need you
I need you, here! Here!
I need you, here! Here!
You gave it all away
I needed you to stay
Open up your arms I need you here!
I can't do this on my own
I got nothing left to show
Open up your arms, I need you here
But you gave it all away
When I needed you to stay
Just open up your arms I need you here
I can't do this on my own
I got nothing left to show
Open up your arms, I need you here!
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 8:02 PM UTC
Why do you even talk to me?
I am nothing compared to anyone else!
Why do you scoot closer to me?
I have no warmth.
Why do you seem to want me?
I don't recall anyone else wanting me.
Am I even wanted?
I doubt it.
Mar 7, 2015
Mar 7, 2015 at 10:50 PM UTC
Every word's a trap to your lies.
Every thought pushes me down,
***** me into the ground.
My shadow and soul wait,
waiting for you to let me out
from the dark stain of your perfect life.
Blood runs red,
lies run dark.
There's not one spot
that's a spark in this storm.
You put impostor thoughts in me
replacing the ones of healing.
I'm breaking out but of these chains...
but why do you keep dragging me back
into this cell of destruction?
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 4:44 PM UTC
Why are you depressed,
my friend?
Why won't you talk to me?
Why can't we go back to the old days
where we always answered?
Why won't you tell anyone,
my friend?
Why are you so down?
Why are you unseen?
Why can't we be closer again,
the way we used to be?
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 9:00 PM UTC
**** me,
just do it now.
I'm done with this life,
with all its stress and anxiety.
My parents say
that I'm a demon hotel.
I say
that I'm just living how I want.
**** me,
just throw my life away for me.
I'm done with all the tests.
I'm done with all the misfortune.
There's no one
that will ever love me.
At least,
it feels that way.
I'm so confused.
Some people aren't ignoring me,
but yet they are.
I feel so lonely...
These hollow hands,
this hollow body...
It needs something,
someone to fill it back up.
Yet no one seems to hear the echo
from inside.
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 8:12 PM UTC
Sometimes I just feel
like everyone else is
ordering me around,
and not respecting my space at all.
Whenever I tell them to go,
they just seem to show.
I didn't invite you
into my bubble,
so why do you have to burst it
into rubble?
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 7:53 PM UTC
I might be dying.
I don't know yet.
The doctors are still deciding
if I will meet Death.
I can feel
all the weird thumps.
I just don't know...
I'm in a slump.
The doctors have done the tests,
but no one knows yet.
Am I the subject of a pest,
or a huge destructive mess?
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 11:22 PM UTC