one foot in front of the other you'd say
yet for some reason all you do is downplay
"it's just a phase," "its because your stuck in your ways"
but even when you'd abandon me on the holidays
you were my best night, my worst fight
a reason to stay up till the moon light
half of what I'd write, yet we ended full of spite
it was the sneaking behind my back
all the qualities I seemed to lack
and how you always made me feel like I was the maniac
you never truly cared for me
don't you dare say you love me
or even begin to talk about how great we could be
because real love should never be this absentee.
Oct 21, 2021
Oct 21, 2021 at 2:13 AM UTC
finding myself too often, trapped in your shallow waters
stuck searching for your heart, like an otter to an urchin
yet I've never been able to crack you open, no matter where I'd start
it's always been falling apart, a divergent boundary over an open ocean
even when my emotion ceases, it only ever lasts a moment
swallowing my pride and emptying my tears, the only thing still working
tears lurking into pools of wishful thinking, even with its own flood tide
yet there is only one way to cope, drinking and trying to stop sinking
maybe one day if I ever gain hope, I'll escape the abyssal zone
but I don't want to swim anymore.
Jul 5, 2021
Jul 5, 2021 at 9:36 PM UTC
In a garden of transgressions
Were the rains of normality disappeared
And the rays of contentment faded
The soil crusted with dreary sentiment
It was there I lied, a flower starved of regularity
Wilted, displaced, and in uncharted territory
A journey to comprehend my circumstance began
The sudden realization that every season can be a cause for reason
With that, gratitude began to poor in
The rhythms of sorrow transformed into opportunities for self-development
My buds of self-worth, security, and understanding began fluorescence
The rains of normality no more, but of support and growth
Rays of happiness and understanding
Beauty within the dissonance.
Apr 22, 2019
Apr 22, 2019 at 10:11 AM UTC
You never think about nobody but yourself, selfish
You have been treating me so reckless, endless
Without you it's been so lonely, friendless
But your lying through your teeth, jealous
My heart has become so cold, defenseless
Calling on god for you, helpless
You'd probably decline though, open-ended
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 11:04 AM UTC
Do you see me as a flower?
Beautiful, yet without any power
Tears of pollen escaped my quivering face
It was there that I died, picked off the ground
But my tears gave rise to a bright kingdom in a garden of transgressions
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 11:07 AM UTC
10:30 your slumber begins
no worries or thoughts of days since past
where we'd hold hands and say forever
but that had to end
11:30 you hold me closely
saying you're lonely
I give my testimony
we can't last together
no matter the weather
12:00 you ask if we'll see each other soon
maybe someday
on the other side of the moon
I whisper as your breaths give way
don't slip away...
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 12:04 AM UTC
Tell me how do I love you?
I need to know how to breakthrough
I wish that I could speak your language
I continually chase after the things I could never have
Facing all the fears I never grab
I sit back and rehearse my lines
But yet failed to see the signs, someone was eyeing you first
Yet I still jump in head first.
I can feel my world unfolding
Now tell me if your pretty heart is worth holding
I know you can hear me just please say I'm your dearie
If our hearts could be syncopated, then I might finally be vindicated
Just let me follow your stars tonight.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 12:23 PM UTC
Everyday life is a struggle
Sometimes it may get a little a hard to juggle
But I just have to reminisce my anfractuous dreams
Dreams of love, sleeping side by side, with our fingers intertwined
You give me peace of mind, but these feelings are still in decline
Call you my R.E.M relationship, my slumber sweetheart
Because you’re always a dream away
Just.
A.
Dream.
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 9:51 PM UTC