Some people will think I’m crazy for saying I’ve fallen for you at first sight, and maybe this will just be another one of those times where I only dream of what could’ve been…
Or another time where get so caught up in the moment, I lose the chance to make it into something more.
But what I want “this” to be, is I want you to love me and I want to love you more than you could ever know. Because I have so much love to give, and I can’t promise you the world, but I promise that I’ll do my very best to be the perfect man for you, because maybe I am the perfect man for you, and I just don’t know it yet.
May 31, 2021
May 31, 2021 at 5:29 AM UTC
I tell myself that I’ll one day,
Have everything I’ve always wanted
And more.
But as life passes and my time on Earth
Grows shorter and shorter.
And my struggles only seem to get harder
And more trivial at the same time,
I wonder if it’s even worth losing my hair or if I have invested enough, or even at all.
Jul 15, 2019
Jul 15, 2019 at 5:01 AM UTC
I can’t even begin to describe,
The absolute joy; the warmth; the elation;
That came over me that moment,
Even if for just a moment,
That you took me by the hand.
I can’t even remember the last time
I wanted something so small to last forever.
All I’ve wanted to be is closer to you,
In every way possible.
To know your biggest dreams
And your deepest fears.
And if somehow those things
Magically lined up with mine,
Only then could I show you
How big I can smile.
But that night,
Despite
All the distractions that were,
That was the one thing that I know
I did not merely imagine
On a drunken night.
But right now, I’m okay.
Here; far away. From you.
But I have that moment;
Even if it’s only mine.
Of that one moment when our hands
Intertwined.
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 5:34 AM UTC
The weight of my thoughts;
This “pain” that I feel;
I wonder how much of it
Truly, is real.
Neglecting my health;
I seek comfort in vices;
Like cannabis, or nicotine.
But at least I’m not a drunk.
Yet I find myself in pain;
Itching for a taste;
For a glimmer of solace.
Just a promise of peace.
What am I craving?
What am I yearning for?
So I can feel high?
Or because I’m just bored?
I need something.
Apr 9, 2018
Apr 9, 2018 at 6:56 AM UTC
Here we are again.
After all the times that you've said goodbye;
With all the times I told myself I'd never see you;
I always wondered what it would be like;
Could it all change with just one kiss?
We've never met;
Not even once.
And we've talked about that day countless times.
Where your eyes meet my gaze,
And I see your smile,
And I reach out my hand for you to take.
What a day that would be;
To be so cliché;
To love with a love that is more than love,
As one of the best once put it.
To love you as if it were my last day on Earth.
The years have passed,
And you've changed,
As well as I.
But the only thing that remains the same,
Is the fact that I still love you.
Stranger.
Friend.
Enemy.
Lover.
The girl that I seem to find myself always fighting for.
I just want to know;
I've been dying to know;
Could it all change with just one kiss?
You could change my life;
And I could change yours.
We could defy all odds
And just focus on what matters most,
To the both of us;
Each other.
Could it be?
That we're all we need?
We could find out;
With just one kiss.
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 2:58 AM UTC
My mind is a work of art.
For the longest time,
it remained hidden in a cellar.
Away from the judging eyes of the world.
It's been put on display, but some pieces are missing.
Being restored and maintained properly.
To repair the effects of time and the elements.
So that it may be enjoyed forever.
It sits in a gallery for everyone to see.
Wanting to be understood by all those who breathe.
Most people stop, glance, and leave,
But a few people stop and do more than just see.
They feel.
They know. They understand.
Or at least try.
They look at the lines and try to see through.
"What is the artist trying to tell you?"
Apr 1, 2016
Apr 1, 2016 at 7:41 AM UTC
If every time
I close my eyes
It's like...
All of the thoughts and memories I possess
From the very first to the absolute now
Are being played over and over and over
Again...
In fast forward
And they're flashing so quickly
I can't even enjoy them?
It's like they're not there at all...
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 7:34 AM UTC
Man is not the devil
because he keeps secrets.
The sin merely lies
in the secret itself.
Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 10:36 PM UTC
In the midst of desperation,
With my hands pressed tightly against the sides of my head,
I'm hopelessly trying to hold myself together.
Will clutching my head hold my thoughts in their place?
Or is the delusion only another reason to believe
That I'm losing this fight with myself tonight?
Aug 15, 2015
Aug 15, 2015 at 8:34 AM UTC
It starts with a thought,
And ofcourse it's of you.
What the hell is the matter with you?
Before I can blink; thought number two.
Is it just me, and I'm too blind to see?
Just a simple confession;
I can't stand my depression.
It means dealing with you like I ******* have to.
If you measured the pain with the amount of my sighs,
You'd know I can't sleep with tears in my eyes.
**I don't ******* get it. I just want to dream...**
Because my emotional stability is ripping from the seams.
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 7:09 AM UTC