
On a snowy Sunday morning I awoke
in a house that was not my own
while my friends still slumbered in the next room.
Then, I recalled they had said
“There is some instant coffee in the cabinet
help yourself.”
As I grasped the warm cup
and took my first sip
a tear ran down my cheek.
Remember when you had your first apartment?
With your sister?
Neither of you drank coffee
and you had no coffee ***
I drank instant every morning
and complained of the bitterness.
I haven’t tasted it since then,
and it’s all rushing back in a blur of
Memories.
Remember how we were so young
and so I’m love?
We couldn’t spend a day apart
and I thought we would never have to.
I miss your smile, your laugh,
the sparkle in your eyes when you said my name.
I miss your warmth on this frigid morning.
All because of
Instant coffee.
Jan 25
Jan 25, 2026 at 7:11 PM UTC
A warm summer day
Me, in a blue denim dress
Counting your eyelashes
Soft touches
Lips grazing
A whispered declaration
One single moment,
expanded into our personal eternity
You
and Me.
Jul 14, 2019
Jul 14, 2019 at 8:54 PM UTC
I kissed your lips and I tasted his smile
Caught between morality and a lack of basic human functionality
But when it's just you and me
alone in a sea of blankets and whispers that graze my lips
warm promises that wrap themselves around me
until there is no room for thought
Lost in your arms, I feel my self-restraint leaving my body
I can't even begin to retrieve it.
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 7:20 PM UTC
I still like you.
Rather, I still have feelings for you.
In a romantic way.
And I don't know why I'm saying this because it doesn't matter and it doesn't change anything.
And I know you don't feel that way about me anymore.
But it's the truth.
So i just thought you should know.
I talk about you way too much,
I often find myself with a big dumb grin on my face when I look at you.
I want to hold your hand and kiss your cheek.
When I see your smile the world stands still, and when you're in my arms I feel complete.
I find myself thinking about us living together, what our kids would be like.
Most of all, I want to spend every minute, every second with you.
I know I'll never find anyone else quite like you. You're so special to me.
I'm sorry. For everything.
I know this all doesn't matter,
I know that there's no chance to fix things.
But I still love you.
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 11:55 PM UTC
Nothing changes
You have accomplished nothing
You are nothing
Nothing.
Thoughts settling deep inside me
In the pit of my stomach
I can throw them up again tomorrow
But the words come back
Nothing.
Try to shift focus
Ignore the painful pull
Forget the words devouring your sanity
A sharp sting at your wrists
Quick relief
Until the illness drowns you
No escape.
Can't breathe.
Nothing.
Feb 2, 2015
Feb 2, 2015 at 10:32 PM UTC
I fall asleep with
scars on my skin and worries
under my pillow
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC
I cut myself up
many ragged pieces hit the floor
torn and frayed beyond repair.
You hurry to stitch me back together
before I become unrecognizable
before the remaining scraps are too worn for recovery.
Reassembly is valiantly attempted
but the pieces don't fit
rips and tears that no longer form a whole.
You can't find me again.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 12:02 PM UTC
I miss you.
The urge to reach
across the void possesses me
I desperately want to
close the space I have created between us
pull you flush against my chest and
shake you until it sinks in
and you come to realize that
I MISS YOU
But a hypocrite I am not
So i retreat
back to my own side
and hope that my thoughts
will penetrate your doubt.
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 9:56 PM UTC
I don't use beautiful, eloquent language
that softly tumbles from the mouth.
I don't write unique metaphors
that make the world seem profound and meaningful.
Life is short and simple
and that is how I write.
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 1:40 AM UTC
1. Your car was in a parking lot. I was immediately paralyzed by fear. A sigh of relief escaped me when a young woman opened the door.
2. I saw you in Elliot Rodgers. How he believed that women exist to fulfill his needs. When he took out those who didn't.
3. Your face appeared in a dream. Patronizing me, chastising me. Blood blossomed from my wrists. I woke up disappointed.
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 1:30 AM UTC