He leans back
Cracks open a beer
Watching the girl be loves spin around
With his beautiful 5 year old daughter
The sun is out
The grass is green
There's a football game on in the background
He takes it all in, memory by memory
And he mutters
"It's a helluva life"
Dec 26, 2013
Dec 26, 2013 at 10:10 PM UTC
She thought he was everything.
A lover
A friend
A protector
A secret keeper
She loved him with her whole heart.
She never imagined that he would leave it in pieces.
She gave him all that she was as a person, expecting him to treasure her.
But he didn't care.
He never cared.
It was all a big game.
He lied
He cheated
He took her for granted.
It wasn't until 2 years after she dropped everything for him that she found out he wasn't loyal.
She discovered his lies
She cried and cried and cried.
He didn't beg her to stay
Didn't tell her he loved her
She felt like a fool for playing his game
So she left
And started a new life
Better
Stronger
She's putting her pieces back together, one by one.
Nov 16, 2013
Nov 16, 2013 at 2:57 PM UTC
She turned away from him
Not wanting him to see her tears.
She'd never imagined it would end like this
But now, it was happening.
She always pictured her life with him beside her
She dreamed of city lights and high heels
Every night being date night for them
She dreamed of holding hands and laughing
All while they walked through Central Park
She wanted to take pictures in a photo booth the day before her 23rd birthday
She wanted a real romance.. With him
She imagined how he would propose, in Times Square, not caring who saw
And they would plan their wedding together
She imagined 3 beautiful children growing up in their countryside home in Maryland
With 2 dogs
And maybe a goldfish
She was so positive about her future
That she never even had a doubt
But the truth was staring her in the face now.
He was leaving her
And she had to learn to accept it
Nov 10, 2013
Nov 10, 2013 at 4:17 PM UTC
She was witty
Outgoing
Intelligent
Some might even call her silly.
She was a friend
A leader
A role model
A lover.
She was a people pleaser
Wished for the good of everyone.
But she only had one problem.
She had a secret.
It was no small secret.
It haunted her.
Every day
Every night
Every time she relaxed.
She couldn't escape it
Though she tried.
It was her past, and who can run from their past?
Nobody knew.
Not even her parents
Or friends
Or teachers
Or anyone who could help her.
She refused to tell because it was humiliating
But she couldn't help that it happened to her.
She lost her trust
Her sense of security
All within 15 minutes.
She was young
Didn't know any better
She followed him like a dog
He had lured her in and abused her.
Sexually and physically.
She ran home crying, but no one was there.
Not a person she could tell
Not a person who could soothe her.
And as she grew older, she finally began to understand the horrid experience she had been through.
Now she holds scars.
Physically and emotionally
But those very scars are what make her stronger every single day.
She refused to let some abusive pervert ruin her life
And she moved on
Lived on
Didn't let that stop her from being the beautiful strong woman she is today.
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 10:04 PM UTC
Promise me you'll never leave.
I remember when I said that. I made him promise from the bottom of his heart that he was mine forever. And he made that promise.
So much for keeping it.
All I can see now is his face and the slamming of the door that he walked out of.
He left me, heartbroken and deserted, with no one to look after me, no one to care for me.
He knew I was young. He knew that I would be more affected by a break-up than his normal girlfriends.
But he was experimenting.
He didn't care what happened to me to begin with.
He never wanted to be with me
He just wanted to be with someone younger.
A lot younger.
I lost everything when he left.
My pride
My sense of security
My trust
Now what am I left with? A box full of pictures, several of his old t-shirts, and a lifetime of demolished memories.
They always said first heartbreaks are the worst, but I never expected this.
I'm learning, day by day, how to put one foot I front of the other again. It's not easy, but I'm making progress.
I just hope that he doesn't try to walk his way right back into my life.
Cuz I'm scared I might be stupid enough to fall right back for him again.
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 9:42 PM UTC
Everybody dreams.
Everybody seeks the life they want.
Their very own paradise
To be serenaded under the moonlight in the midst of the night
To be kissed during a downpour of rain
To love but not be hurt
To sing
To dance
To live in freedom and joyfulness
To have all the tolerance in the world
To sleep under waterfalls
To make wishes on shooting starts or 11:11
To live with no regrets.
It truly would be paradise
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 10:42 PM UTC
You always told me you wanted the best. The best food, the best clothes, the best house, and you always said I was the best guy.
But what if that wasn't enough? What if one day you woke up and realized you could do better? I never thought that day would come, until it did.
You caught me completely off guard when you said it.
I'm not happy.
I had done everything in my power to prevent you from ever thinking those words, but now, it can't be taken back.
So now you'll go off exploring the world, like you always wanted to do.
And I'll still be here, reminiscing the times we spent together.
You'll move to Paris, or Greece, or some romantic city, and you'll become a writer, putting your dreams down in words.
I'll decide to be a construction worker, because I've never had any real talent for anything besides simple jobs.
You'll get into all these social events and parties and tell yourself that this is what you want.
And I'll travel, meeting all sorts of women, all while constructing buildings.
You'll get your heart broken by some Greek speaking player who never really loved you.
I'll have a different lover each night.
And you'll decide to come back to America where you want to find your long lost love from so long ago.
I'll remember the girl I fell for when I knew what love was.
Maybe we'll meet somewhere down the road. Maybe not.
But now I'm still trying to convince you to change your mind about leaving.
I'm not saying you're perfect, and I know that I'm far from it, but maybe if you stayed, and I learned how to keep you happy, maybe we could fall in love all over again.
The best kind of love, just like what you always wanted.
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 9:45 PM UTC
It all happened too suddenly.
To quick for him to realize.
They'd gotten in a fight just before she left,
And the last words he spoke to her were "stupid *****
Now she's gone. Forever.
He regretted nothing more than those 2 words.
Now he was to live without her for the rest of his long lonely life.
Sitting outside the funeral home, dreading going in, the first tear falls from his face,
And "Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd ironically playing in the background.
**** radio stations. Always knew how to bring out the weakness in a person.
A picture of her remains in his wallet
So that she will be with him wherever he goes.
He knows that she will be watching over him
His very own guardian angel.
And every night he prays for forgiveness of the final words he spoke to her.
He's learning how to live again, step by step, and eventually he will return to normal.
He didn't think he'd be this shook up to lose her,
But God knows what can come over you when you lose the one you love.
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 10:25 PM UTC
I left him.
It was quick and brief, but I left him. Someone so dear to me.
I'd only known him for the summer, but he managed to pull out an I Love You
Those three words caught me completely off guard, and I panicked.
So I left that town faster than he could say "please stay"
And now, flying down highway 88, I'm forced to remember every little detail.
Every kiss.
Every touch.
Every soft, gentle word spoken in the moonlight on top of my garage.
I remember all the times he would comfort me.
All the feelings I spilled out to him.
All the secrets revealed.
All the warm embracing hugs.
I remember how he used to sit behind me, wrapping his arms around me and entwining his hands in mine, and he would rest his head on my shoulder and kiss my neck.
Looking back, I can't remember a genuine reason why I left. All I know is that the only thing stopping me from saying 'I love you' back to him was my own fear of falling in love.
It's why I ran and its why I broke his heart.
Now I'm off to the east coast, particularly Boston.
He'll know to find me there. I always told him how it was my dream to move there.
And when he finds me, I will not hesitate. I will not resist.
I will crawl right back to him if that's what it takes.
And maybe, just maybe, I could finally have a happy ever after of my own, with the boy who made me whole.
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 10:15 PM UTC
A best friend is someone you tell secrets to, right?
But what if it were the same person to hold you at night?
As the sun goes down and the stars appear,
It's that someone whom you tell your biggest fear.
Your dearly beloved, whether a guy or a girl
Suddenly becomes your whole world,
And you laugh and you sing and you dance all around,
As your best friend twirls you round and round
And in the truth of the morning, everything is okay
You see that your beloved is here to stay.
Holding you tightly and never letting go
All during the disappearance of the moonlight glow.
And it is them you want to spend the rest of your life
Alongside them, your dear husband or wife.
And 70 years after you said "I do"
You manage to say one last "I love you"
Then you'll drift away to a heavenly sleep
With the one who you love so deep.
And eternal time you will spend together
With your dearly beloved, always and forever.
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 9:57 PM UTC