A part of me sees things "logically" I guess.
Theres distance between us literally and metaphorically.
Metaphorically theres distance between us so why not accept that and let it go?
Literally theres distance between us so theres nothing we can do about it and we can't work on things because of it so why not let it go?
But another part of me is so mad at you.
Why aren't you looking for me?
Why aren't you fighting of us?
Where is your grand gesture?
and I question wether you really loved me.
Aug 16, 2017
Aug 16, 2017 at 9:55 PM UTC
You are my calling, a piece of me,
My world in another life and just a taste in this one.
So if you go, it would be a cruel joke.
Oct 29, 2016
Oct 29, 2016 at 11:58 PM UTC
Heartbreak feels a little better than before.
Although if I lose you, I will lose all purpose.
But alteast this time, when I cry,
A small sense of optimism and pleasure resurfaces.
For this feeling is familiar. Therefore I know I'll make it out alive.
Still I love you hard. I don't want to lose you.
Oct 29, 2016
Oct 29, 2016 at 11:53 PM UTC
1 glass of wine is never enough
although it feels so good
1 more, 2 more assures the feeling will stay a while longer
The feeling of self love, inspiration and optimism.
I plan out the perfect encounter in my mind
You find me irresistible, yet we rush nothing
Because the anticipation entertained by words is more satisfying.
But oh the feeling when we finally do it.
Will it be like hot fire?
I believe so.
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 7:10 PM UTC
I'm tired. My eyes hurt and I want to go to sleep
But Im scared. Im scared of the space between the darkness in the room and my eyes closing shut because thats when my mind stabs my heart with a dagger the hardest
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 11:15 PM UTC
To love without fear; what a virtue
I care so much, but I cant show it
Even if I tried, a force pulls me back
my mind goes blank, I have nothing to say
when I am away from you the right words pour in
How simple for you to hold me or say something sweet
Maybe if said the right things you'd understand
But words wont do what actions will
I just cant. too jaded, too scared.
I am frozen
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 6:58 PM UTC
You took all I had without a chance to reel you in,
you were gone before I knew it
Apr 6, 2013
Apr 6, 2013 at 4:54 PM UTC
Random but I love life
I don't ever wanna die
But i didn't always feel this way
I never saw the shine
It was mostly rainy days
and dark thoughts that drowned my mind
A pain sublimely painful, although it didn't seem so at the time
A pain sublimely painful because I learned and grew so much
And if I had the chance to repeat it all I think Id say I might
I'd go through it chopped and ******* pay my dues
*** every minute, every hour made me strong and true
and even though I'm not the "Standard girl"
I accept the tainted one I am today
So don't even bother judging me Ive done it 1,000 times a day
Apr 6, 2013
Apr 6, 2013 at 4:34 PM UTC
Here I am missing you, you have a new name every other season
but you are the same person every single time
You see a guarded soul but you don't care
so I believe you are here on a mission to break down these walls and that you won't give up
But you never even start. False hopes.
you are suddenly aloof and now i miss and thirst for you even more
You were here only for one night
Jan 20, 2013
Jan 20, 2013 at 6:39 PM UTC
You are not for me and I am not for you
It's not suppose to be this complicated
Time and space have held us apart
Like an unknown force that holds you down in your sleep when you know you're awake
I want your warm naked body on mine
And I want you to look into my eyes
And for both of us to know, that in another life we were lovers
Possibly forbidden or Pharaohs not arranged in marriage
And when we look into each other's eyes we know,
God aligned you and I
But that is not the case with you, although I swear it was for a split second
You are not for me and I am not for you
Oct 7, 2012
Oct 7, 2012 at 6:43 PM UTC