i don’t understand
where all of this pain is coming from
pain i can’t contain
flowing through me
pure hurt
i feel inside me
my heart is heavy
and i feel weighed down
having never cried over someone,
why now?
why you?
you, who has left me with nothing but pain
you, who has me feeling like refuse
you, who has shattered my worth
why are you so different?
moreover, why have i changed?
me, who knew my self worth
me, who knew the right thing to do
me, who was playing it safe
yet this happens
shattering every part of my being
i’ve left me feeling empty,
i’ve left me judging myself,
i’ve left me feeling hatred for myself,
you made me hate myself
you made me hurt myself
you make me wish i never met you.
Apr 24, 2022
Apr 24, 2022 at 12:03 PM UTC
We're fragile
Just like glass
Every time we break
I'm left to pick up the pieces
Every time I share my joy
You say I'm acting like a child
When I share my troubles
You say I'm being ungrateful
I do something wrong
And you raise your voice
I do something nice
And it goes by ignored
Now I lie here
In a pool of my own blood
Will this go unnoticed too?
Will you finally see my pain?
But don't you worry amor
A place far from you
Is a place where I can finally be at peace
Nov 16, 2021
Nov 16, 2021 at 11:16 AM UTC
You ask me why I stopped talking to you
You ask me what's wrong
How do you not realize
I can't do this with you
You're not for me
We're so alike
And yet so different, don't you think?
You would never leave to start an adventure in a new city with just your backpack on your shoulders
But I would.
You think dancing together at a party is embarrassing
But I've been dying to do that.
You think museums are boring
But I could spend hours getting lost in it.
You don't like meeting new people
But I find it fascinating.
And I need to be with someone,
Who gets me,
Who wants to do things I love,
Who laughs at my stupidest jokes,
Who I can spend hours with and it feels like minutes.
I'm sorry but I have to let you go
It's not you
It was never you.
Nov 4, 2021
Nov 4, 2021 at 1:03 PM UTC
Those words you say
Gives temporary happiness
But your actions
Make me hate love
Oct 7, 2020
Oct 7, 2020 at 5:32 AM UTC
I can't remember anything, my memories don’t make sense.
My mind is crowded with no space for another tenant.
Unarranged thoughts take most of the space
Random sounds, noises, images, and videos keep playing
And I have no control over them
My dreams are trying to speak to me
But I hate them
Waking up feeling anxious
While the sun shines too bright in my room
The late summer heat starting to fill the space
Everything seems too bright
Like I'm not meant to be here right now
Maybe it's not my life, this one
But death doesn’t seem like a peaceful place either
It seems cold and dark and monstrous
But is anything more monstrous than the life we’re living in?
I can't remember
Sep 25, 2020
Sep 25, 2020 at 3:36 PM UTC
Running out of time
I think we’re running out of time
You’re not real
I’m not real
You’re a fool
If you think this is real
I despise you
If you’re taking this seriously
We’re not real
Get it in your head
It doesn’t matter
Nothing does
So I’m telling you
You’re free now
Go.
Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 5:09 PM UTC
Love is a bunch of ********
I don't want to feel
Yet I feel
And I block it
It's not true, I tell myself.
Don't trust your feelings.
They'll **** you up.
Yet I care
And I can't stop caring.
I'll always care
But I don't want to
Everything can't be fixed by me
Yet I try
To fix it all.
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 2:06 PM UTC
We're still living in
The prelude of our lives
Darling isn't it time,
We start our story
So one day
Even the stars
Will be telling the story of tonight
Dec 27, 2019
Dec 27, 2019 at 5:42 AM UTC
"Everything happens for a reason" they say.
But that's only what they want to believe.
May 22, 2019
May 22, 2019 at 7:40 AM UTC