Why can't I tattoo
"I'm sorry"
on my forehead
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 10:11 PM UTC
trudging, I move along
time hesitates not a moment
the frantic beat
causes disarray within
tick, tick, tick
inadequate; alone
fears forms:
shiny, sticky palms
short breath
knotted throat
nothing in; watch out
don't cry, you baby
wait! I'm not finished yet!
tick, tick, tick
left behind
a step or two, trailing my peers
in the distance, I see them
sometimes, the dust from their steps
fills my lungs
and empties me of hope
to catch up
to reach Good Enough
to jump onto the train of contentedness
tick, tick, tick
Is my race less than?
Is my fight inferior?
Time ticks on.
Others charge forward.
Frozen, I fear.
tick, tick, tick
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 9:28 AM UTC
the absence pangs me
the separation aches in my chest
your touch
your smell
empty, I sit;
fragmented
your voice
your eyes
waiting, I wonder
waiting, I wander
object permanence escapes
Is this it?
Have you left me?
security untaught
regulation gap
desperate cling and
misunderstood intention
the cyclical mess
I can't undo
Feb 25, 2017
Feb 25, 2017 at 2:24 PM UTC
Let's have a do over.
Try again.
Let me start over.
Let's go back in time;
rewind.
Let's be friends again.
Jan 29, 2017
Jan 29, 2017 at 2:32 PM UTC
i want to stop by
i want to laugh
cry
help me
listen to her
good things
bad things
God things
craft things together
eat together
work together
HW together
drive together
memories
pictures
TEXTS
calls
love
love
love
the same.
Oct 17, 2016
Oct 17, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
Timidly, I let my feet touch the ground
With hesitation, I embrace the day
Your words are like acid in my open wounds
Don’t you see them?
lines of shame
veins to drain the evil within
mirrors of toughened tissue
that had no other choice
jagged attempts
you pour into me
sugar sweet, now bitter
it stings
stop hurting me
my heart
aches
i hate you
don't leave me
Jul 24, 2016
Jul 24, 2016 at 5:51 PM UTC
some moments can only be described as
"aha" paired with a deep sigh of relief
or
"hmph" followed by a whimper of distress
precious memories of time that
can only seem to be reciprocated
with a guttural noise
"mmmmm" as she falls into
the arms of another who loves her
"aaeehhhhh" as ice water
satisfies thirst by the noon July sun
moans in childbirth,
yelps of fear,
grunts of rage,
whines between tears
swoosh as the end draws near
words run
they leave
just like everyone else
and yet,
I ponder
with words:
wordless beauty
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 3:13 PM UTC
incessant confusion
left wondering
waiting for love
looking, lacking
physically present,
emotionally absent
arithmetic prison
reputation upheld
in front of
jealous outsiders
searching for substitutes
held in the arms of another
irreparable only if unwilling
even so,
we dance
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 2:44 PM UTC
sensitive extreme
third degree feeling
raw; infantile;
pathetic;
it hurts to breathe
it hurts to be
life burns
like the noon sun on my white skin
like barefoot patters on the rooftop
but you,
your contact is a cool sizzle
your touch is a drop of water on the hot stove
your hand on my back
soothes the swirling, spinning
chaotic tangles of thoughts
I'm a puzzle
& you're the missing piece
Jun 9, 2016
Jun 9, 2016 at 6:51 PM UTC