she was filled with poetry
destruction in her voice
but love in her words
she scared you
instead of turning towards you
she turned the mirror
forced to look at your reflection
you succumbed to weakness
May 20, 2022
May 20, 2022 at 2:50 AM UTC
glowing
she had a smile that was infectious
so you held in yours
it's like she made you feel bare
vulnerable
you hated it because you craved it even more
selfishly you asked,
"who am i to have you?"
while her light glowed
you dimmed yours
it wasn't a competition
but you wanted to win her
desperately,
you wanted to win her.
May 20, 2022
May 20, 2022 at 2:43 AM UTC
And our meeting was just a thrill I was meant to experience in order to become more real
The fuller version of me that I kept repressing finally combust and catapulted me in the right direction
To find a love that would accept me
And honor me
By showing up with respect and full authenticity
Transparency is not earned, it is a must and
Fated or not
Predetermined or not
No longer will I let Cupid’s arrow being shot take away what I was born with inherently
A love that I am deserving of and is my true destiny
Momentary desires are fleeting compared to a slow burning fire that nurtures and inspires
So maybe you were nothing more than a spontaneous flicker
That fizzled out once you realized my flame was indeed, much bigger
May 2, 2022
May 2, 2022 at 4:26 AM UTC
I’m losing myself
Maybe I haven’t worked on myself
Everything isn’t about me
I don’t know what I want
I feel lost
and I feel like no one understands me.
No one listens anymore,
and I can’t even hear myself.
I’ve fallen upon deaf ears.
And no one did it to me,
just myself.
Sep 27, 2021
Sep 27, 2021 at 2:19 AM UTC
I started writing again as a way to cope with the silence, constantly blaming myself with internal violence
Because it's me, and always will be
My vision is skewed
Maybe it's not you
It's just me,
And always will be
I wonder if the end's creeping up soon.
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 12:10 AM UTC
Where's an outlet when you need it? Searching for power
Power in myself
In my words
Power to let go and finally disperse
I say
Mouth shut
Too damaged to work
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 12:09 AM UTC
Nowhere to turn, nowhere to run
No beginning nor from
Just forward
And only forward.
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 12:04 AM UTC
It's closing in
Holding back tears
My nose is running
The stuffed feeling in my head is returning
Burning
Ringing
Trapped in the shower
I can't stop screaming
At these weights
Intruding
Deluding
That's crushing
And crushing
My only safe space
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 12:02 AM UTC
roaming through the desert of a foreign land
blood on my hands
armor made from the pieces of sand
bleeding out
unable to shout
there are no echos
or other lifeforms to hear my pleas
dying of thirst
i drop to knees
until behold
a shadowy figure looms over me
holding a canteen
smiling ferociously
unable to speak
desperation fills my eyes
eyes dried up not able to cry
no empathy
a statue of apathy
with a slow stare
you vanish right past me
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 10:20 PM UTC
she was the kind of crazy people thought they liked
had a bit of a wild streak
not much of a filter
and didn't really distinguish who could get with her
at least
that what they thought was all to her
in reality
behind that beautifully masked facade
she was a fragile girl
going through the world
looking only for affection
with maybe just a hint of validation
her eyes dreamed for the world
thinking she was ready
going head first but never steady
not afraid of difficult feats
but quick to leave if her desires never meet
maybe she was fickle
loathed tediousness
and badgering of regrets
(also, the grossness of sweat)
but on the contrary
her patience was weary
and with the dullness of life
she was starting to lose her faith in faeries
maybe a bit scary
but you
you loved her
full and through
and there was nothing
you would not do
just to hear that goofy laugh
and see that dimpled grin
you finally came to terms with it,
your love for her was a blissful sin.
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 10:09 PM UTC