In fleeting flicks of fervent flutters,
Unbanished feelings freely sway
Formed from limerent, flippant shudders
A force that's hit me like no other,
Calls the light I beg away
What room have I, in heart, for flutters?
"Leave me to my sighs and mutters..."
I hear my frigid heart relay,
Too fragile for these wild shudders
Brought to burning, stammering stutters
Nervous thoughts, frost-brought, decay
In pacing, panicked, manic flutters
This old and weary heart will utter
A word of warning ere I stay
Recompense for past love's shudders
Do I exaggerate these flutters?
Formed from limerent, hopeful shudders?
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 1:16 PM UTC
How wonderful it must be
To never feel pain...
Whispered words like a silent storm,
She cast my heart to the depths of the ocean
With rage,
I envy her careless motions
Her defining tragedy
Is the symptom and cardinal restriction
Of my seething, scarred antipathy
For I can only wish on her
That most necessary of torments,
The loss of deepest affection
But true love occurs in the presence
Of humbling sacrifice
True loss happens only
When one cannot bear to love another
Less than one loves one's self
The heart bleeds for the light that pierces
None could reach her blackest night
Where is the dirge for my stolen confessions?
For the price to bear her loveless wrath?
Hours whittled on and on,
sharing
kissing
holding
talking
hearing
knowing
I want them back!
Is justice dead?
Hatred she deserves,
Salvation she evades
The pain I know would set her free,
Could never find a way inside her
Heartbreak and loss she, both, requires
To know the evil of her ways
A heart that only values self
Could never break beneath that weight
And so
I wait
I long to hear her say
“I'm sorry...”
Even if it takes forever
Even if she'll never know
What it's like to feel my pain
Still, I'll wait
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 9:23 AM UTC
Shadows of the moon
Draw crests of night from noon
With whispers on the waves,
Our ship is leaving soon
Shadows on the sky
Wake light whose rifts will cry
From distant dreams we crave,
Our pasts have said goodbye
I've left the shores behind
Waged wars inside my mind
And now tonight I'll glide
Into the shadows of the moon
Shadows of the moon,
Dawn black on midnight's croon
With eyes set towards the sea
Our ship has sailed too soon...
Shadow breaks to wave
Wind's weight could crush the brave
Though squalls rip you and me,
This broken world we'll save
I've left the storm inside,
Old patterns I've defied,
And now my blade's refined
With the shadows of the moon
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 7:58 PM UTC
I've followed fools and said farewells,
Been lead to where I've said too much
Seen silence drawn from words I've said-
I've said "Too much is not enough..."
I'll bathe in every light you send me,
Say you wont believe my lies
So long as sadness always rears its head like
Shadows dancing in our eyes
Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!
Learned to fly from daydreams always dragging
Me away from Earth
In terra firma found the roots that tangle
In the furnace of rebirth
And though I've only just become
A chapter in your story
I'll follow every line that leads to where
We share our morning glory
Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!
I wanna be there for all the
dark-and-light years
Let's make 'em all those
thoughtfully-high-at-night years
And when I say I love myself at last,
You know I mean I love you too
Because I honor the light inside of me
That burns twice as bright inside of you
Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!
Our maiden voyage, don't be scared,
Trust your spirit, I'm always there.
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 11:40 PM UTC
Like the blossoms born
in springtime fervor
passing in transient haste
Like the will-o'-wisps dance
on the moors of surrender
I'm lost in the fogs of the past
With a yearning that calls
to the flame sprung from summer
I struggle to banish the frost
But the cold wind that blows
from the fields of forever
Tells me I'm already lost
Shadows, calling
Remind me of how to survive
Memories, guide me,
Beckon to days far away
Fire inside me
Rise from the ashes again
Love so near me
Redeem this lost ghost in the fog
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 11:37 PM UTC
Love was my drug of choice
It doesn't help I have
an addictive personality
But we all have our vices
Cigarettes,
They can be trusted
A little pleasure,
A little pain,
They'll **** you in the end
But it's all part of the contract
You'll sell your body
For peace of mind
A lover is not so courteous
You'll sell your soul,
For what?
At least the cigs are honest
Easier to replace,
Quicker to be rid of
No delusions of permanence,
No false promise of forever
Just a little pleasure,
And a little pain
Sep 20, 2013
Sep 20, 2013 at 10:32 PM UTC
Today, I fell from the sky
And mourned my tattered wings
I screamed in hopes the stars would hear
I cursed the earth that broke my fall
As I watched you fly away,
I wished for heaven to burn
In the fields of asphodel,
I lay
In a dream you left behind,
I watched the rain pour out
In silence,
I cried
My tears were falling to the ground
and froze my fevered pleas
through the valley of forever,
a shimmering wind escaped the trees
the roars from shores we'd seen before
gave power to their whisper
the lips of god formed air to song,
silencing my foolish whimper
all beauty we had found in life
was still stretched out before me
all grace I found inside your eyes
was branded deep within me
In the fields of asphodel,
I lay
In the dreams of days to come,
I felt the radiant dawn
Beneath new horizons,
I try
Today, the fields you left behind
nurture every dream unseen
today, the clouds reveal the sun
and greet the golden dawn
Today, I'm blessed by thunder's call,
Today, the storm left me with more
Today, I fell from the sky,
but I still have my wings
Rain is falling gently now
On the fields of asphodel,
Where we shared our kiss
The flowers smile,
so I will mourn no longer
After all,
They look so lovely
Today.
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 4:11 AM UTC
Can you tell me where the light
will take you?
tunnel vision blocks the roads I've known
Careless wreckage stems in
all directions
breaking points exhume from seeds I've sewn
butterflies were born in
dreams that danced inside your eyes
your promises were flights of fancy
words that left me...
....paralyzed
If I knew how many nights would hold me
memories would all be cast from grace
Timeless wonder left from all
misfortune
wouldn't stoke the flame of love replaced
ecstasy was found in
fires forged inside our eyes
our promises were fevered frenzy
a wish that left us...
...hypnotized
But energy is flowing in me, harder,
I know the sun still sets in paradise
Dreams that haunt the dead will break the martyr
And regret will only leave me paralyzed.
Sep 10, 2013
Sep 10, 2013 at 6:32 AM UTC
It's no surprise to me
I crave the magic of this world
It's written deep inside of me
Carved by hands I've never known
Like islands in my sea of wonder
Stars whose flames I've never held
Put passion in the stream of life
and wrought the steel within my bones
Like paths that weave the road unventured
The kiss of winds not meant for me
With lips unbound sang tales of splendor
and wrote the song that's in my soul
Like valleys cleaving earth undying
Ocean's depths beyond repose
Stretched self and left all semblance sundered
taught me how far forever goes
So it's no surprise to me
I crave these things I've never known
It's written deep inside of me
Carved by the magic of this world.
Jul 29, 2013
Jul 29, 2013 at 2:12 PM UTC
All I want is to be naked
I wish to be vulnerable
I'm encased in a web of emotive calamity
Trapped in cold stone and empty waves
Locked in materialism,
Social apathy suffocates me
I need air...
From the womb of modernity,
Claustrophobia is born
I gasp
I need to feel free...
I need to be held...
I need to be exposed...
This musty cell of modern depravity,
Vanity,
Pride,
Self-seeking,
Commercialism,
Disregard,
Apathy,
Greed,
Hate...
It chokes me with the foul stench of death
The scent that tells me darkness falls
I can see no virtue in this prison
A veil is pulled upon me,
And I'm engulfed in merciless dissociation
I need to drink crisp waters
From the fountain of harmony
I need to be caressed
In the warm ***** of compassion
I need to soar
On the vigorous gales of freedom
I need to be...naked
Strip me of possession,
Unravel my desires,
Hold me in your arms,
And let us be naked together!
Cast off allure of material treasure,
Come embrace your human pleasure!
Somewhere outside this dark room
Over the stone walls that encompass us,
There is a light that sings to me
I can break the walls and burn the bridge,
Cast aside the past of ego
And lead us to a world of dreams
Would you follow me?
Would you break the shackles of your possession?
Cast aside the love of things,
Replace it with the things of love?
Have we drifted so far apart as a people
That we have no room to breathe?
I think not.
This prison of emotive distress,
This cage of idiosyncratic routine,
This lockdown hysteria of need,
It's merely a base from which to start
The distance between us all
Only leaves room for us to grow
I can see the walls break down,
The old facades are wearing thin,
And I'm peeling away the trappings
Of things I thought I knew
But knew I never truly wanted
With them, walls will break
With them falls the cage
And through the coming of the things I see so clear
Like love and peace and harmony
Nakedness and connectivity
(No need for greed,
No need for possession)
I can see the walls tear down
And with their fall I know it's coming:
The day where all are free to fly.
Jun 29, 2013
Jun 29, 2013 at 2:32 PM UTC