Death and other deities
Tip toe across my bedroom
Awake or asleep they still take my dreams
Hold them in one hand and open the other
Spilling the sorrows of the world
Onto my body
Slipping nightmares into my bedtime tea
And promises of nothingness under my sheets
Jul 27, 2023
Jul 27, 2023 at 11:02 PM UTC
I'm withered.
I feel depleted in my guts. Robbed of something that was supposed to be a part of me
Oxygen deprivation upon waking even though it's with gasps i rise from the pillows.
I feel grief unmatched.
Nails claw at the skin covering my chest.
I've been told they hurt but i cant feel them.
I only feel compressed.
Short on everything. Answers. Solutions.
Hope.
Short on everything but love.
So i lay back down, falling onto the spaces youd be in a different life.
I'll let the whispers of possibilities carry me over into my dreams where you'll be mine.
I wake up again.
I wither in the absence.
Mar 12, 2020
Mar 12, 2020 at 3:52 PM UTC
I wish I could take back what I gave you for Christmas
I wish instead of a calendar for you to mark your days on
I had given you all my skin to carve your name on
And I wish instead of a CD with songs I already memorized
You had given me your voice with words I wouldn't recognize
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 3:13 AM UTC
You said that the last 6 girls you dated chain smoked in winter
But I just wanna chain smoke your laugh in the spring
Ill probably be back on the nicotine by summer
And by the fall, only memories of the smoke will sting
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 3:13 AM UTC
I'm the kind of girl
that crawls into a serial killer's bed
he whispers "I'm going to **** you when this is over"
I blush
But am flushed and confounded
when I wake up dead
"But I thought what we had was special!"
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 1:33 AM UTC
I lay on your bed in an imprint that isn't mine
Left there from the last girl that you found yourself inside
Kick away her ******* that are the color of you
And pretend that I'm something new
Killer eyes, foggy lies straight from my nightmares
You'd never guess that I relish in every scare
Grab me by the throat and silence my screams
Rip apart my resolve with your teeth
Self-delusions are grand but not as bold as the truth
It's screaming at me from my friend's mouths, pouring out of you
I know I'll never be able to take care of you
Because that's not what wicked girls do
I'm so colorblind but I see red so very well
Want to rip into your heart just to see it pool and swell
But when you entered me I saw another hue
And now I see that I'm red, but you'll always be blue
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 3:43 AM UTC
We saw the real light of happiness as children
And as adults we chased impostors
Worshiping false idols we thought we knew
But we wasted our time chasing street lamps
Fireworks, lighting bolts, fireflies
Mistakenly believing it was the radiance from our half-remembered dreams
Not realizing that the candle had been blown out years ago
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 3:37 AM UTC
I let him break into me
The next day I thought my lips had broken,
I thought my innocence had burst into flames,
But still, he is in my thoughts.
I think about how it all changed that afternoon,
That ruined, Summer Afternoon.
My soft skin aches,
When I think of my Parasite Lover,
That Destroyer and I.
Jul 7, 2017
Jul 7, 2017 at 2:09 AM UTC
Everything is blue,
his pills,
his hands,
his jeans.
And now I'm covered in the colors
Pull apart at the seams.
And it's blue.
Everything is grey,
his hair,
his smoke,
his dreams.
And now he's so devoid of color,
he don't know what it means.
and it's blue
Jun 18, 2017
Jun 18, 2017 at 2:59 AM UTC
I'm supposed to say happy fathers day
With hallmark emotion
But all i feel is is the abandonment
Of what you made
You threw us away
Knowing the cost
Choosing ***** and ******
Over what you made
I can’t miss what I never had
Can’t know what it’s like to have a dad
When all you ever been is a lie
When all you’ve given is a tragedy
To your groups
To gain sympathy
When i’m the one with haunted minds
And you’re the the one on constant highs
An artificial family
The love you feel is merely an echo
Forged from narcissism and ************
Of the heart you lost years ago
Jun 18, 2017
Jun 18, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC