As I lay in the bedroom,
My own personal confinement'
in which I oh so willingly created for myself,
I feel myself on fire,
My hands shaking out of utter frustration,
fighting every tear welling up in my eyes with all that I have left of my sense of mind,
But for what reason?
to be strong,
to reassure myself,
I ask myself what use is it to be strong if your utterly alone,
With no one to care weather your strong or not,
So I let go,
but just for a moment,
I allow myself to remember the pain,
the memories I locked away,
hoping someday they would cease to exist,
The troubling feelings that twist my heart and bring me to my knee's
letting out slow puffs of breath I calm my emotions,
wipe the water from my eye's ,
clear the tortured expression that once lay on my face,
I leave the moment and enter back into the world I made myself believe in,
I pretend to be strong.
Dec 3, 2013
Dec 3, 2013 at 4:35 AM UTC
There once was a friendship
A friendship that grew strong
One that was durable and could survive all that went wrong
The people in this friendship loved each other
through blood, tears, and depression
They stood by each others sides through
Spite, anger,and loss of affection
They fought for each others beliefs
Held each other when one felt weak
Trusted one another with everything
But eventually the day came
When their friendship wasn't the same
And they ran
Having each other to blame
For the once proud friendships decay
There once was a girl who yearned for what was lost
She wanted her friendship no matter the cost
So she gave up her pride
With a plead and a cry
She waited patiently for old friend to oblige
But to her surprise her friend still insisted she had lied
On the outside she shrugged and said at least I tried
But on the inside she knew the pain would not subside
That the friendship would be broken even after the day she died
Dec 3, 2013
Dec 3, 2013 at 4:33 AM UTC
Time goes on as your memory fades, Alzheimer's eating away at your brain
Stealing your happiness, Whilst leaving you frustrated, angry, in pain
As the days go by names and faces begging to blur
As the weeks weeks pass The faces and names forgotten
Birthdays, anniversaries, family, non existent
The continuing loss consistent
And though deep down I know I still wonder
Do you remember me?
But to ask that question, Do I dare?
Would it be nothing but a blunder
So I wonder in silence, I hope in silence, I leave everything i feel silent
The feeling of wanting to scream and cry, to hug my family and friends
To say something meaningful and deep
To make a fearless decision, Just take a leap
Because life and memories don't last forever
At any moment life can be severed
All this never said out loud
Pretending it doesn't exist makes me feel like I'm stuck in a storm cloud
that's surrounding me, slowly but surely making me unable to breathe
I feel my self gasp,
As I say the words out loud at last
Do you remember me?
I say this to myself
For now the feelings in my heart will remain on a desserted shelf
I have to be strong for the family who has lost so much
Do you remember me?
This would destroy the whole bunch
Dec 3, 2013
Dec 3, 2013 at 4:32 AM UTC