People tell me I'm gorgeous but I don't ever believe it
They say I possess so much beauty but ion never see it
It's sad that I can't even see the pigment of my skin
Yes, I gotta admit its painful to not be on the outside...
It's hurts to not be the one looking in,
Instead I'm looking out , out my eyes and into a glass
A glass that says "I look nice",
and a heart that says I'm worthless
Why is it that way ... I'm curious ?
Why is it that you see size three and I see size 11 ..
Why is it that looking at my self is painful...
Draining..
Call me insane but we don't feel the same
Say any compliment or kind gesture
and I will still think differently of myself differently
because no matter how much you tell someone they are beautiful they must feel it themselves
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 8:28 AM UTC
Burned bridges
A purposeful collision,
Intentional mistake,
I apologize but it is done .
And there's nothing you can compensate .
Maybe you can relate,
maybe not.
You forced me out that spot .
Your so unkind , and I was so blind .
It's fine
I know wisdom comes with time .
That's the karma of ******* over a good person
the efforts I put in were worthless,
the only emotion that my face holds is remorseless .
Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 1:05 PM UTC
Eyes open
My mind awake
Carefully pacing each breath I take
New days come with the passing of hours
One day I won't bare the mark of a coward
I want this now more than ever ..
Should I accept this chance
or become content with a solid never?
Never knowing , never feeling , fearing to experience the unknown ...
contradicting thoughts swallow me whole
the only thing I fear is that of which I do not know.
It's everything I want , everything I fear,
but hell it's been rough along the way , how can I make it clear.
I just wanna wake up everyday
and know that you haven't abandoned me.
That this bond will withstand time itself ..
Perhaps That's wishful thinking ...
Wisdom comes with experience ..
New days come with the passing of hours .
One day I will look back at myself as I am today
and I will laugh at the face of a coward .
-Tamera Brown
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 10:02 PM UTC
Sometimes my memories sneak out of my eyes
and roll down my cheeks
These prisoners always find a way to escape,
When tension reaches its peak
Off into the night
Where everything I invision becomes bleak
Sometimes my mind doesn't follow my footsteps
and leaves my heart hollow
These prisoners derive themselves out of feelings that were ever so potent
But now..
I realize what chances are overlooked when words remain unspoken .
-Tamera Brown
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 8:03 PM UTC
I seen her today
The beautiful one who haunts me
The one I am, but fail to see
I felt I was her today
her walk, her effortless confidence,
her infectious laugh, that intoxicating smile
her feral beauty that is unleashed to the world
Today, I loved myself
-Tamera Brown
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 5:10 PM UTC
Happiness .
A word with no true meaning but a word that somehow depicts all of what one is feeling,
Happiness is when you catch yourself smiling for no reason at all.
Happiness is when everything possible is going wrong but you bring yourself to laugh through it all.
Happiness is accepting oneself fully for when you know your flaws and weaknesses no one can ever use them against you.
Seeing beauty in the bad is apart of this life.
The bad is what makes one who they are and pushes one to strive for everything one could ever dream of being.
Happiness is making everything worth seeing.
If there is one thing that one deserves it is to be happy,
to feel happiness and to allow the inner joy to shine through the inner walls of ones being.
Happiness is entitled to us and no individual , no moment , no fragment in time can keep one from experiencing happiness.
To live is a choice , to change is a choice , to succeed , to be happy is a matter of choice .
Choose happiness , choose to live fully, this life changes , and progresses far to fast to question your happiness...
Love yourself enough to let go of anything that no longer serves you, grows you or makes you happy.
Loving yourself is a matter of happiness.
At times one may fail to see why others see what they see in them but in all honesty it is because one and others are looking at two completely different things.
One sees something they fail to understand and another sees of everything they've ever dreamt of.
To love one self is the foundation of happiness .
And to be happy is to truly live . And happiness is a choice that no individual, thing, or place can take away .
- Tamera Brown
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 7:52 PM UTC
At the point where not even drugs can numb the pain
I look all around me but who's the one to blame?
Sometimes,
you must let go in order to gain
-Tamera Brown
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 7:37 PM UTC
I need you now,
but you are not here.
You don't exist.
You were never anything of substance
besides a faint portrait trapped in my mind
- Tamera Brown
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 5:34 PM UTC
I crave a love so deep that the oceans will grow envious
I desire a heart so on fire that its light will outshine a thousand suns
I wish to taste your being and feel all the emotions erupting from inside of you
this love will never pass , my lips forever whisper " your mine at last".
-Tamera Brown
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 10:04 PM UTC
I look into your eyes and i can feel myself drowning
being lured in with every secret that is revealed
with every promise that is made
,I feel as if i will never reach the bottom of your untamed soul.
your mind is deeper than the darkest abyss
and as beautiful as the most precious diamond
-Tamera Brown
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 6:32 PM UTC