takaveon
24/F/sumwhere over the rainbow
My names Courtney. Lately I've just been going through the motions so what i do here is i just take all my passion or pain and try to find the words to sum it all up. Kinda glad i stumbled across this place. makes me feel as if i can somewhat be myself.
It’s not good to go back in time. If you do you’ll see everything you missed leading to a different way of living a life of misfortunate events.
Jun 11, 2021
Jun 11, 2021 at 12:39 PM UTC
My hate for you has grown
Was nonexistent now it’s strong
And if I stick around I’d be wrong
But it would be a waist to just leave you alone
Waist of my time it’s already been
And I really hate that it’s come to this
How it use to be is what I miss
But if I stay another day we won’t even remain friends
Jan 19, 2021
Jan 19, 2021 at 10:39 AM UTC
You look into my eyes and pierce me like the sting from a bee
Those eyes, those eyes,those beautiful brown eyes
Only the lord knows what they do to me
Take me, move me, throw me like none other
Push me pull me, something I Know I'll never take from another
Those Eyes!!!! The eyes of a lover
Dare me, make me feel you, humble me with that **** rhythm
I've never felt this feeling, The feelings that I feel
What have you done to me? Why have you brought me here?
Now i cant look away, in your eyes i must stay, and I must say
Those eyes...... those eyes...... those beautiful brown eyes
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 7:36 PM UTC
I lust for thee and i say it with a smile
I let all of my feelings go
Emotional? Not me
Unattached is what I want to be..... but I'm scared
cause if I look in your eye's they'll pierce me and take me back in
oh no not again.... not again
I lust you and live to catch you back into my grasp
My tight grip, my hands, my love whip is what u want to touch you with
..... give me you for tonight, if that's alright..... right now
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 7:28 PM UTC
You'll realize... and when you realize you'll regret and when you regret you'll wonder and when you wonder you'll want and when you want you'll already be forgotten....
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 7:21 PM UTC
The sun was out today and it made me think of you but when it went in for the night so did that too.... You don’t linger anymore. You’re almost distant and I’m almost cool with it..... for now.
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 8:03 PM UTC
Who else just isn’t in the Christmas spirit this year???
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 10:58 AM UTC
I’ve grown, I’ve learned, I’ve gained, I’ve lost...... I’ve hurt, I’ve changed but still have the same thoughts. “It’s me!!!!” I scream. “It’s me, can’t you see! It’s me! I’m still the same!” But to lie about who I am now is pointless cause I have nothing to gain. No love or friends cause January 2019 was supposed to be new. And February, oh February. February is when I lost you. March brought more rain. April, May and June brought pain. Crazy cause in June I had a birthday. July made me cry. August I still whipped my eyes. September again brought me bad times. October and November I know I longed for love and my wish never came true. Now December’s here I’m broken and have nothing to fear. So much so that I know I have nothing to lose. What a year I’ve had but to say I’d change it all would be crazy, simple because it all makes me who I am and that’s the one thing through this year and all the others that I’ll always remember. “It’s me!”.....”it’s still..... me.
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 10:36 AM UTC
And the sun sat.... when it did it felt like my eyes were closed. Felt like my back had been turned or I was in a dark room with no windows. Heart beating outta my chest. My hands could flow a river. Body tense. Legs weak. But I still remember. The day before we were together. And the day before that too. Where did it all go wrong? I wish It hadn’t cause now I have to sleep without you. I could comfort myself if I wanted to but it just wouldn’t be the same and you don’t even understand the pain that comes from hearing your name. Time heals all but I really just wanna make it stop cause it just keeps going and I’m stuck with all the things that come with not. Not having you here. Not seeing you. Not being able to smell your breath in the morning time. I really got use to all those things and now i have to relearn not having you around. But is it the same for you? I miss you so **** much. This hurt that I feel is so unreal. Maybe it’s a dream please wake me up. No phone call no text you ain’t even trying to come back this way and even though I’m hurt I’d still take you back with open arms any day...... guess I’m just stuck daydreamin y’all....
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 5:18 PM UTC