you were supposed be my distraction from reality
not the reason to question my morality
you have me looking back and forth
making me question what it's worth
you make it hard for me to think
I can't even put this on ink
"Oh baby I want to make you mine"
sending shivers up my spine
you don't know how much
I've been craving your touch
kisses on my neck
even if it's just a peck
smiling, with that twinkle in your eye
and in my head I'm thinking "why?"
why me?
how could someone as amazing as he
could see, well me?
all I know is that I don't want this to end
because I don't want to pretend
like I never pressed send
Jun 22, 2016
Jun 22, 2016 at 4:13 AM UTC
Oh those drums!
that magical techno paradise I crave
I can feel the music within
taking control of my body
it feels like there is nothing around
just the music and me
jumping up and down without a care
I close my eyes and just take it all in
nothing else crosses my mind except for
**** YEAH**!"
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 1:15 AM UTC
...
free
alive
energetic
and imaginative
thats what I remember from my childhood
running
playing
hiding
playing duck, duck, goose under a starry night
those were the days i wish i could go back to
riding my bicycle through puddles of mud after the rain had stopped
the feel of fresh cut grass in between my toes
laying down in the meadow in my backyard
letting the sun shower me with warmth,
gazing into the clear blue sky where clouds formed marvelous shapes
while inhaling the most cleanest, freshest air
those where the days when i was so carefree
taking adventures in the forest
collecting glittery rocks because i thought it had fairy dust
oh, how i believed in fairies
id sit at the edge of the river making small tables and chairs made of grass, bark, and moss
decorating it with flowers that i gathered from my mothers garden
using walnut shells as the vase
listening very closely for the sound of tiny bell chimes nearby
paying very close attention to my surroundings in case id run into one
this was my Neverland
i remember how happy i was
how life was so fascinating
how i was one with nature and its mysteries
how i believed
now
i don't know what is wrong from right
what is good from bad
now
i live in a world of evil thoughts and misguided people
in a world where others control how i feel
in a world filled with lies
that is why i choose to never grow up
to never let myself forget how i believed in the most impossible things
and that is how i learned
to fly
...
Feb 4, 2014
Feb 4, 2014 at 4:21 AM UTC
Junior High
The worst and the best years of my life
we laughed, we cried, we were connected, we were one
you helped me
Seventh Grade
she was there
the girl everyone loved
the girl everyone wanted to be
I devoted my life to her
made her feel better about herself
risked everything to make her happy
my grades,
my family,
my dignity
all because of her
my so called "Best Friend"
I did everything I could to be like her
I stopped eating
I stopped listening to my parents
I stopped caring
everything was for her
Then...
She ruined me
"YOU ***** DONT EVER TALK TO ME!" were the last things she said to me
I died inside
I was finished
She told everyone lies about me
made up stories about me
Id walk down the halls and everyone would step aside as if I was crap
****
Id ask a simple question
only to be responded with eyes filled with hate
disgust
those eyes haunted me
Id cry myself to sleep
I shut everything off
my mom
my dad
my brothers
my sister
my self
I was an empty body with no soul
like a pen with no ink
useless and unwanted
but you...
you saw through the lies
you didn't see the girl that was unwanted
you saw a girl that was lonely
a girl that was troubled
a girl who needed a friend
you were there for me
I showed you my internal scars
you showed me yours
across your wrist
how could someone so beautiful do that to herself?
the pain you must of felt
you told me your story
I told you mine
you defended me
you were there for me
YOU HELPED ME
and I will never forget that
we know each other inside out
we know each others secrets
HELL! we wrote fan fiction together!
I want that again
we are learning how to live without each other
cause you'll be leaving me soon
and it hurts every time I think about it
But for now I just want to be with you
I want to laugh like before
I want to have our inside jokes be ours again
I want you to be honest
I want you to tell me when I **** up
Because your my best friend
my comadre
you saved me....
Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 12:56 AM UTC
The stage is bright like a candle
people cheering, screaming their name
my friend and I squeeze our way through
once we get a decent view of the side of the stage
we dance without a care
as I twirl
a boy
taking pictures of the Marley brothers
catches my eye
he looked majestic just standing there
I could feel my heart pounding
my friend grabs my hand to move closer to the stage
...to him...
we're standing right next to him
"Do you guys want to stand in front of me" he says followed by the most beautiful smile I've ever seen
"If you don't mind"
"Not at all beautiful"
I blush and move
Music blasting everywhere
I feel free...
the lady next to me trips and falls, causing me to bump him
his warm hands wrap around my waist perfectly
"you ok?" he says to me
"yeah I'm fine, thank you for catching me"
"Anytime"
as I looked at him, his eye's, so blue like summer skies, everything disappeared.
"come on lets dance!" my friend yells, unaware of whats going on.
he smiles and lets go
as I danced with her, I found myself turning to look at him again
his eyes closed, letting the music flow through him
"Should I dance with him? or Should I just forget about it?"
Suddenly a huge wave of bravery runs through my body
**** IT!
I grab his hands and pull them towards me, he didn't hesitate as he wrapped his arms around me once more
and we danced
I then knew that this was the boy who had stolen my heart, the boy I wanted to be with right then and there
it was perfect
he was perfect
"what your name?" I ask
"Jake"....
Jake, even his name was perfect
"whats yours?"
"Maggie"
"its beautiful, your beautiful"
butterflies were flying in my stomach
after several songs my friend tells me we had to go
I look at Jake, "I need to go"
we stand still, he holds me tighter, not wanting to let go
"come on, we need to go"
"Will I ever see you again?" he says,
I could see it in his eyes that he was hurting inside
"I don't know, maybe"
he takes a deep breath, and slowly lets go of me
I hold his hand "Ill never forget about you"
as I start to walk away, his pulls me in and kisses me
and in that moment I knew this wouldn't be the last time Id see him
we stop and embrace each other
as I slowly pulled myself away, our hands still holding on to whats left of us
I finally let go, and walk away........
I lost a piece of my heart that day, and never got it back
but I can feel it beating when I think of HIM
Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 11:26 PM UTC
I am a mystery of the earth
Created by the imagination of children
and yet I am real
The world teaches me to be questioned
by those who don't believe
turtles show me wisdom
sharks, survival
I hide like an octopus, blending into my surroundings
to keep me out of the naked eye
***** teach me how to defend myself
and whales teach me patiences
I travel with dolphins, and have fun on the beach
I appear to humans rarely, but only for their minds to wonder what they have seen
I live at ease but often in fear, because the world has changed through out the years
I don't know where Im going, but I know I am the only Mermaid left to keep the world wondering.
Jan 25, 2014
Jan 25, 2014 at 12:52 AM UTC