i'm running
where do i go
who do i go to
i can't-
my chest clenches at the sight of each dead end
my eyes well up with tears and i cup my ears
i scream
no one can hear me
running
another dead end
the world around me spins until
i fall
into complete nothingness
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 10:50 PM UTC
i need someone
that i trust
to lean on and hold me
make it all go away
make the bad days seem good just by smiling and saying
'hi' or by hugging me
i feel like they've all just..
left
distanced themselves away because I'm just a ******* mess
a clingy
annoying
mess
that needs someone just to stay stable
that isn't normal is it?
no
it's unhealthy
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 10:42 PM UTC
i feel
like im the ocean
cheesy metaphor i know, but it's true
people say im pretty
they pass by
many come and go
but no one ever stays
am i not good enough?
why do i feel like a piece has been ripped from me
like i'm just an empty shell of a person
wandering around till someone needs me
does anyone really need me?
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 10:39 PM UTC
Love is
That feeling in your chest and tummy when you're with that person
That smile on your face that never seems to fade
Laughing at all of their ridiculous jokes
Love is
Never wanting to let go because of the society we live in
Fighting for what you want
Never giving them up for the world
Love is
The light at the end of the tunnel
The force that will battle off our demons
That victorious feeling when you've won
Love is
The warm embrace that holds you close to them
Staying even though it's hard
A battle that will be won..
Love is
being proud of who you're with
not backing down when you're pushed down
People may hate us
They may tear us in pieces to keep us apart
But with you it'll be okay
We just have to fight
because Love is Love
and Love is all we need.
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 8:42 AM UTC
that feeling
the feeling of nothing
the way it takes over her body is like fire
she's staring down at her books
so much work to do
no motivation to do it
she gets yelled at for not working hard enough
for her grades slipping
even though
getting up in the morning is the most effort she puts in all day
the feeling worsens
she doesn't even want to listen to music
the thing that used to be her escape
is now pushed away
she sits in silence
for hours
her friends are messaging her
but there's no motivation to respond
she thinks about all the ways to make it go away
the numbness
it hurts
the yelling is getting harsh
she stays silent
she's looking down at her hands
the yelling doesn't effect her
because she doesn't feel anymore
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 4:20 PM UTC
Why do they lie?
Why do they give false hope?
When they say be yourself, why don't they mean it?
These lies we've been told as children
We believe them
They expect us to
Go against them and you're in trouble
These lies are messing with my head
They say you're selfish for doing what your want
A narcissist
Stubborn
Yes, I'm stubborn
I'm not selfish for wanting to wear what I want with pride
I'm not selfish for doing what I think is good for me
I'm not selfish for showing myself there is hope
I'm not selfish for being myself.
Jun 5, 2017
Jun 5, 2017 at 6:39 AM UTC
We're laying there together
Our hands holding onto each other
Fingers interlocked
Our unbeatable friendship
You move and I'm holding you now
It's funny because I'm smaller than you, but
Still good
We are always together
Not always physically, but in heart
Our necklaces we gave each other latched around our necks
Our four hour Skype calls
Our random snapchats we send
And when we're together
I'm happy
That void in my soul is filled
The smile on my face never leaves
My best friend
That's her
She makes me a better person
Yeah,
I wouldn't give her up for anything.
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 4:44 PM UTC
Hey Peter?
Where are you?
You promised me you'd be here!
I have my bags packed!
My teddy is scared of flying,
but I trust you won't let us fall!
Where are you?
You said you'd take me away to Neverland
Where I don't have to grow up
I've been waiting by my window for you
Please hurry up
You said you'd come....
....
Maybe they're right
I've been waiting for years
I still have hope you'll come, but
Maybe it's time to give up.
Give up the naive mind of a child
Give up the hopes and dreams you gave me
Maybe it's time to start falling instead of flying
To lock up those empty promises in a box and put it away
Face the reality of the real world...
....
.......
Goodbye, Peter.
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 4:06 PM UTC
I'm
terrified...
There's so many things that could go wrong
The exams, the grades
college, jobs
Life
Love, friends,
rich, poor
Terrified
Why can't I just stay young forever?
Why do we have to stop being naive children?
This life
Based on either athletic abilities or smarts
The society that pushes us to be what they want us to be
I'm
t e r r i f i e d
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 3:50 PM UTC
Do you have that person?
You know what person I’m talking about,
The person who is literally your motivation to get up everyday.
The person who will brighten your day when no one else can.
The person who would drop everything to help you.
The person that will make you try new things because they know you better than you do.
I have that person,
We all do,
Some of us haven’t found them yet,
But they’ll be there soon.
They are the only reason we stay alive.
May 12, 2017
May 12, 2017 at 8:30 AM UTC