Caught in a dream are how my memories feel.
Simultaneously vivid. Simultaneously murky. Infinitely disconnected.
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 11:49 AM UTC
It is in the deep of night that this truth lays bare
All that had distracted in the day now ensnared
In the thorny thickness of the weight of what’s real
The gravity of everything revealed.
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC
There are days I wish
My feet could firmly plant into the grounds of time
And furnish roots into its fertile soil of blessings eternally mine
And close my eyes and will away its current and its tide
That propels my physical body forward while my soul stays rooted inside
Closing the mind, turning it to stone
While basking in an abyss of yesteryears and days forgone
Until the day you open your eyes and see the blinding truth
There’s no winning time for it will always rob your youth
You may have fooled yourself briefly resisting time’s wordly charms
But immortalizing moments past will only do you harm
For when you awake from your stupor filled slumber
You will awake to days outnumbered
But by then it’s too late
Are you ready to step out on to your plank of fate?
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 11:24 AM UTC
You constructed paper walls
Of intricate structures infinitely tall
It’s probably the silliest thing of all
Don’t you know that paper will fall?
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 11:36 AM UTC
Could we have seen it coming.
A slow trainwreck running
Its course veering at the margins
Treading away from its origin.
Had we missed all the signs.
Or did we intentionally not see
What was the inevitable, what was to be.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 11:26 AM UTC
That’s what it felt like when we lost you
To the complex maze that became your truth.
A self-enlightened mind
Impermeable to light, to touch, to time.
An inner sanctum of make-believe so outrageous, so utterly unbelievable
Made of illogical truths only you sought achievable.
What led you to this I can only hazard a guess
Was it divorce, insecurity, a lifetime feeling like you were less.
Why has it come out now when time has already been the test
Was it the lack of medication, a lack of rest.
My brother you are wounded.
Your mind an open sore.
Rest your weary soul.
Torture and pain no more.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 10:56 AM UTC
Keeping you as my secret
As though the world unknowing
Is infinitely empowering
Like the Mona Lisa smiling
Her gaze perpetrating
Knowing thoughts discerning
Never disclosing yet ever imparting
Secrets untelling
Keeping you guessing and searching
For an inevitable unveiling
Yearning unabating
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 6:53 PM UTC
If you believe life has a way
Of telling you what it wants to say
Without having you ask or listen very hard
You may have unlocked its secrets, seen its cards
Because sometimes I find life will get what it wants you do to
But don’t get me wrong, it listens too
Wishes you may have wished hard and long
Has been distilled into its ear as a song
And sometimes its melody will playback to you
In ways you never expected it to
But hear it you will,
the lyrics now different but still
Fills your Soul
with the same familiar glow
And that’s when you know.
Life has a way
of telling you things that you hadn’t expected it to say
But things that are supposed to be at the end of the day.
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 8:14 PM UTC
As the days roll into nights
And the nights back into days
It’s just too easy to have time slip away.
But just as the rivers into the seas flow
For this we have but little control
And as we get older for some reason
Time seems to move faster
But that is a misperception you see
For it is when we have little left it becomes as clear as can be
Just as an hourglass drains
At first imperceptibly slow
Until the final sands of time begin to show
By then like a whirlpool
It seems to succumb to gravity’s pull
Where did the time go
Will we ever know.
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 7:31 AM UTC
Hallucinations
Or just creative imagination
Is it a fine line
Drawn in the sand of the sublime
What I see in my mind’s eye
Must be a reminder of simpler times
Before clinical disparity between the two
Was a widening gap that grew
Beyond the realms of just how do I do
But into a more critical territory
As to whether I would be a threat to society
A threat I am not that I am sure
But clinical trials have been introduced to the poor
Chemicals, medicines, therapy for the mind
I’m sure my condition has been treated many times
For big pharma they need reasons to be
Listed on the NYSE
Yearly targets they have and they must narrow my soul
And fit it on their platter of explainable goals
Boardmembers, shareholders, profiteers alike
They need my condition to reach dizzying heights
Well they have done it, they have achieved
A society of those who are aggrieved
To find out in despair
That what was once light is now nobody’s care
Except for those who’e pockets are lined
With people like me, who are apparently out of their mind
Jun 24, 2018
Jun 24, 2018 at 3:50 PM UTC