symbolic-beauty
36/F/Some Place Called Home
I use to write all the time. / It's been a while... / / I write what I feel as it flows through my mind, body and soul. / / I am not a professional poet but this helps me deal with life. / / It helps me make sense of things when my world is upside down.
I fell for the sweet nothings
I fell for the lies
I believed you loved me
And I have the tears I've cried
But you don't care how much you've hurt me
It's all apart of your game
You say you care but it's all just a mirage
Designed to **** vulnerability in
I was a fool for your lies
I wanted to believe so bad
But I had my wake up call
And now I am mad
I am vengeful
I am hurt
Because in all the lies
"I love you"
"I will never hurt you"
Is what cut the most
I'm just a fool...
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 7:32 PM UTC
Tired of the games
Tired of the run around
Tired of the lies
Tired of the empty promises
You say you want this but everything is screaming at me that you don't
I feel like such a fool to believe what comes out your mouth
Love is truly blind
I'm stumbling around in the dark trying to reach you but you keep pulling away
This is some sick game to you
Guess what
I'm done playing
My heart is tired
You've managed to beat it up and wreck it up
It's in pieces
Soon I'll get tired of being tired
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 4:22 PM UTC
As I lay here watching you sleep
Looking so peaceful
All my mind can think of is how beautiful you are
When we get together it's nothing but fire and ice
I am fire
You are ice
We make an intriguing pair
I fight for the right to bare my soul to you
You fight to keep all these walls up
Don't you get it?
I am the one that is patient enough to break down your insecurities
and melt away all your fears
Shield you from all the pain
Sacrifice it all just for you to understand how strong our bond is
The power to sooth your aching heart and chip away at the walls you've grown so comfortably accustome to
But how can I?
When all you do is ice me out
Jun 8, 2018
Jun 8, 2018 at 10:55 AM UTC
She looks so happy but little do you know that she's slowly dying inside
Frozen in a stance where she looks quite pleasant and delightful
Her eyes seem so joyful but if you really look closely you will probably notice that it's lost it's luster
No one will ever notice the pain behind her smile
There is a distinct beauty in her sorrow
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 8:39 PM UTC
Just for once...
I'd like you to see things from my point of view
Just for once...
Can you step outside of yourself and look at how you treat me with fresh eyes
Just for once...
I want you to ache like how I ache and long like how I long to touch you, feel you, breathe you
Just for once...
I want you to be selfless
Just for once...
I'd like you to not chew me up and spit me out like I'm some kind of disgusting taste in your mouth
Just for once...
I'd like to be a part of your life and feel like a priority in your life
How can you?
You weren't taught how to love
Apr 24, 2018
Apr 24, 2018 at 8:06 AM UTC
Sometimes I wish I never let you enter my twisted paradise
Yes, it was twisted and still is twisted to the core but it was mine
You've swindled your way into my lovely paradise parading around it like you own the place
Decieving me and all my glory
Nestling your lies and sweet nothing's in my head and my heart
Before, I knew how to handle my twisted paradise but now, it just handles me
Some days I want you there because you've managed to convince me that you are my world
Other days I despise the very being that is your soul
You take and take almost ******* my energy dry which most times I am happy to supply
My my my how love makes you do foolish things
But it's tragic when one loves the other more
Soon there will be nothing left and my twisted paradise will be nothing but a twisted beautiful disaster
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 9:06 AM UTC
You ever just sit in your quiet place and realize that it's not so quiet anymore?
Listening to the silence, it's so loud that it's almost deafening.
You ever realize that your "quiet place" just isn't the same anymore.
It's been tainted.
It use to be the place you go to find sanctuary.
The place you would go to find your peace but now not even that place is satisfactory anymore.
Feelings of sorrow and despair riddle your mind.
You've sunken into a place farther than the quiet place...
It's no longer safe there.
Alone in an ocean of thoughts you swim for dear life to find a new quiet place...
But all that's left is you watching yourself sink deeper and deeper...
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 4:30 PM UTC
Let me love the pain away...
Let me sooth that aching soul of yours
I see the parts of you that you hide away
The parts you think are too filthy for anyone to see
I hear the silent cries
I only want to dry your eyes
You can't see how beautiful you really are but I can...
I see the real you and it does not scare me away...
It intrigues me even more
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 11:09 PM UTC
She looks at you and see's all that you can be
So much beauty in his pain
She can see right into your soul
Eyes piercing deep into the depths of it all
She see's all your flaws and still loves every broken fragile piece of your frame
But she too is broken...
When you look in the mirror you see her reflection staring back at you
Reflections of your future
Though you both are broken
You both mesh together to make this torn beautiful symphony
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 10:09 AM UTC
To sleep is to be at peace
Close your eyes and drift off to a place where you feel safe
To escape everything is your biggest desire
For in slumber you feel nothing
Dream on
Dream deep
Dream forevermore
What lies a head when you close your eyes is better than what is left when you open them
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 7:10 PM UTC