Seems like you have more pain than you have problems
still trying to find yourself but you’ve lost it
Life has consumed every piece of you
Not one drop of hope in sight to cling on to
Now it’s just about surviving not how you survive
But who would have known it was possible to be alive yet so dead inside
So numb that you can’t feel the depth of love
So blind from the tears that you wear your insecurities on your sleeve
Even standing in the mirror you don’t see the person that I see
What you don’t know is that you are a trophy
And even in your dark times I think your sins are holy
Poor in spirit with a Heart full gold
Everything you went through is the most beautiful story never told
Don’t let words break you instead let it water you to help you grow
Because now It’s time to fall in love with your mind, body, and soul
Each flaw is so flawless even though you feel so incomplete
You may think you’re broken
but I don’t know
all I see is a masterpiece ...
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 10:31 PM UTC
It’s easy to smoke the pain away
But its hard when the pain comes back the next day
Everything just be so temporary
That’s why I make my body a sanctuary
I praise my thoughts
I’m in a close relationship with my mind
and today is our anniversary
Sometimes I be feeling so out of place
I be wanting you close to me but I’m so use to space
You could be perfect for me but I would still push you away
Don’t take this personally I’m just so use to pain
I hate this tension but tbh I just be wanting your attention
It just ***** cause my hearts not really attentive
I’m in a bad place mentally
Can you make love to me physically
And spiritually heal me inside
I swear I don’t hate you
I’m just inside my mind...
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 12:38 AM UTC
****** my mind
Waste my time
Pull me close
Push me away
Walk into my life
Hastily run away
Show me you are different
Convince me that you are the same
Repair my heart
Tear it apart
I look at the dark side
I expect disappointment
I see that true colors always hide
I fear attachment
I know words always contradicts actions
I have discovered that happiness only turns into sadness
Beautiful clouds hold rain
It's a tragedy waiting to happen
The only way to be saved is to save yourself
I can't be loved if I don't love myself
I never found who I am
So how did I lose myself?
How can something so shallow create depth ?
My mindset is mindless
I have reached my limit
Now I'm boundless
I know my worth
But somehow you made me feel worthless
I was full of energy
But somehow you made me feel drained
So why do I settle for less ?
It's because I'm use to pain ...
Apr 21, 2017
Apr 21, 2017 at 1:27 PM UTC
****** is ******
That's physical
Pain is pain
That's physical
But depression is corruption
That's mental
Mentally the pain destroys the mind
Emotionally the mind can't destroy the pain
If you haven't been broken you cant relate
It's a deep feeling that you can't explain
It drives you crazy
Then the thoughts become your passenger
And before you know it the old you is sitting in the backseat
Thoughts going 90 miles per hour
You become your darkest moment
Blending in with your shadow
Opinions start to define you
Overthinking becomes your drug
You are an addict
Lost in oblivion
Overdosing on what scares you the most
You tried facing your fears but ended up looking at yourself
you are your worst nightmare
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 1:57 PM UTC
She craved only attention
Looks can really ****
She overdosed on temptation
Just a broken soul convinced that her only match is pain
She falls apart
Each piece like a drop of rain
Rejecting love because she couldn't see its face
Mentally unstable because she's only been surrounded by inconsistency
Stumbling on false hopes
Hopelessly holding on to what she wish she had
Running through nobody's mind
Feeling utterly alone
She's lonely
Searching for just one dose of relief
She melts into her mixed emotions
Drowning in her tears
She's losing it
Finding nothing but her wasted time
I wanted to save her
But redemption was way too far
She's irredeemable...
Nov 26, 2016
Nov 26, 2016 at 1:10 AM UTC
Slowly fading away
You use to be my hideaway
Loneliness has become my best friend
As I disengage myself from myself
Only you can help me escape my misery
I want you
You hurt me yet I still want you
Thats the truth ...
But what if I told you I like the pain
Would you come back ?
Would you be my redeemer ?
Because right now i need you
I managed to cope with our different views
Silently you tore my broken heart
But somehow I still crave you
I adjusted myself to the pain
I became numb to all my senses
Senselessly I fell in love with you
It just hurts me even more because I'm so into you
So innocently into you
So emotionally into you
But loving you won't make you love me back...
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 10:38 PM UTC
Stuck in my own prison
My thoughts have enchained me
Bound to these feelings that I crave
Desiring the closure that I deserve
You took my shallow heart and gave it depth
Then you left
Making me believe that there's so much more to hold on to
Then letting go
Now I'm the only one holding on
Also holding on to all these mixed emotions
While you let go of everything we had
I'm starting to think we never had it
Please disconnect me from these memories
I need to breathe
I inhaled you
You exhaled me
I give you more
You give me nothing
Now I'm trapped in this lost and found
And you'll never come back to reclaim what you once had
Maybe it's because you never lost it
You let it go and found something new..
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 5:31 PM UTC
Crying out to you
Stretching my voice across the sky
Facing you and time
With my emotions inside out
Am I made of glass?
You don’t see me standing here?
You might as well be blind!
Here I am
Bending my thoughts
Absent mindlessly you have forgotten about me
Even though I’m present you don’t notice my presence
So mark me absent while I pretend to be happy
Everything is so visible
Yet you have made me invisible
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 2:49 PM UTC
To love and be loved
We all crave the same fiery temptation
To feel and to be numb
We contrast the beauty of love
To be broken and to be rebuilt
We have all seen an illusion of love
To smile and to cry
We fear love because sometimes love hurts
To drown and to float
We sink in despair, waiting to be rescued
To be confident and to be insecure
We weren’t born the same
Most of us hate ourselves
Wishing to be remade
Or maybe wishing to never exist at all
To be heard and to be ignored
We hold everything inside because everyone on the outside is too busy to listen
To be untruthful or to be truthful?
Truthfully. .
We are blinded by our fears
So far deep in our tears
We run from love because we never been chased by love
We accept less because we think that’s all we deserve
We reject love because we are tired of getting hurt
We feel like we are ugly because he or she is more appealing
We camouflage ourselves because we feel like society will judge us
We die inside because we never felt alive
We limit love because we never experienced it’s measures
To love and be loved ?
We will never understand it’s depth
Why?
Because first we have to love ourselves
Jan 28, 2016
Jan 28, 2016 at 8:20 AM UTC
She’s a walking beauty
I fell in love with her extravagance
Every moment is magnificent
Her innocence is my perfume
Just her presence alone lights up the whole room
So picture perfect
I’m zooming in for a better view
Cropping out the background
Centering my focus
Her mind is so open
Her thoughts are so outspoken
This girl is not me
This girl is who I want to be
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 7:59 AM UTC