maybe someday
but not tonight
you'll realize
how much
i mean to you
And when you do
it'll be too late
i
will
Be
gone
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 5:47 AM UTC
these three words
In my head
keep screaming
I love you
But i can't
see how
you'd be
Into someone
like me
Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 6:59 AM UTC
Mother and father
Why always bicker
About every little thing
Not everything is about money
we can still be happy
Only if we try
I'm tired of always
Waking up to yelling
And tons of complaining
I'm saying sorry to you father
For being such a failure
At everything
You can talk to me about plumbing
Or working and building
But I'll never change
And to you dearest mother
I won't forget last summer
When you called me gay
I cried you a river
But you never bothered
To hear me out
We were in a Starbucks
And that was the moment
I died inside
You told me shut up
While you left me crying
Just so you won't
Seem like a bad parent in public
Then when you found out
I harmed myself you
Spread the word
Now my whole family
Keeps their eyes on me
Because they think I've planted
A ****** tree
Then to my sister
I still remember
All of my birthdays
When you left my crying
By always blaming
Me for all our problems
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
That I'm such a burden
But I won't cry
Anymore
I'm done trying to please
Everybody I see
It's just not me
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 10:38 AM UTC
I'm not the poet who uses sophisticated language
I'm not the kid my parents would be proud of
I'm not the student the teacher praises
I'm not the friend who people turn to
I'm not anyone's best friend
I'm not anyone's favorite
I'm not anyone's first choice
I'm not even my own believer
I want to fix my life
Yet I want to end it
I want to be better
Yet I'm tired of trying
What is wrong with me?
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 9:30 PM UTC
Bring me back to the days
When sharpeners were just for pencils
Bring me back to the times
When dieting was just a choice
Bring me back to the place
Where the warmth could still reach me
Bring me back to the person
Who not once had teased me
Bring me back to the age
When milk was my whiskey
Bring me back to the past
When I only pretended to smoke
I guess it's too late
To bring me back to life
I guess it's too late
To pull out the knife
All I want now
Is for you to remember
And look back a the moments
When you made me suffer
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 9:41 AM UTC
Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall;
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Didn't want to put Humpty together again.
Humpty Dumpty why so pale?
Is it because you're such a fail?
Humpty Dumpty what is that?
Is that a **** or are you just fat?
Humpty Dumpty your lips are so red!
Is it because your baby is dead?
Oh, Humpty Dumpty you make me laugh
Because your body looks like a full grown calf.
Humpty Dumpty what is your gender?
You look like a boy and a girl mixed in a blender.
Humpty Dumpty you're such a *****
You're not even close to being rich.
Humpty Dumpty next time you fall,
Please don't ever forget to call.
Humpty Dumpty I'll be there in behalf
of everyone to laugh!
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 9:39 AM UTC
It's 2 in the morning
And I'm triggered already
My body is aching
While I stop myself from crying
It's 2 in the morning
And my stomach is grumbling
*I want blood, guts, cookies and cakes
I'm gonna puke them anyway*
It's 2 in the morning
And I lie awake alone
With no one to hug me
Or tell me I matter
*It's 2 in the morning *
And I'm starting to recall
Every single name I've been called
Just to push me off the ledge
It's 2 in the morning
And I'm painting with a twist
The twist is the fact
That my canvas is my wrist
It's 2 in the morning
And I've written my last words
I'm caught in the loop of paradise
As I tip the chair to fall off
It's 3 in the morning
And my blood is dripping
My parents are crying
While I died smiling
They open up the letter
And they wept as the read:
*Dearest cruelest world,
Look at what you've done
You've crushed my fragile heart
And please don't tell me I'm being selfish
Because everyone wanted me dead
Sure my parents are mournful
But it's because of obligation
Not love
My siblings won't mind
Since they'll just take my possessions
And I'm sure my friends won't bother
Since they've all left me
So at the end of the day
I've done this for I pitied
What could have happened
If I continue to let them hurt me*
Feb 12, 2014
Feb 12, 2014 at 6:55 AM UTC
Stop acting like you're perfect
We can all see your flaws
Stop acting like you're perfect
And stop sharpening your claws
If it's a cat fight you want
Then it's a cat fight you'll get
You're the **needle up my ***
And you BLOW UP MY HEAD
You think you're such a pro
But really you're just a ***
You think you're so smart
I think you're a ***** WITHOUT A HEART**
I'm sick and tired of all of your lies
So do us all a favor and PLEASE GO DIE
Because frankly **WE DON'T GIVE A ****
So stay out of my way and go **** A ****
Feb 11, 2014
Feb 11, 2014 at 6:40 AM UTC
It's just a *tease
*
It's just a joke
I'm sure her *wrists
*
Can take much more
For every word
that ached her heart
was written in red
within her skin
'Twas just the *cat
*
'Twas just the *diet
*
'Twas just the pills
That kept her silent
Help her soul
Her soul is fine
But save her *perception
*
From the false veracities
A *deluge of razors
*
Raid in mind
*
"I'm fat , naive and eccentric"*
Is what's behind
So the purging came
Like knights in gory battle
Relentlessly ravaging
Shattering the girl from the *inside
*
And all she ever felt
Was the absurdity
Of the gory knights
Ready to slit the thread of life
Blinded by the agonizing relief
She lost her mind to perfection
And ‘twas only then when
*She whimpered in bitter regret
*
Because It was just your *tease
*
And It was just your *joke
*
That emboldened the knights
to make her think happiness is just a hoax
Jan 29, 2014
Jan 29, 2014 at 6:08 AM UTC
It's just a tease
It's just a joke
I'm sure that she
Can take much more
'Twas just the cat
'Twas just the diet
'Twas just the meds
That kept her quiet
Help her soul
Her soul is fine
But save her mind
From what's behind
Thunderstorms and razors
Linger in mind
"I'm fat , stupid and weird"
Is what's behind
So the purging came
Like a knight in shining armor
And the freeing of pain
Came running through her veins
And all she ever needed
From all of these madnesses
Was the thought of silence
Being only a cut away
Because It was just your tease
And It was just your joke
That made her think
Happiness is just a hoax
Jan 25, 2014
Jan 25, 2014 at 10:28 AM UTC