your little bones could not outlast
the fevered fire that burned too fast
you died curled up against my thigh
for hours i didn’t know how to cry
you weren’t a god, you weren’t a guide
only fur, and warmth, and love inside
no words to give, no voice to lend
but still, you were my sweetest friend
i shared my wins in quiet light
you wagged your tail just right
you didn’t speak, but still you knew
my joy was yours, and yours was true
now some days pass without your name
and guilt arrives like quiet flame
but from above you lay upon my chest
a pitter-patter, small and blessed
you don’t stay long—you never do
you know to leave before i lose me too
like bubbles born in tender skies
you rise, you shine, then softly die
a bubble’s life is short and sweet
but still too long until we meet.
so when i cross that final line
i’ll bring you home one last time
you’ll squeal and jump into my lap
tucked in tight, ready for your nap
next time though, you’ll be here to stay
i know i’ll have bubble back some day
Jun 28, 2025
Jun 28, 2025 at 6:17 AM UTC
my bones miss structure
even if it’s borrowed
a timetable stitched from deadlines
just enough to tie me to something
outside my own spiraling
now, all i have is time
feral and barefoot
spilling into corners
where potential goes to wilt
too much of my life for nobody to hold
no duties to tether me
no rush, no reason
just the sound of myself growing louder
my hands itch for anything but survival
let me bleed for burden and responsibility
instead of rotting in my own brain
let me fall apart for someone else
still, i need to stay alive
to wrap the babies in my warmth
to meet the mothers
between screams and surrender
so they’ll finally feel safe with me
for now, i stare at the scars on my wrist
and think of all the pain i’ll carry differently
when it’s not just my own
but from holding too much of another life
and never letting it slip away
the lives i hope to live long enough to see
so when they breathe for the first time
i’ll know how to do it too
Jun 25, 2025
Jun 25, 2025 at 12:42 AM UTC
i want to be held
and rocked like i was wanted from the start
with arms that hush the noise
and cradle my aching heart
i want the skin of your hand
to graze my cheek so light
in the way that says, “you’re my baby girl,”
and makes the world feel right
i want to rest my head in your lap
and feel you hum a tune
like safety has a quiet sound
that softens up the room
this isn’t romantic
this is what should’ve been mine
what most people have never had to grieve
because they’ve had it the whole time
Jun 25, 2025
Jun 25, 2025 at 12:41 AM UTC
A promise made, a vow—unbelievably grand
Until tanks and footsteps disturb the land
Handshakes firm, papers signed
Yet missiles and bullets still lag behind
Peace is non-transferable, war is our own,
Limited liability for the lives that we've blown
For threat prevention, we may reinforce,
Bombs will drop without a hint of remorse
When the world begins to ask
We say we honored it, our assured task
A truce! A pause! A peaceful day!
We’ll bomb them all by the end of May
We reserve the right to reverse the ceasefire
As bodies fall to the chorus of our choir
Diplomacy’s a practiced art—
Where ceasefires end before they start
Feb 24, 2025
Feb 24, 2025 at 8:48 AM UTC
Eyes glued to my unlaced shoes,
Fingers picking at the skin I lose.
Friendly chatter pierces and flows,
Through the walls where my silence grows.
I think to myself — why couldn’t I be normal?
As I step out, a thousand glares pierce through me,
Seeping into my soul, my mind, my very being.
Screeching rejection and denial of my existence,
All too familiar, yet I shiver in unwilling perseverance.
I think to myself — why couldn’t I be normal?
My feet tap on the linoleum floor,
Eyes adjusting to lights that roar.
Fists clench tight at sudden sounds,
Hair ripped out as overstimulation surrounds.
People think to themselves — why couldn’t she just be normal?
A shift in routine rewires my brain,
Lingering fears of my portrayal as disdain.
Just another “quirk” to break a beloved bond,
Maybe I’ll hide who I am so we can move on.
I think to myself — maybe I’ll try to be normal
The longer I mask, the more I ache,
From every movement I dread to fake.
It doesn’t matter how I feel,
I work, I serve, to turn the wheel.
I think to myself — how do I even be normal?
Feb 24, 2025
Feb 24, 2025 at 1:13 AM UTC