I am not sure of my emotions.
They are running rampage in my head,
and my chest feels constricted,
as if it is about to burst at any given second.
I am not sure if I am sad, angry, or maybe depressed.
I am mostly unsure as to why I am feeling such conflicted emotions.
Am I sad because if we cross paths ever again
that there will not be hugs be given, or tears shed?
Am I angry at what I see on how you are living your life?
Can I even describe it in a single word?
Imprudent?
Am I depressed because I see you are completely lost
and I can't do a single thing?
Lord knows I've tried.
I am confused.
Why?
Why do you hurt me in this way?
But you do not know how much this hurts me.
So how could I blame you?
But how I can not blame myself for not thinking?
If I were to have just spoke up.
I knew.
I knew all along.
We were always in the wrong,
But we never did anything about it.
I never did.
You did not want to.
I want to hate you.
After seeing the way you speak,
It makes me physically sick,
I have never seen so much disrespect and filth infiltrate your blood,
and now it lives in your veins.
I never thought I could despise you, or rather your current personality.
You are not the same person that you used to be.
Or maybe I was just too blind to see you for who you really were.
I regret ever inviting you into my life.
Feb 14, 2016
Feb 14, 2016 at 7:41 AM UTC
His laughter, his smiles,
The sound of his voice,
All make my chest ache with a sweet pain.
He's someone I can't live without.
He loves with a passion and devotion
That takes my breath away.
I can't be jealous.
He isn't mine.
But oh, how i wish he was.
Dec 31, 2015
Dec 31, 2015 at 1:54 AM UTC
After everything has been said and done
Believe when I say the feelings aren't gone
Clinging away from what we had still brings the same pain
****** memories of us will stay and I'm the one to blame.
Estranged is a really deep and tragic word
Far from the days when I'm the one you adored
Gone are what we wanted to be months ago
How could you be so far away? You're so high yet I'm so low.
I never imagined us this way
Just give me a chance and tell me you'll stay
Kiss me again until it feels right
Love me and hold me and don't say goodnight.
My brokenness is slowly killing me
Night time and daytime I cry while you sleep
Over and over it feels just the same
Perhaps what I'm feeling can never be tamed.
Questions unanswered and feelings unsaid
Reality sinks in and bothers my head
Suddenly I thought maybe you're not worthwhile
Though it may hurt right now, I'll just give it some time.
Unlove you and take back the word that I bid
Vows that we made, mistakes that we did
Were all the right things that now feels so wrong
X lover, someone I used to know for so long.
You're gone and you left me with all the price to pay
Zoneless memories of us shall fade away.
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 8:22 AM UTC
I met someone who I thought to be honest
I met someone who I thought to be kind
I met someone who I thought I could be with
I met someone who tricked me the whole time
I can't handle the lies
I can't handle the games
I can't handle your disguise
I can't handle you
I shouldn't have to put myself through that
I shouldn't be cheated on
I shouldn't be lied to
I shouldn't have wasted my time
Aug 28, 2015
Aug 28, 2015 at 6:00 AM UTC
I was lost and felt alone
I needed and wanted more
I was tired of the life I was living for
I wanted something to live for
Then you came into my life
Opened my eyes to things I never knew
Turned me into the person I am
But there was more work for you to do
You then tore me apart
Ripped me to shreds
You hurt and broke me
With what you did and said
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 11:28 AM UTC