night falls like eyelids
on the brink of sleep—
I lay on ***** sheets,
no fault but my own
there are 432 tiles
in my shower stall
I count them everyday,
twice a day,
three times,
four if it’s real bad
after the fith time there
is no more counting,
or singing, or crying,
just being.
water falls off my body,
into the drain,
and i go with it.
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 2:04 AM UTC
The scars on my wrist have faded but the intent remains the same, in theory, not in practice. I bury my body in handfuls of dirt that was never good for growing, that would never sustain life.
You always ask if I'm okay but it's earth that crumbles past my lips instead of words so I shake my head and climb out of my grave as if it never even happened, and still you remain under my nails, in every bump and bend of my body.
I showered for three hours yesterday, my wrinkled fingers wiped steam from the mirror to reveal a dirt stained face that will never be clean of you.
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 10:15 AM UTC
and tonight i fell in love with the world
only after reaching my hand
inside my chest to find that
yes indeed!
my heart still beat,
and was never idle, not stuck
in one place like it most often is
to be living, rather than existing
is to be, for lack of a better term, happy
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 10:04 AM UTC
I've rewritten this five times
because it's so hard to put into words
so wrong to put to paper
you always knew what i was thinking
and i'm sure you still do
i'm not religious but i believe in the sun
and the moon
and that the stars aligned
to bring us together
and who is to say that we shouldn't be?
Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 12:01 PM UTC
you always had a way with words,
always knew when to quiver your voice or heighten your pitch to get me to fold in half
crooked seams
what horrid things you'd never say but didn't have to
cause that,
that was all in your face
your eyes
the way you'd never say my name
only ever in dark fields
or dim rooms,
always the next town over
and I always heard that secrets can't be kept
but you kept me in your pocket,
folded up to occupy the least amount of space
you so generously gave to me.
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 8:49 PM UTC
Fate climbs trees while everyone sleeps at night but you;
She slips through the branches towards the star dusted sky;
Not a hair out of place or a scratch on her skin,
a nocturnal creature made to the likeness of the moon—
There'll always be a yesterday, but you remind me of tomorrow.
Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 12:10 PM UTC
You love me like twitchy fingers love pulling the trigger,
Not at all, and then all at once;
You replaced arrows with bullets,
And instead of filling with love, my heart poured out blood
You love me like tear gas loves open eyes,
To wish me blind to the things you've done;
You didn't think, you never do think
Can your conscious be clear if you don't have one?
You loved me like metal loves a microwave,
To make it spark and set fire;
Carelessness is antonymous with admiration,
And you always did admire destruction
Dec 1, 2016
Dec 1, 2016 at 10:36 AM UTC
I like boys that smoke ****
and drink mountain dew,
that always have a girl or two
in the back pocket of their jeans.
Boys like you.
Boys I can't have,
with soft hands that know where to touch and how to make my heart seize
when they say my name
oh god when he says my name
I can't take it,
it's too much.
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 1:59 AM UTC
It was like living in the sandy bay The salty air that breezed across my face We ran and played and danced the night away My shoes were blue and dress made out of lace
The palms swayed in the wind leaves big and green As did our hips when you would dance with me You were my king and I your loving queen We kissed our lips and sank beneath the sea
We swam and swam beneath the ocean blue The water getting darker with each stroke I grabbed your hand so I would not lose you But soon enough our sole connection broke
It ended just as soon as it had started It ended with me crushed and broken hearted.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 10:54 PM UTC
*I'll never forget the day I told you I loved you and you didn't return the favour
It still haunts my dreams, yet I bet I never cross your mind*
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 11:09 PM UTC