super-susi - Hello Poetry

I can see your tiny bloodshot eyes, Slowly looking away From my arrogant angry stare. Turning back to laugh with your friends, Away from the one Who always cared. And my own eyes, Start to cry, Tears of loneliness, Of longing, Of spite, Your eyes are back on me, Simply asking “Why”.

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Feb 21, 2014

Feb 21, 2014 at 4:28 PM UTC

Looks

I can see your tiny bloodshot eyes, Slowly looking away From my arrogant angry stare. Turning back to laugh with your friends, Away from the one Who always cared. And my own eyes, Start to cry, Tears of loneliness, Of longing, Of spite, Your eyes are back on me, Simply asking “Why”.

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Why me? Everyone else goes round, Doing whatever they like. All their success is found, They managed every strike. Yes, they can be happy, Dance around with joy, While in the corner there is me, Turned down by every boy. Yes, just let this stupid world, Rejoice and pretend it´s fine, While one person lies forgotten: Me with this task of mine. *Don´t forget that you´ll be fine, Be happy with your task. For someday you will save the world, For what more could you ask? You were the one who was trusted With this important job, You will save so many lives, So many hearts will throb.* But why the heck should I do this? Can it not be someone else? I can not bear this much pressure, Can not do it by myself. *Yes, you can and yes, you will. You are a girl so strong. Prove you strength and do it now, From now it won´t be long.* How do I know That freedom will ring? Did you ever promise Me anything? Will I be stuck forever On the path of confusion and gloom? Is there any way to get away, Will happiness come soon? *Oh of course my darling, Just have faith and trust. Do not think for a moment, That your vision will bust.* Is this not all simply me, Fighting with myself? This is not some heroic task, The world doesn´t need my help. Standing up against ideas, I formed to protect me, God, and I never realized That I can be whoever I want to be. I am free to change my mind, My view are mine to form I don´t need excuses, To be who I want to be.

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Aug 1, 2013

Aug 1, 2013 at 3:44 PM UTC

Me

Why me? Everyone else goes round, Doing whatever they like. All their success is found, They managed every strike. Yes, they can be happy, Dance around with joy, While in the corner there is me, Turned down by every boy. Yes, just let this stupid world, Rejoice and pretend it´s fine, While one person lies forgotten: Me with this task of mine. *Don´t forget that you´ll be fine, Be happy with your task. For someday you will save the world, For what more could you ask? You were the one who was trusted With this important job, You will save so many lives, So many hearts will throb.* But why the heck should I do this? Can it not be someone else? I can not bear this much pressure, Can not do it by myself. *Yes, you can and yes, you will. You are a girl so strong. Prove you strength and do it now, From now it won´t be long.* How do I know That freedom will ring? Did you ever promise Me anything? Will I be stuck forever On the path of confusion and gloom? Is there any way to get away, Will happiness come soon? *Oh of course my darling, Just have faith and trust. Do not think for a moment, That your vision will bust.* Is this not all simply me, Fighting with myself? This is not some heroic task, The world doesn´t need my help. Standing up against ideas, I formed to protect me, God, and I never realized That I can be whoever I want to be. I am free to change my mind, My view are mine to form I don´t need excuses, To be who I want to be.

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Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you. Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. I think of woolly sheep Jumping over a fence In a beautiful meadow I count them in my head. But the fence keeps growing higher There are more and more sheep The whole meadow keeps twisting Why is my head doing this? 67, 58, 89, 200, 201, 102, 103, 104… It´s just not working. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. Because my head is spinning I´m too scared to fall asleep. I can´t risk relaxing my mind Because then the nightmares will speak. I get them every night I don´t know when they´ll stop. I don´t know why they keep coming I don´t know what they want. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. My mind finally starts wandering To the land of far away. And the dreams come inevitably To steal the night away. My house is exploding There´s fire everywhere. I run around trying to get out As sparks burn off my hair. I´m walking around the city My family with me. When fire shoots up from the ground I run, but fire is all I can see. I´m in a new neighbourhood Looking for everyone. But then I start hearing whispers "Now my work is done". It´s my 18th birthday And my mum´s made me a cake. But when I pull the lid off The plate is filled with snakes. I´m walking around the house When I see my mum. I try to tell her something, but my tongue has gone numb. We´re running away to a far-off land. Everywhere there is snow When suddenly a train comes. And I have nowhere to go. I can not drive Yet I´m in a car. It´s going forward And I fall on my scar. Soon the scream escapes me As it does every night I can not bear this any more I´m too weak for this fight. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you. Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. I imagine myself on a meadow The way my mother told me to. With flowers growing all over it Lilies and roses too. Soon enough, I fall asleep. My eyes are closed, My breathing deep. But there they are again Those films of dread Lions are chasing me And I am dead. My cat has gone away Never to come back. I am lying on the floor bleeding For I ran over a train track. A meteor falls on my house Exploding all the lighting. The pages of The Book of Death are turning My name in it in blood red writing. There is a corpse right in front of me I´m holding a knife in my hand. I am sitting in a wheelchair And I can not stand. The world is dead, I´m the only one there. All my family has gone elsewhere. Lizards and toads are falling from the sky I´m on stage and my throat has gone dry. My best friend has turned into a doll I´m being chased by a hideous troll. I look in my mirror, then I drop dead. I suddenly remember what an old man once said. I thrash and scream All through the night. I kick and moan I toss and fight. I shout and turn I cry and gape. I want to get away But I can´t escape.

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Mar 13, 2013

Mar 13, 2013 at 5:02 PM UTC

Nightmares

Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you. Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. I think of woolly sheep Jumping over a fence In a beautiful meadow I count them in my head. But the fence keeps growing higher There are more and more sheep The whole meadow keeps twisting Why is my head doing this? 67, 58, 89, 200, 201, 102, 103, 104… It´s just not working. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. Because my head is spinning I´m too scared to fall asleep. I can´t risk relaxing my mind Because then the nightmares will speak. I get them every night I don´t know when they´ll stop. I don´t know why they keep coming I don´t know what they want. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. My mind finally starts wandering To the land of far away. And the dreams come inevitably To steal the night away. My house is exploding There´s fire everywhere. I run around trying to get out As sparks burn off my hair. I´m walking around the city My family with me. When fire shoots up from the ground I run, but fire is all I can see. I´m in a new neighbourhood Looking for everyone. But then I start hearing whispers "Now my work is done". It´s my 18th birthday And my mum´s made me a cake. But when I pull the lid off The plate is filled with snakes. I´m walking around the house When I see my mum. I try to tell her something, but my tongue has gone numb. We´re running away to a far-off land. Everywhere there is snow When suddenly a train comes. And I have nowhere to go. I can not drive Yet I´m in a car. It´s going forward And I fall on my scar. Soon the scream escapes me As it does every night I can not bear this any more I´m too weak for this fight. Breathe in. Breathe out. In and out. In. Out. It´s okay Calm down Go to sleep Curl up in bed. Take your blanket And wrap it around you. Rest your tired head on the soft pillow And just relax. But I can´t. I imagine myself on a meadow The way my mother told me to. With flowers growing all over it Lilies and roses too. Soon enough, I fall asleep. My eyes are closed, My breathing deep. But there they are again Those films of dread Lions are chasing me And I am dead. My cat has gone away Never to come back. I am lying on the floor bleeding For I ran over a train track. A meteor falls on my house Exploding all the lighting. The pages of The Book of Death are turning My name in it in blood red writing. There is a corpse right in front of me I´m holding a knife in my hand. I am sitting in a wheelchair And I can not stand. The world is dead, I´m the only one there. All my family has gone elsewhere. Lizards and toads are falling from the sky I´m on stage and my throat has gone dry. My best friend has turned into a doll I´m being chased by a hideous troll. I look in my mirror, then I drop dead. I suddenly remember what an old man once said. I thrash and scream All through the night. I kick and moan I toss and fight. I shout and turn I cry and gape. I want to get away But I can´t escape.

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"Say goodbye to everyone and you´re free to go!” The teacher calls As she rushes forward, Hugs the other teachers, Almost cries. We let out An exasperated sigh. That´s her eccentric self, We know that we´ll never be like that. Standing rooted on the spot, Ignoring the others, Like always. And the other teacher comes Right up to us. “You don´t feel like saying goodbye, do you?” And as much as we don´t want to admit it, We´re all trying hard not to cry. And nothing in the world seems any worse Than having to say goodbye. Soon the others Come up to us, Last-minute remarks are exchanged. “I love your hair!” “How did you make your nails look like that?” “Do you know what your name means in our language?” And we all realize, That we´ll never see each other again. And we talk more now, Than we ever have before. “You love The Hunger Games too?” “Wait…you actually liked it at our school?” “How do you say “no” in your language?” Ice-breakers couldn´t break the ice, But now it has fully melted. Gone away. Just as they are going to. Everyone hugs, As we realize that we have to say goodbye. “Give me your phone number!” “Have you got Facebook?” “We´ll miss you!” And when we get home, We accept friend requests, Look through old photos, Try to re-live every memory. Wishing we could have realized the truth sooner. We never have enough time, It´s best to start as soon as you can. We shouldn´t have ignored them Up until the last moment. Regrets are Flying through the air. As we all settle down, And wish for what we hadn´t done.

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Mar 10, 2013

Mar 10, 2013 at 6:05 PM UTC

Saying Goodbye Forever

"Say goodbye to everyone and you´re free to go!” The teacher calls As she rushes forward, Hugs the other teachers, Almost cries. We let out An exasperated sigh. That´s her eccentric self, We know that we´ll never be like that. Standing rooted on the spot, Ignoring the others, Like always. And the other teacher comes Right up to us. “You don´t feel like saying goodbye, do you?” And as much as we don´t want to admit it, We´re all trying hard not to cry. And nothing in the world seems any worse Than having to say goodbye. Soon the others Come up to us, Last-minute remarks are exchanged. “I love your hair!” “How did you make your nails look like that?” “Do you know what your name means in our language?” And we all realize, That we´ll never see each other again. And we talk more now, Than we ever have before. “You love The Hunger Games too?” “Wait…you actually liked it at our school?” “How do you say “no” in your language?” Ice-breakers couldn´t break the ice, But now it has fully melted. Gone away. Just as they are going to. Everyone hugs, As we realize that we have to say goodbye. “Give me your phone number!” “Have you got Facebook?” “We´ll miss you!” And when we get home, We accept friend requests, Look through old photos, Try to re-live every memory. Wishing we could have realized the truth sooner. We never have enough time, It´s best to start as soon as you can. We shouldn´t have ignored them Up until the last moment. Regrets are Flying through the air. As we all settle down, And wish for what we hadn´t done.

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"YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!“ That scream That pierces the peace of the household. That smile That hasn´t been seen for months. That glint in your eyes That you thought you had lost forever. Now it´s all back! That feeling of excitement That´s so strong that it hurts. The way your heart is jumping up and down And it feels like it will never stop. You jump up And start running round the room Because it just feels like the right thing to do. Your whole family runs in Asking what the matter is And you just make up a lie Something you haven´t had the strength to do for ages. When your voice is gone And your legs start aching, You settle down and just start writing: Frantically typing in your feelings. A few hours ago you were crying, But now the dark days are gone. Now everything is solved. Now you can be happy.

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Mar 10, 2013

Mar 10, 2013 at 5:55 PM UTC

It ́s Back

"YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!“ That scream That pierces the peace of the household. That smile That hasn´t been seen for months. That glint in your eyes That you thought you had lost forever. Now it´s all back! That feeling of excitement That´s so strong that it hurts. The way your heart is jumping up and down And it feels like it will never stop. You jump up And start running round the room Because it just feels like the right thing to do. Your whole family runs in Asking what the matter is And you just make up a lie Something you haven´t had the strength to do for ages. When your voice is gone And your legs start aching, You settle down and just start writing: Frantically typing in your feelings. A few hours ago you were crying, But now the dark days are gone. Now everything is solved. Now you can be happy.

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