Eyes closed
Inhale deeply
Filled with the scent of you
Exhale slowly
Unwilling to loose
The scent of you
May 20, 2017
May 20, 2017 at 3:07 AM UTC
I am bare
Just skin against skin
Raw and beautiful
So soft and smooth
And easily scared
Be careful with this skin
It's wrapped around my thoughts
Like a turtle's shell
My heart is hidden beneath
Just in knifes reach
It bleeds and bleeds
Blood thick and bright
My skin is soft
Yet also scared
From careless love
Of a time past
The scars are faded
Faded scars can take a lifetime
A lifetime of pain
Of healing
To finally fade away into the background
Barely noticed
So be careful with this skin
Skin I'll let you caress
Caress it slowly
Gently
Lovingly
My skin knows all too well
A fast hand
The sting of a blade
And the wet sticky feel
Of blood
It's time this skin knows a caress
The warmth of a hug
The tenderness of love
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 4:09 PM UTC
February second
The day beckons
Cries out
A joyful cheer
Older by the year
Marvelously so
Your day to glow
Wishing you the best
That you'll be blessed
With zest
And without stress
Nor worry
Soak up the day
Be spoiled
And let us say
Happy birthday
I love you so
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 6:26 PM UTC
Release the stress
Let go
Let yourself breath
Just be
Flow with Mother Nature
Melt into the songbirds' echo
Blend with the ancient trees
Oh so high
Mix with the tide
The push the pull
Of life
That's how it's meant to be
For you
To just be
Let go
Feel the sweet release
Of the self doubt processing your happiness
Stealing your peace of mind
And just be
Be okay with who you are
Fly to you
Accept yourself with open arms
And just be
Be one with everything
Be apart from nothing
Let yourself drift
Feel everything around you
Just be
Jan 16, 2017
Jan 16, 2017 at 7:44 PM UTC
Breath
Breath in
Breath out
That's all I can do right now
When my heart is torn
In two
No words left
Nothing to mend
This brokenness inside
Breath
Breath in
Breath out
Fake a smile
Keep from crying
All the while dying inside
Wishing
Praying
It'll all be okay
But knowing it won't
Craving
Needing
His touch
Wanting to feel the warmth
He brings in my soul
Breath
Breath in
Breath out
Only thing to do
When you have nothing
Left
Oct 7, 2016
Oct 7, 2016 at 7:16 PM UTC
The perfect fit
Between two people
The worst time
Yet
A love so true
Meant to be
But must say goodbye
Wanting to rewind
To make it all right
You're everything
I dreamed
Oh why
Must you
Be my true love
When it can't work?
Oct 7, 2016
Oct 7, 2016 at 7:11 PM UTC
Heart beats
It races
Adrenaline
Strong and sweet
Courses through me
Wind howls
Screams at me
"You wouldn't
"You couldn't
"You're not brave enough"
Laughter
Squeezes out my throat
"Watch me"
I shout as I
Fall
Wind through my hair
Bubbling laughter
See?
I did it
I float
As the parachute
Comes out
I just proved
That I am
Brave
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 10:08 AM UTC
I'm haunted
Not with ghosts
But with a disease
You would never guess
By looking at me
I seem normal
But I have a secrete
A dark
Dangerous
Secrete
That keeps me up at night
A shrink
Once a week
A doctor
Once a month
Nothing helps
At least not yet
Food
Fattening food
Scares me
Eating is hard
I hate it
Hate being
Haunted
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 10:03 AM UTC
I cry
Sob
Loud
Ugly
Sobs
As I watch
My beautiful
Bald baby boy
Slowly
Painfully
Take his last
Breath
Who said death was peaceful?
They were wrong
It's painful
Pain that will never
End
Time does not
Heal all wounds
Not when you watch
Your son
Die
All hope is lost
Cancer stole my
Beautiful blue-eyed son
From his mother
From me
Don't say it's okay
Because it's not
It never will be
So don't expect me
To move on
Like I never had
A son
A beautiful son
A bright son
I kiss his lips
Lips now blue
From death
One last time
I may have reached
My breaking point
But I'll keep fighting
Fighting for
Other kids
That still have a chance
Chance to live
Live like my son
Never did
Live a life
Without
Cancer
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 9:58 AM UTC
Abandoned
Left to fend
Not knowing a thing
Expected to survive
Adrift
In a sea of forgottenness
In a blanket of misery
Hungry
Afraid
No where to go
No one to run to
Knowing deep down
I won't survive
Dread
Roaring in my soul
Fear
Clouding my thoughts
Emotions raging
Going insane
From the uncertainness
And abandonment
Feeling reality's sharp sting
Finally realizing for the first time
He used me
****** me dry
Like a ravenous vampire
Drank every last drop
Until all that's left
Is a shell of
Myself
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 9:49 AM UTC