Ha! Here I am
still
Reflecting upon my efforts to contend
Mending broken pieces
in my very own fence
Finding myself
with hope
even after all of those bends
I am still Going
Where(?) I shall discover all in due time
Now, realizing
this is Prime
I mustn't race
I am still surely Going
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 4:28 AM UTC
Where I lived was a dead end street
At the end there was a stream
It ran quietly into the River of Hudson
There were floods that would bring the river to my door step
Mud and litter would float and settle
In the winter we would climb across the stream
We would climb the cliffs looking over the river
Drinking and smoking, trespassing on land that wasn't ours
but it was
it is still mine
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 8:47 PM UTC
You can shake me
Knock me around
Make your sour faces at me
Throw your hatred and your doubt at me
But I won't budge
I won't stop what I'm doing to acknowledge
your disapproval
isn't mine
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 8:41 PM UTC
What can I do to change this?
I'm going to bed.. to peaceful dreaming
Bliss
Not needing answers
Receiving funny puzzles of people and scenario
I wake up to a blaring stereo
An Alarm
Increasingly louder
Oh! It was only a dream that I found all of my missing pieces
and was
forever ..
Content
Okay,..I'm going to bed
I'm waking up
I'm going back to bed
I'm staying up this time!!
Why can't I wake up with all of these puzzles solved
Is this a never ending cycle.. do we even get to rest when we're dead?
Do we just circle the afterlife looking for more answers...
I'm staying up.. I'll sleep when I'm dead
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 6:36 AM UTC
What I tell you is a lie
I tell you things to get a rise
When I see the way you sway
I smile and just walk away
I start a fight to watch you boil
you steam and flinch and shake with toil
I don't know what else I could possibly do
that'd be as fun as
picking on you
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 6:30 AM UTC
She gazed, staring into her own pupils..
fixing her brows
smoothing those lines beside her widening closed grin
Fixating heavily on skin disregarding what lie beneath
A facade of certainty in worth or power
False knowledge of what the importance weighed
A mirror showing to her an image
Familiarity in shapes & shades
A contentment enrobed her shoulders
As she twitched and straightened her posture
The women glared
..The men looked on
Watching her pull hair behind one ear and then free it again
Discomforted Ticks unraveling
A soft glimmer in her eye pinning back all tell
This is what I see, and this is what I'll show..
In a moment she perceived to be alone
She was safe with her own reflection
In her own head space but still seen
Onlookers peering, counting the moments of doubt
Clocking the paces and plotting the course in directions
A two sided mirror ..with many reflections
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 6:20 AM UTC
I want to be alone in that song
.........
You carry my heart back home
A small piece of eternal happiness
that keeps pace with that beat
Fleeting memories of a time when all was well
Nothing ached, or echoed
every breeze bringing a smile to my heart and a kick to my step
I danced freely with lightness, twirling
my hips like a tornado of heavy cream stirred into your coffee
sing me back with your sweet sweet lips
Feb 21, 2014
Feb 21, 2014 at 6:24 PM UTC
Is it just me or does everything feel a little forced lately
.. as if the person writing it is thinking..
What will this post say about me?
What will this perspective say...?
How will people think of me after this sentence..
this post..
this update..
this picture..
?
Will I seem cooler to them..
lame
immature
funny
brilliant
beautiful
smart..
smart-er(?)
How do I project the image I would like reflected back onto me
This reflection only I am seeing
To brand myself before I am Branded
Feb 19, 2014
Feb 19, 2014 at 4:10 AM UTC
It is very very late
I am awake
Wanting .. only
-To Create
.. My wrists hurt from typing and pushing, scrolling and tapping
When it’s not drawing it’s painting.. If not that I am working digitally, my hands, wrists and fingers ache and burn and still.. I never want to stop
I had no idea that what began as a life of crayons and markers would escalate into an obsession with all medium(s)
Wanting to turn on every light and collect every tool of creation I have in possession .. To explore every avenue of accumulated knowledge and expression
It’s a craving for sure..
But not tonight.
Feb 18, 2014
Feb 18, 2014 at 2:00 PM UTC
Who do I speak to when I throw my words out into the abyss
This public wall of "communication"
Often leaving me waiting in contemplation of self
Of worth and impact
Alone in this web of inner nets
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 9:28 PM UTC
