struggling-pen - Hello Poetry

I knew this is a weak appeal To say I have prior claim On you... Just because now she's there But what can I do? This is how I feel As if my world were shattered When she appeared all of a sudden I know my place I know where I stand Still... Can't I feel pain? For my me and you moments Are now invaded And became you and her with me looking on This is my prior claim That we met first That we became closer first That i stayed where I am Even after you met her That I am still by your side That you continue to see me That you share your moments with me That you still claim I am your dearest friend How foolish of me To feel this way To claim your sweetness As my very own world To insist I still have you Like I used to Like nothing has changed I am a fool I am insane I am hopeless Just because... Of my prior claim.

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Nov 19, 2018

Nov 19, 2018 at 7:10 PM UTC

Prior Claim

I knew this is a weak appeal To say I have prior claim On you... Just because now she's there But what can I do? This is how I feel As if my world were shattered When she appeared all of a sudden I know my place I know where I stand Still... Can't I feel pain? For my me and you moments Are now invaded And became you and her with me looking on This is my prior claim That we met first That we became closer first That i stayed where I am Even after you met her That I am still by your side That you continue to see me That you share your moments with me That you still claim I am your dearest friend How foolish of me To feel this way To claim your sweetness As my very own world To insist I still have you Like I used to Like nothing has changed I am a fool I am insane I am hopeless Just because... Of my prior claim.

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Here I am Alone with your lingering scent The only indication That you were here It was real And not an imagination Bathe in your fading scent I try to reminisce Those moments you were here Your smiles that made me smile Your gentle and subtle touch On my hands..elbows..back Those were moments ebbed in my memory Something to look back on And wishing there would be a repeat But no...you are finally walking away Turning your back on me Without goodbye Without notice Without a final glance It was as sudden as a thief Running away with my emotions I thought was intact all along But you were able to steal a part of me I was guarding for a long time You who has no license to do it You who never should have smiled on me I am now at this moment Alone With your lingering scent Hoping it would stay A little bit longer with me.

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Sep 23, 2018

Sep 23, 2018 at 1:47 AM UTC

Lingering Scent

Here I am Alone with your lingering scent The only indication That you were here It was real And not an imagination Bathe in your fading scent I try to reminisce Those moments you were here Your smiles that made me smile Your gentle and subtle touch On my hands..elbows..back Those were moments ebbed in my memory Something to look back on And wishing there would be a repeat But no...you are finally walking away Turning your back on me Without goodbye Without notice Without a final glance It was as sudden as a thief Running away with my emotions I thought was intact all along But you were able to steal a part of me I was guarding for a long time You who has no license to do it You who never should have smiled on me I am now at this moment Alone With your lingering scent Hoping it would stay A little bit longer with me.

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Curled on my bed I feel cold and numb For hours I just lay here Silent In reverie Waiting Waiting for something I don't know Or perhaps I'm lying Even to myself Why I am sad Why my eyes are puffy But I can't accept this truth My ego is crushed Along with my heart The moon is looking down on me Through a gap on a window Bathing me with it's forlorn light Empty and alone I curled once more Waiting Waiting for day break.

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Jun 22, 2018

Jun 22, 2018 at 8:36 PM UTC

Waiting

Curled on my bed I feel cold and numb For hours I just lay here Silent In reverie Waiting Waiting for something I don't know Or perhaps I'm lying Even to myself Why I am sad Why my eyes are puffy But I can't accept this truth My ego is crushed Along with my heart The moon is looking down on me Through a gap on a window Bathing me with it's forlorn light Empty and alone I curled once more Waiting Waiting for day break.

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I close my eyes Fighting tears from falling I heave a sigh Praying for strength Let this phase pass Take away this weight Inside my chest For once let me be Go away I've been down on this road before This is painfully familiar And I don't want to be here again Still...I ache with sadness How do I stop this With you I am vulnerable You make me weak Me who have been doing fine But now there is misery You never realize It is you... Why tears are breaking me apart.

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Jun 22, 2018

Jun 22, 2018 at 1:18 PM UTC

Misery

I close my eyes Fighting tears from falling I heave a sigh Praying for strength Let this phase pass Take away this weight Inside my chest For once let me be Go away I've been down on this road before This is painfully familiar And I don't want to be here again Still...I ache with sadness How do I stop this With you I am vulnerable You make me weak Me who have been doing fine But now there is misery You never realize It is you... Why tears are breaking me apart.

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Staring ahead Looking and yet not seeing Mind is empty A feeling of melancholy Hits me without reason Pensive This is how I look If you happen to see me Sadness is written However I hide it.

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Jun 20, 2018

Jun 20, 2018 at 8:53 AM UTC

Melancholy

Staring ahead Looking and yet not seeing Mind is empty A feeling of melancholy Hits me without reason Pensive This is how I look If you happen to see me Sadness is written However I hide it.

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I'm scared I see signs That you are getting confused Bit by bit you are forgetting I worry every minute Hoping my instinct are wrong But then you keep asking Something you used to do Now you can't even remember how I patiently ask you to remember Teach you how to do it Where to turn and walk To familiarize once again The things you knew Feel your surroundings Slowly you try hard So hard it is painful to watch Observing if you are losing memories And hoping not Grateful for each moment You still remember things in your mind Some things that makes me heave a sigh of relief Begging you won't go there To a place only you can know That your mind will always be here with me I can understand why you are losing your bearings You totally lost your sight And yet you remember each path Each place But please Let it just be your sight why you are forgetting From time to time Coz I am really afraid Let memories stay With you.

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Jun 13, 2018

Jun 13, 2018 at 7:15 AM UTC

Let Memories Stay

I'm scared I see signs That you are getting confused Bit by bit you are forgetting I worry every minute Hoping my instinct are wrong But then you keep asking Something you used to do Now you can't even remember how I patiently ask you to remember Teach you how to do it Where to turn and walk To familiarize once again The things you knew Feel your surroundings Slowly you try hard So hard it is painful to watch Observing if you are losing memories And hoping not Grateful for each moment You still remember things in your mind Some things that makes me heave a sigh of relief Begging you won't go there To a place only you can know That your mind will always be here with me I can understand why you are losing your bearings You totally lost your sight And yet you remember each path Each place But please Let it just be your sight why you are forgetting From time to time Coz I am really afraid Let memories stay With you.

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Here you go again Appearing in front of me Smiling..beckoning As if it is but natural When I have already taken steps To stop this insane feelings To turn around and not look back But here you are Invading my peace of mind Suddenly..without so much as a warning I feel disoriented Confused again And my resolve wavering I feel weak just seeing your smile Innocent? Oh no! You knew! You knew you melted my disguise My mask fell apart And found myself answering your smile Beaming as if you are a gift Early in the day Like an idiot I was fooled again And this what's hurt most That after your smile Which looked like a promise Again...you ignore me Only minutes had passed But I was a fool waiting Waiting and being left alone Here...just to hear you say Yes I will be there.

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Jun 12, 2018

Jun 12, 2018 at 12:16 AM UTC

Fooled Again

Here you go again Appearing in front of me Smiling..beckoning As if it is but natural When I have already taken steps To stop this insane feelings To turn around and not look back But here you are Invading my peace of mind Suddenly..without so much as a warning I feel disoriented Confused again And my resolve wavering I feel weak just seeing your smile Innocent? Oh no! You knew! You knew you melted my disguise My mask fell apart And found myself answering your smile Beaming as if you are a gift Early in the day Like an idiot I was fooled again And this what's hurt most That after your smile Which looked like a promise Again...you ignore me Only minutes had passed But I was a fool waiting Waiting and being left alone Here...just to hear you say Yes I will be there.

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Fondness? I hope so Coz if this is more than that Perhaps it's foolishness Beyond insanity And I can't deal with this No way Never This is crazy Madness To feel this way More than fondness Is not acceptable It is way too preposterous Yeah some would call it absurd Even laughable To feel ridiculously infatuated With you Yes..you! So I have to stop here Now Right now And breathe some air Cleanse the mind Focus on reality And be mature enough To deal with this foolishness Let it go Turn around Never look back Take a step And walk away For good.

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Jun 11, 2018

Jun 11, 2018 at 11:09 AM UTC

Walk Away..

Fondness? I hope so Coz if this is more than that Perhaps it's foolishness Beyond insanity And I can't deal with this No way Never This is crazy Madness To feel this way More than fondness Is not acceptable It is way too preposterous Yeah some would call it absurd Even laughable To feel ridiculously infatuated With you Yes..you! So I have to stop here Now Right now And breathe some air Cleanse the mind Focus on reality And be mature enough To deal with this foolishness Let it go Turn around Never look back Take a step And walk away For good.

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I saw him first I talked to him first He was like heaven sent To my lonely heart. Nights seemed endless Whenever we exchanged messages My eyes never felt sleepy Each time my phone beeps. His presence is a breath of fresh air He lights up everywhere Whenever ... However... I feel like ******* the air he breathes. How does he do it? Nonchallant and yet strong His smiles... His gaze... As if looking thru my soul. And now you say... He looks the same way To you as he did me Like you are the only one. I wondered... Does he make you sleep late at night, too? While sending cute little messages? Feeling that excitement While heart pounds? I saw him first I met him first We exchanged smiles first He looked at me as if I was the one. But I guess first does not mean anything As long as he can look again Towards someone Who is gullible enough To think she saw him first To think he looked at her first And made her feel She is extraordinary And that she is one and only. If this is what first means Then it's only an illusion I don't want to be a part of.

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Jun 7, 2018

Jun 7, 2018 at 1:36 AM UTC

First Means...

I saw him first I talked to him first He was like heaven sent To my lonely heart. Nights seemed endless Whenever we exchanged messages My eyes never felt sleepy Each time my phone beeps. His presence is a breath of fresh air He lights up everywhere Whenever ... However... I feel like ******* the air he breathes. How does he do it? Nonchallant and yet strong His smiles... His gaze... As if looking thru my soul. And now you say... He looks the same way To you as he did me Like you are the only one. I wondered... Does he make you sleep late at night, too? While sending cute little messages? Feeling that excitement While heart pounds? I saw him first I met him first We exchanged smiles first He looked at me as if I was the one. But I guess first does not mean anything As long as he can look again Towards someone Who is gullible enough To think she saw him first To think he looked at her first And made her feel She is extraordinary And that she is one and only. If this is what first means Then it's only an illusion I don't want to be a part of.

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Here goes the epic plot of most dramas The unending dislike towards a man They think not suitable for their precious daughter As if they hold his fate Or that they are a royal like Your Highness The hypocricy is endless Belittling a man's ability Like they knew exactly how he would fail in the future But the only thing they did was crush his pride That surely would be his strength to go on And succeed in life If only to make them see How wrong they were to assess him as a man To step on his worth as a human Just because he loved their daughter Now I saw myself back then When you were being denied To pursue our dreams of getting together I suffered as you suffered And the only thing left for us to do Was to let go. **** this drama plot of a romance Which depicts reality in a cruel way Letting love witness broken wings Making young hearts ****** in pain I want to hurl something at my tv It is a mockery of my past A deep etched pain that has yet to be healed And i wonder.. Will it ever be. My very own life's drama.

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Jun 5, 2018

Jun 5, 2018 at 9:39 PM UTC

Life's Drama

Here goes the epic plot of most dramas The unending dislike towards a man They think not suitable for their precious daughter As if they hold his fate Or that they are a royal like Your Highness The hypocricy is endless Belittling a man's ability Like they knew exactly how he would fail in the future But the only thing they did was crush his pride That surely would be his strength to go on And succeed in life If only to make them see How wrong they were to assess him as a man To step on his worth as a human Just because he loved their daughter Now I saw myself back then When you were being denied To pursue our dreams of getting together I suffered as you suffered And the only thing left for us to do Was to let go. **** this drama plot of a romance Which depicts reality in a cruel way Letting love witness broken wings Making young hearts ****** in pain I want to hurl something at my tv It is a mockery of my past A deep etched pain that has yet to be healed And i wonder.. Will it ever be. My very own life's drama.

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