here we go again
we're trying once more
we have opened our door
here we go again
this time its going great
maybe its just fate
here we go again
we're risking it all
but we dont want it to fall
here we go again
this time we both dont want it to end
we dont only want to be friends
Feb 14, 2021
Feb 14, 2021 at 11:54 AM UTC
music is one of the few things that can actually help me
it actually helps me feel free
there's always a song out there that can describe what you feel
no matter what it can make me heal
but it can make things worse or better depending on the song
it can always go wrong
Feb 13, 2021
Feb 13, 2021 at 7:34 PM UTC
There i am in a rose field,
swaying in the wind like any other rose
Just like any rose i catch the eye of mothers and daughters
That seems like it would be pretty nice right? Its not
Its lonely, they always come and go picking other roses and not me
They don't pick me because im not red, i'm blue
I'm blue with purple frosted tips
I used to like being different
I would stand out in the huge field of beautiful roses
But it changed
Kids would walk by saying
“the fairies messed up on that one mommy”
The mother would respond with “they did huh dear?”
At first i would let it slide off my pedals like it was a drop of water
But the drops grew
They grew till it was too heavy for me to carry
The drops wouldn't slide off
So i started drooping
I started drooping as if i were a weak tree holding a panda at the top
Then just like any rose, i started wilting
I started to wilt more and more every day
My purple tipped petals turned to brown tips
My soft smooth pedals turned to dry bumpy pedals
Then before morning i was gone
I have finally wilted away
It was as if i was never there
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 9:59 PM UTC
I loved you more than anything
I treated you as if you were my king
All returned were lies
Then you got the nerve to treat me like a fly
You never cared
Nor acknowledged that i was there
I was there when you needed me
You could shoe me away at any given moment
But if needed something i could never withhold it
You hurt me more than anything
But i still love you so don't forget it
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 9:51 PM UTC
At night i cry myself to sleep
Thinking a little bit too deep
At night i hold myself so tight
Hoping i won't get a fright
At night i wait by the phone
Hoping i will hear its tone
At night i lay in silence
Wanting to seek some guidance
At night i try to fall asleep
Before my mind goes too deep
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 9:32 PM UTC
If you were a dream
I wouldnt let it end
If you were a book
Id read you again
If you were a ride
Id go for a trip
If you were the ocean
Id go for a swim
If you were a coat
Id were you all week
If you were a teddy bear
Id hold you close
If you were a movie
Id watch you again
If you were a picture
Id have you on my wall
If you were a light
I wouldnt let you burn out
If you were a candle
You would shine bright all night
If you were a key
I would give you my lock
All because i love you
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 5:52 PM UTC
I love you because you treat me like a queen
I love you because you make me feel like i shouldnt leave
I love you because you make me feel a way no one can ever make me feel
I love you because your there to wipe my tears way when they fall like rain from my eyes
I love you because you never fail to bring a smile to my face no matter how sad the sky seems to be
I love you because you make me feel like i dont need to scare up my body to feel something real
I love you because even though you are broken you try so hard to fix me
I love you because you never leave even when i need you the most
I love you because your ok with me not being perfect
I love you because you love me for me
I love you because no matter how many rumors you hear about me you trust me over them
I love you because not only my brain but my heart tells me to love you
I love you because your you
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 5:51 PM UTC
“Do you cut because you want to die?”
I don't self harm because i want to die
I self harm because i want to feel
I self harm because i dont want to hurt so much on the inside
I self harm because i want to know that im still a person
I self harm because watching the blood run down my legs reminds me that im alive
I self harm because i want to know im not numb
I self harm because i want to feel something other than regret and worry
I self harm because when no one else is there for me that razor sharp blade always is
I self harm because watching my skin split into two makes me feel alive
I self harm not only because im suicidal
But because i need help
I self harm because I need help and dont know what words to say
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 5:49 PM UTC
alone once again
so alone it tends to hurt
why am i alone
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 5:37 PM UTC
my anxiety as like a little creature in the back of my head
sometimes i like them, but they make it hard to get out of bed
they make me expect the worst
like what if i suddenly burst
it makes it harder for me to try new things
it makes me have to hide my wings
it makes me overthink every little thing
i even overthink when putting on a ring
im scared if i try i will fall
if i do i know i will ball
this is why i no longer try
anxiety is why i want to die
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 1:29 PM UTC