stephanie-holloway - Hello Poetry

I yearn to be an outsider. To stray from society... All in order to be Who I'm truly Created to be I'm willing to face inner and outer adversity All in the name of freedom Judge me Ridicule me I care not, for I yearn to be Everything I was created for Living life purposefully Breaking societal norms I care not for the path created by The government But rather live happily Fruitfully In accordance to Who I am created to be. Wandering Unconventionally.

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Feb 4, 2015

Feb 4, 2015 at 12:28 PM UTC

Outsider

I yearn to be an outsider. To stray from society... All in order to be Who I'm truly Created to be I'm willing to face inner and outer adversity All in the name of freedom Judge me Ridicule me I care not, for I yearn to be Everything I was created for Living life purposefully Breaking societal norms I care not for the path created by The government But rather live happily Fruitfully In accordance to Who I am created to be. Wandering Unconventionally.

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Bound by the painful infliction of your words I bleed Never imagining that family Would be the ones who hurt fully Raised me Stabbing me Continuously With your words I still bleed My grandma never believed in me Mama never defended me It's okay ma, I love you How could you free me If you yourself are still bound in captivity? I yearn to the moment you and I are free But the possibility Of this task is greatly Unattainable How can I Break the curse of the words That bind you and I If you Are still locked up and I Well I - am a coward. A prisoner and a coward Will never move forward So I must break myself And set astray But don't fret mother - just pray. Know I'll be there at the end of the day Despite our hardships And your past brutality You whipped me with Words of discouragement But I blame you not How can you possibly provide encouragement When you have never had any Pent up anger - with no one to vent No self confidence But it is okay mother I love you And if you love me You will let me break free Temporarily As I rid my baggage and come for thee I can't free you and I Or think about we If my escape tactics must be sharpened But don't worry mother I hover over you spiritually Until it's time to break you free Through me And the tactics I've uncovered through my journey.

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Dec 12, 2014

Dec 12, 2014 at 10:50 AM UTC

Break Me

Bound by the painful infliction of your words I bleed Never imagining that family Would be the ones who hurt fully Raised me Stabbing me Continuously With your words I still bleed My grandma never believed in me Mama never defended me It's okay ma, I love you How could you free me If you yourself are still bound in captivity? I yearn to the moment you and I are free But the possibility Of this task is greatly Unattainable How can I Break the curse of the words That bind you and I If you Are still locked up and I Well I - am a coward. A prisoner and a coward Will never move forward So I must break myself And set astray But don't fret mother - just pray. Know I'll be there at the end of the day Despite our hardships And your past brutality You whipped me with Words of discouragement But I blame you not How can you possibly provide encouragement When you have never had any Pent up anger - with no one to vent No self confidence But it is okay mother I love you And if you love me You will let me break free Temporarily As I rid my baggage and come for thee I can't free you and I Or think about we If my escape tactics must be sharpened But don't worry mother I hover over you spiritually Until it's time to break you free Through me And the tactics I've uncovered through my journey.

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I yearn your touch the minute it's taken away. But yet I stray Emotions imprisoned - I've been torn before Ripped apart into tiny pieces The destruction of my paper ligaments Seemed to be justice I excreted nothing but hatefulness You and I paint the perfect portrait The embodiment of colliding souls Yet I'm suffocating with this corset I pull the strings tight till I'm cold - Breathless. Filled with morbid Thoughts You brought me to life My soul soars To new heights containing no strife Craving nothing but more More of you till the afterlife Does us part. My past comes to haunt me A constant reminder Of the previous killing spree It tries to slaughter My heart and the love we Share - you and I - I and you. I seek to show you The passion encaged within me But it's lost in the maze I fell into. Each time I let go of the cowardice My heart turns blue Sinking deeper - powerless. Who's to say it won't be slain again - but this time No potion to spare my grime.

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Dec 2, 2014

Dec 2, 2014 at 2:05 PM UTC

Love Massacre

I yearn your touch the minute it's taken away. But yet I stray Emotions imprisoned - I've been torn before Ripped apart into tiny pieces The destruction of my paper ligaments Seemed to be justice I excreted nothing but hatefulness You and I paint the perfect portrait The embodiment of colliding souls Yet I'm suffocating with this corset I pull the strings tight till I'm cold - Breathless. Filled with morbid Thoughts You brought me to life My soul soars To new heights containing no strife Craving nothing but more More of you till the afterlife Does us part. My past comes to haunt me A constant reminder Of the previous killing spree It tries to slaughter My heart and the love we Share - you and I - I and you. I seek to show you The passion encaged within me But it's lost in the maze I fell into. Each time I let go of the cowardice My heart turns blue Sinking deeper - powerless. Who's to say it won't be slain again - but this time No potion to spare my grime.

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You alone Ease my mind Just by the sound of your voice Nourish my soul Just by wrapping me in your joy Replenish my body When yours is against mine enjoying The simplicity Of your skin on my skin My mind wandering Into another realm - lost within The depths of your soul not wanting To be found The lost wanderer Happily lost in paradise.

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Nov 8, 2014

Nov 8, 2014 at 2:07 PM UTC

Lost in Paradise

You alone Ease my mind Just by the sound of your voice Nourish my soul Just by wrapping me in your joy Replenish my body When yours is against mine enjoying The simplicity Of your skin on my skin My mind wandering Into another realm - lost within The depths of your soul not wanting To be found The lost wanderer Happily lost in paradise.

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I am a glutton for your LOVE Not the pink pedals from a rose. But to engulf in chills of Feelings - risen from YOU. I yearn to be wrapped in YOUR affection - that is enough. To indulge in your passion poured - From gashes but fearlessly entrust. I yearn for you to give me all of YOU The you that "you" keep encaged Is the YOU that I long to love too. I'll take all of you, have no fear. Just let loose your baggage - And let me love all of it As I live to love you and ALL That comes with it.

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Nov 2, 2014

Nov 2, 2014 at 6:13 PM UTC

Gluttonous Passion

I am a glutton for your LOVE Not the pink pedals from a rose. But to engulf in chills of Feelings - risen from YOU. I yearn to be wrapped in YOUR affection - that is enough. To indulge in your passion poured - From gashes but fearlessly entrust. I yearn for you to give me all of YOU The you that "you" keep encaged Is the YOU that I long to love too. I'll take all of you, have no fear. Just let loose your baggage - And let me love all of it As I live to love you and ALL That comes with it.

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Habits Gluttony Greed Bribery Lustfulness Passed down Generation After generation After generation After generation Okay, I get it, it get it You get it, you get it. Let's get personal Born set up for failure My statistics not looking bright First baby born of color born into A family of strictly whites Grandmother beat my mother When she discovered The life forming inside of her Was half black - Don't cry mother, or I'll whither Inside of you. I grew and grew Taught lies upon lies About myself The other half of me. The only love I knew was of my mother. There was no other - Until she started to take it out on me Habits Passed From generation upon generation. She was sick and tired of being Sick and tired Stomped to the ground due to her Kindness Abused emotionally due to her Selfless-ness Mistreated physically due to her Weakness She took it out on me. Cornered me to a wall Choked me up Laughing - she couldn't get enough Of the amusement of my pain All done in vain Because she couldn't stop the strain Put on her brain. Scarring my face Pulling my hair Public places Not a care - Kicking Scratching Pulling Biting The agony The hate The battle wounds The hurt The scars - On my heart. Habits Passed from generation To generation To generation I was sick on the inside My heart - suffering - never ending bleeding My brain Psychologically ill Flashbacks I locked myself up in my room Head in pillow Screaming louder than your annoying baby sister who throws her unnecessary temper tantrums In the middle of the night. I tied myself up mentally Stuck Self-hate Self-abuse Self-hurt In the sixth grade I to myself - I wanted going to **** And my victim was myself. Filled with the poison - I was ill Injected with self-hate Hated my family Hated all my traits Hated all forms of humanity. Habits Passed From generation to generation To generation.

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Oct 11, 2014

Oct 11, 2014 at 12:44 PM UTC

Poisonous Habits

Habits Gluttony Greed Bribery Lustfulness Passed down Generation After generation After generation After generation Okay, I get it, it get it You get it, you get it. Let's get personal Born set up for failure My statistics not looking bright First baby born of color born into A family of strictly whites Grandmother beat my mother When she discovered The life forming inside of her Was half black - Don't cry mother, or I'll whither Inside of you. I grew and grew Taught lies upon lies About myself The other half of me. The only love I knew was of my mother. There was no other - Until she started to take it out on me Habits Passed From generation upon generation. She was sick and tired of being Sick and tired Stomped to the ground due to her Kindness Abused emotionally due to her Selfless-ness Mistreated physically due to her Weakness She took it out on me. Cornered me to a wall Choked me up Laughing - she couldn't get enough Of the amusement of my pain All done in vain Because she couldn't stop the strain Put on her brain. Scarring my face Pulling my hair Public places Not a care - Kicking Scratching Pulling Biting The agony The hate The battle wounds The hurt The scars - On my heart. Habits Passed from generation To generation To generation I was sick on the inside My heart - suffering - never ending bleeding My brain Psychologically ill Flashbacks I locked myself up in my room Head in pillow Screaming louder than your annoying baby sister who throws her unnecessary temper tantrums In the middle of the night. I tied myself up mentally Stuck Self-hate Self-abuse Self-hurt In the sixth grade I to myself - I wanted going to **** And my victim was myself. Filled with the poison - I was ill Injected with self-hate Hated my family Hated all my traits Hated all forms of humanity. Habits Passed From generation to generation To generation.

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Please excuse the gore Of my poetry For It is inspired by the craziness Of the chaotic mess that tore My ligaments into ****** pieces Family Irony All I've ever desired in life is the simplicity Of love - sick of strife All I've ever cared for is creating A love between family I'm sick and tired of family Filled with **** yous" I hate you The irony

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Oct 11, 2014

Oct 11, 2014 at 12:28 PM UTC

The Irony in Family

Please excuse the gore Of my poetry For It is inspired by the craziness Of the chaotic mess that tore My ligaments into ****** pieces Family Irony All I've ever desired in life is the simplicity Of love - sick of strife All I've ever cared for is creating A love between family I'm sick and tired of family Filled with **** yous" I hate you The irony

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It is 2:13 AM. I am up thinking, dreaming – Yet still awake. My dreams are my reality. My imagination keeps me awake. Brain is flooding with creativity, Yearning to pour out – A w a k e. My dreams are my reality Mind filled with blissful negativity – awake. Dreaming of unorthodox fantasies. Eyes wide open but mind floating in another realm – awake. Blood flowing Fingers throbbing Pulse pumping Heart skipping A l i v e. I fall, I fail but I still strive. My mind aligned With stars and planets – unconfined. Letting go, trying to find The mysteries of L i f e. Are these mysteries meant to be discovered Are they meant to be uncovered? Everyone hovers Till the day reality is R e v e a l e d. See, the world we live in It’s a mere mirage created by oneself. Lies created to hinder discovery. Truth buried Deep, deep down under Not meant to be U n c o v e r e d. The beauty of life that it’s m a j e s t i c Life blown into our bodies Temporare - ily Until the time for departure A r r i v e s. We attempt to leave legacies To be looked upon in history To be unforgettably I n c r e d i b l e To live forever Forgetting o b l i v i o n is inevitable.

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Oct 4, 2014

Oct 4, 2014 at 8:19 PM UTC

Oblivion

It is 2:13 AM. I am up thinking, dreaming – Yet still awake. My dreams are my reality. My imagination keeps me awake. Brain is flooding with creativity, Yearning to pour out – A w a k e. My dreams are my reality Mind filled with blissful negativity – awake. Dreaming of unorthodox fantasies. Eyes wide open but mind floating in another realm – awake. Blood flowing Fingers throbbing Pulse pumping Heart skipping A l i v e. I fall, I fail but I still strive. My mind aligned With stars and planets – unconfined. Letting go, trying to find The mysteries of L i f e. Are these mysteries meant to be discovered Are they meant to be uncovered? Everyone hovers Till the day reality is R e v e a l e d. See, the world we live in It’s a mere mirage created by oneself. Lies created to hinder discovery. Truth buried Deep, deep down under Not meant to be U n c o v e r e d. The beauty of life that it’s m a j e s t i c Life blown into our bodies Temporare - ily Until the time for departure A r r i v e s. We attempt to leave legacies To be looked upon in history To be unforgettably I n c r e d i b l e To live forever Forgetting o b l i v i o n is inevitable.

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Never have I ever Met a soul who is more perfectly aligned With mine A mind with never Ending complexity. Never would I have fathomed Such a unique bond Between two minds, intertwined Wrapped around each other Infinite times. Unwanting to unravel Two vines. Two seeds planted Growing from different places find Each never anticipated To be brought together Created To experience the venture That life orchestrated. A mutual understanding No words Gazing Into your herds Of thoughts Running From your eyes to my absurd Mind – reading Into the eyes of your soul. The rarity Of someone like you Drives my mind to insanity. Wanting to jump off of the moon Landing into your arms – inhumanity. Imagining days spent with you Makes me relapse. You just being – you Are my morphine – body collapses. You seemed like fiction brewed By the side effects Of loving you Neither of us suspected This perfect chemistry created by you and I – I and you. Never have I been so blissful Could such a human being exist? Perfectly crafted – abysmal. Completely convinced You are my acid An extraterrestrial experience Through the collision of our Unordinary Bizarre Zany Intellectual passion. Creating a beautiful collision Of two journeys becoming one. When what seemed unreal – fiction Meets reality. Let us join palms and live merrily In unison.

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Oct 4, 2014

Oct 4, 2014 at 7:53 PM UTC

Love and Paradoxical Fiction

Never have I ever Met a soul who is more perfectly aligned With mine A mind with never Ending complexity. Never would I have fathomed Such a unique bond Between two minds, intertwined Wrapped around each other Infinite times. Unwanting to unravel Two vines. Two seeds planted Growing from different places find Each never anticipated To be brought together Created To experience the venture That life orchestrated. A mutual understanding No words Gazing Into your herds Of thoughts Running From your eyes to my absurd Mind – reading Into the eyes of your soul. The rarity Of someone like you Drives my mind to insanity. Wanting to jump off of the moon Landing into your arms – inhumanity. Imagining days spent with you Makes me relapse. You just being – you Are my morphine – body collapses. You seemed like fiction brewed By the side effects Of loving you Neither of us suspected This perfect chemistry created by you and I – I and you. Never have I been so blissful Could such a human being exist? Perfectly crafted – abysmal. Completely convinced You are my acid An extraterrestrial experience Through the collision of our Unordinary Bizarre Zany Intellectual passion. Creating a beautiful collision Of two journeys becoming one. When what seemed unreal – fiction Meets reality. Let us join palms and live merrily In unison.

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