I think the hardest person to love, is yourself.
You know every mistake, every thought, every lie.
You know who you've hurt. How you hurt them.
All your flaws. Why they're flaws.
But you can't walk away from yourself.
Or hide from yourself.
Or lie to yourself.
Because in the end, you know.
You know that you need to face yourself.
Forgive yourself.
Love yourself.
Or you'll be stuck.
Stuck between what's real
And what you're pretending is real
Stuck between hurting someone
And trying to protect them at the same time
But you end up hurting them anyway.
And now you hate yourself for it.
You couldn't love them.
Because you tried to face yourself,
Forgive yourself,
Love yourself...
But couldn't.
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 11:18 PM UTC
You say you’ve fallen
So far, you can’t get up
I’ll try and help you,
But it won’t be enough
Intoxicated, you are
By things unsaid
You need to stop this
Before you wind up dead
Don’t let go
No, don’t let go
This is not the end
Please don’t let go
I’ve watched you do it
Over and over again
I couldn’t stop you
I just can’t stop the spin
Don’t let go
No, don’t let go
This is not the end
Please don’t let go
You say you’ve fallen
So far, you can’t get up
I’ll try and help you,
But it won’t be enough
Jan 18, 2013
Jan 18, 2013 at 4:00 AM UTC
Just maybe time will run away and leave life behind
Say you’ll continue to stay away just to keep me alive
Mean words and sweet faces won’t reason with goodbye
Things change, you cared, and hope walked a thousand miles
Standing, looking, assuming
Bury those old eyes you thought were blooming
The truth is sitting in the dark, waiting for you to shine the light
You were promised death, and life forgot to teach you to fight
The world choked on it’s dreams and crashed into a fence
Love missed it’s stop, and now I’m left in suspense
Happiness is locked in the room next door,
We’d try to find the key if only our feet were flat on the floor
I’ll pour my hate down the sink and proceed to turn my back
Melt the snow with the glow of my smile so I can no longer see the tracks
Jan 13, 2013
Jan 13, 2013 at 8:41 PM UTC
A broken heart is typical, and affliction will track you down
Yet you can never find the reason you persist to be found
Find the reasons that you smile and never let them go
Reflect on times that you have when your happiness will show
Embrace those moments and engrave them in your mind
'Cause you'll need 'em when disaster comes and breaks you every time
And in your mind it appears to be the end
Just realize over time, you will fatefully ascend
But for now, let's just pretend.
That everything's ok and your strength will never bend
And from experience, the **** never stops
You'll always fall face first and you'll never fight it off
So, when you're down, don't you ever try to give up
Don't you settle for that filth and try to say that it's enough.
Jan 12, 2013
Jan 12, 2013 at 6:46 AM UTC
Some days you tend to wonder,
If things will ever change
Or will we keep repeating
To live this life of disarray
Some days you wake up,
To the sound of failing love
Anticipating someone
Will say they’ve had enough
Is there still hope?
Is there still hope for us?
Some nights you lie down,
But you just can’t get to sleep
Because those harsh words
In your head are on repeat
Is there still hope?
Is there still hope for us?
For us.
Jan 2, 2013
Jan 2, 2013 at 9:15 AM UTC
I'm a wheel that came in third
I'm a hummingbird who forgot the words
All these months have come to nothing
And this track I can't keep running
Where were you when I was here?
You just somehow disappeared
I lost you, but I also lost me
I'm just a ship, hoping I won't sink
Jan 2, 2013
Jan 2, 2013 at 9:08 AM UTC
I'm not sorry, because you lied to me
And you blamed me for everything
And because you gave up on me
I'm not sorry because you're not
I don't care, because you didn't
Even try to understand me
And because you turned your back on me
I don't care because you don't
Jan 2, 2013
Jan 2, 2013 at 9:06 AM UTC
You were such a sweet guy to me
Such a sweet guy
You told me no lie, you see
You told me no lie
Right there when I needed you, you were
Right there when I needed you
You were someone I could run to, for sure
Someone I could run to
You started treating me like **** you did
Started treating me like ****
I don’t believe I rightfully deserved this,
Didn’t deserve it a bit
I see you now and then, yeah
I see you now and then
“Let’s be friends”, you told me that
You told me, let’s be friends
But now you’re with someone else, you are
Now you’re with someone else
So from me, you stay far,
You stay far, to save yourself
You’re still a sweet guy, you see
Still a sweet guy
Just not to me,
No… not to me
You told me a lie.
Nov 12, 2012
Nov 12, 2012 at 3:26 AM UTC
I got old,
And I did it by accident
The world moves on
While I stay stagnant
Why can’t I feed myself?
Clothe myself, walk myself?
Yet I can fall myself.
Choke myself, lose myself, **** myself.
This isn’t my home. This isn’t my bed.
But I stay here. I sleep here. Until I am dead.
Strangers take care of me. They feed me strange pills.
But I have to do what they say, I have to lay still.
I share a shower with everyone else here
As well as a dining room, laundry room, and all the same fears.
There’s a fight down the hall. Dementia caused it.
Out of no where they stop. Dementia solved it.
Families in and out, staff the same.
Is it because of my age or environment that I’m going insane?
How long do I have left? That, I don’t know
What I do know, is that I'll never be able to go home.
I got old,
And I did it by accident
The world moves on
While I stay stagnant
Oct 14, 2012
Oct 14, 2012 at 10:07 PM UTC
Is there a reason you shot me?
Is there a reason that I'm dead?
Is there a reason you left me hanging by a thread?
When I thought it was over, it had only begun
Here I stand, frozen,
With no where left to run,
You took an axe to my heart,
As you choked me with your charm
My words can't escape me,
Is this over, this harm?
My screams were denied,
As you buried my cries
I'm hanging on the fence
Don't leave me to die
When you walked into my life,
I didn't know what to expect
Now I'm lying on the floor, crying from neglect
You took an axe to my heart,
As you choked me with your charm
My words can't escape me,
Is this over, this harm?
My screams were denied,
As you buried my cries
I'm hanging on the fence
Don't leave me to die
Oct 2, 2012
Oct 2, 2012 at 7:36 PM UTC