**Once upon a time,
I would see myself off to sleep
Eager to see the sun rise in the morning
Ready to face the world with open arms
^
It didn't take much time,
For the world to hurt me when I was open
Eager to forgive and forget I moved on
Ready to face the world with open arms
^
After some time,
I saw myself fall apart at the hands of others
Eager to find a reason to exist anymore
Ready to face my death with no regret
^
It took time,
For my wounds to heal and my body to cope
Eager to find myself and rekindle my fire
Ready to open myself up to the world
^
Lost track of time,
I stand broken, mended and broken over again
Eager to share my story of adversity and strength
Ready to open my experiences to the world**
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 9:37 AM UTC
I am God's one, and only mistake.
If our lord is perfect, why would he curse the world with my existence?
When i exist solely to bring pain and suffering unto others, what kind of sick joke was he playing at?
I hope one day my parents realise, that although i was the only planned baby they had out of 3, i was the only mistake they made in having. Im sure my parents are real proud of the monster their son becomes around woman. Im sure they're proud of their verbally abusive, short tempered, selfish and cold son...
I hope that one day peoples open their eyes and see the truth for whats inside me and not what i show them on the outside, i want them all to look at my grave one day and be thankful that the world was rid of a demon that day, that satan had finally recoiled and taken back his child.
Life is nothing but a series of moments that exist to remind ourselves we still feel something.
Right now all i feel is pain, drowning, and anger, i hate this body, i curse this mind, maybe if i wish upon a star, i can go back in time, and stop things from going this far
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 11:07 AM UTC
I keep telling myself I'll be alright (I won't)
And I know it can't get worse than today
Sitting here and she's trying to rehearse what to say
See, she's on her own wishing this'd all stop
While she's getting used to the sound of a teardrop
~
It hits the tile
And I know it's been a while since you seen me
Smile and laugh like I used to
I've been in denial since it happened
Just take me to the past
'Cause I just couldn't imagine losing you
~
I can't explain this so I'll keep it all inside
Wear my pain, but it's masked by my pride
That's all I have left in this messed up facade
A butterfly with clipped wings
Tryna fly high as it's heart sings
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 8:07 PM UTC
I still think of you,
*Late at night,
When I can't sleep right.
~
I still dream of* you,
*In my grasp,
When loneliness refuses to unclasp.
~
I still long for* you,
*By my side,
When my tears have dried
~
I still cry over* you
*Every waking second,
When my beating heart beconds.
~
I still can't forget* you,
*Every single day,
When I say I'm okay.
~
Why,
Is everything still,*
You?
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 9:13 AM UTC
In silence I suffer, drowning.
Losing the fight, falling.
~
On the surface, calm.
To everyone else, happy.
~
Beneath it all, hurting.
They know I'm lying, breaking.
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I want you to see I'm okay, even if I'm not.
That way things'll be better, even if they're not.
~
Convince myself over and over, even if I don't believe it.
Tell myself everything will work out fine, even if I don't believe it.
~
I'm fine, no I'm not
I'm happy, no I'm not
I'm grateful, no I'm not
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I don't accept this, yes you do
I hate you for this, no you don't
I don't blame myself, yes you do
Jan 19, 2018
Jan 19, 2018 at 11:00 PM UTC
Once upon a time, you had a knight.
He protected you, day and night.
Strong, kind and as charming as the moonlight.
Your best intentions, never left his sight.
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Once upon this time, you have a mistake.
He did all he could, to ensure your heartbreak.
Cold, unnerving and as conceited as a snake.
Your best intentions, left far in his wake.
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 8:31 AM UTC
Till death do us part
You'll forever hold my heart
Just listen to it slowly break
***From devastation in our wake ***
○◘○◘○
As each day goes past
Our personalities differ in contrast
We were once so enraptured
Now my soul has been captured
○◘○◘○
There is no more you and me
I refrain from any duplicity
I just gotta have you back
Get my life back on track
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 5:06 AM UTC
If I can be honest,
How come I always break my promises to you?
If I'm not afraid,
Why am I so scared to move?
I'm barely breathing.
And if I can be honest,
How come I always end up so far away from you?
You made me a promise,
And I'll always hold it true.
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 5:01 AM UTC
I am ready to work
I am ready to fight
To prove to you
I can make this right
I am prepared to show you how I've changed,
How I've learnt and much better things can be.
All I ask,
Is for a chance
Jul 7, 2017
Jul 7, 2017 at 9:57 PM UTC
We used to say we were forever
That we were 110% loyal to eachother
And we would spend an eternity together.
What happened to those promises?
Where did the loyalty go?
Why didnt we last forever?
Who am I to question you leaving...
Its hard reading old messages
People change its true
But I never wanted that person to be you
What happened to the I love you?
Where did the happiness go?
Why did it have to end like this?
Who am I to force you to stay...
Jul 7, 2017
Jul 7, 2017 at 9:39 PM UTC