another day of taking my coffee
and making my breakfast
making sure to close the door softly
i sit down to reflect at long last
so much going on
am i ahead of behind
i dont know
picked up the pen to write
for the third time this week
thought it was all alright
but then i was unable to speak
sat alone for fifteen minutes
i wrote nothing down the entire time
clean up my mess walk inside diminished
it hurts when i cant read my mind
or eat my food
the breakfast was untouched
another thing i cant do
oh
what am i to do
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 10:39 AM UTC
im scared cause im walking where ive never been before
everything is panicking on the inside
but im not heading for the door
the stride is brisk and we're both gasping for air
it's not a race we're in it together
now were sprinting like the hair
maybe it's for the better
you have legs for days or so you say
im keeing up but just bare
lay
the pace settles as i get runners high
finally hitting my stride
wondering where have you been all my life
walking together we'll never collide
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 8:33 PM UTC
need to be more present
feels like im always escaping
dont want to grow up resenting
the person in the making
paying attention to the second
dont you ever miss it
im always caught guessing
time to commit then
puppy love i dont know how to feel
digging up new emotions
i know now this is real
no longer broken
but schedule me in
ill be in the waiting room
i cant believe you let me in
usually im left to assume
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 10:20 AM UTC
curse birds and their ability to fly
a life always on the move
they look down from up high
and im not saying this to be rude
but i want constant motion
even just a little
its a relentless devotion
that's stupidly trivial
and i need constant motion
maybe more than a little
its my relentless devotion
that's positively quizzical
not one to stop
not one to have it figured out
noelle walks in
Sep 24, 2020
Sep 24, 2020 at 8:11 PM UTC
no one cares what you do on your last day on earth
except everyone else left behind to carry the hurt
im not saying its a free pass to do evil
i only wish to do good onto people
so is passing away bittersweet?
happy for me and sad for thee?
or is that why we celebrate
we all knew along the way
that this was fate
each one is different
just a shade of memories
i cannot be insensitive
some are taken entirely to early
so does anyone truly care
what you do on your last day on earth?
embracing the next step of the cycle
as you enter a new birth
while everyone else is left
behind to carry the hurt
and im not saying its a free pass to do evil
i only want to do good unto people.
just something ive come to think on
as i drive through Kentucky feeling withdrawn
Sep 24, 2020
Sep 24, 2020 at 8:05 PM UTC
ya i say im mediating
but what a stranger would say
as they walk passing bi
was they were reading a book or two
and i couldnt exactly see what or by who
some little green book and a coffee too
the stranger is right and i read on
its secrets ancient and i hope to sip on
tapping into knowledge only the old knew
ya i say im mediating
and well a whole lot of contemplating too
about what was said last night
sometimes i wish i didnt speak
maybe thats why im reading the greeks
to understand the abstracts in life
and all the in between moments
deconstructing the greater design
anyways thanks for mediating with me
old poets
Sep 18, 2020
Sep 18, 2020 at 12:08 PM UTC
trying to think how im already ****** up
its just been one jim bean shot, whats up?
its just im working non stop no retreat
thinking back some days ago when i got some sleep
oh yea i aint eat but the one meal 3 days prior
and my sleep schedule is out of work needs to be hired
cause i clocked 4 hours just 3 days ago
back when i was clutching a pillow feeling alone
so desperate for it to work
maybe ill put in the work
and work is all i know
working til i pass out on the floor
missing exactly what
i was up the night before
working for
Sep 18, 2020
Sep 18, 2020 at 12:03 PM UTC
i just want one person to hold
i never give up and give over control
i cant stand to touch another unless its you
i dont want a hug from anyone but you
cause i cant stand the touch of anyone else
and when i hold you i feel full of myself
people fade so fast
i just want your face to last
i just want you to be my person
the only one i touch and open up to
please dont fade so fast
becoming a ghost of my past
Sep 18, 2020
Sep 18, 2020 at 11:54 AM UTC
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Apr 2, 2020
Apr 2, 2020 at 11:24 AM UTC
born and raised in farmland indiana
lived there back when i believed in santa
later i moved to ohio
where i spent my teens going ******
finally dad moved us to big texas
where i would come to meet all my exes
after college ill move some place
far away from this disgrace
never had a problem with who i was
but i guess in texas they have different laws
they say
you cant say youre from indiana
you dont represent farmer americana
you cant say youre from ohio
thatd be like accepting a typo
well you definitely arent one of us
cause you dont like to talk on the bus
or in the grocery store
you think southern hospitality fun to ignore?
its hard to understand who i am
so i go back home to my fam
they talk to me they tell me
that every where has welcomed me
dont be discouraged, your one of us
even if you dont talk on the bus
so my texas friends and i keep traveling
searching for my answer, try unraveling
land in china and the people are so fine
they compliment my face and praise divine
they ask where im from in america
and blank goes my rentina
standing before my texas friends
my mind weighs the odds and ends
the logistics of where i belong
is this where i make my stand, sing my song
or alas just keep quiet and move along
say some answer and move on
no i thought i need this
a fight to be free of this
to understand my identity
i have to sacrifice a deep part of me
not going to compromise
no need to lie and disguise
the problems with my identity deep inside
im from indiana i say
immediately im meet with distaste
now suddenly in a different country, they want me?
saying ive been in texas for a while thats you now baby
but i dont understand
thats not where i stand or on brand
i just dont understand
im not just some texas ranch hand
i dont belong anywhere
i am my own ill clear the air
i just belong to me
was that so hard to believe?
i go home and they say im not from home
i go aboard like thatll be my new home
Feb 20, 2020
Feb 20, 2020 at 8:34 PM UTC