Do you ever just feel like a depressed pile of **** but you can't tell anyone because you have to maintain your image but you'd really be okay with just dying because then you wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore including both what you feel like **** about and also your image
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 12:53 AM UTC
The longing for things that will never be
The knowledge that we'll be taken before we're done
Disappointment in ourselves
Resignation to sadness
Belief in pointlessness
The lack of energy to be angry at things that are wrong
Inability and/or unwillingness to change
Writing down depressing things and never turning them into a cohesive piece
Self-fulfilling prophecy
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 2:01 AM UTC
He wrapped his arms around the cat sitting in his lap
Existential anxiety had become an underlying constant,
But his love for the creature provided momentary connection;
A temporary check against the loneliness
The same feeling, the state of being, will return
But, brushing it aside for a moment,
He had a somber taste of what it might be like
if the world wasn't broken
Mar 24, 2018
Mar 24, 2018 at 3:00 PM UTC
I stare at her picture
On a backlit screen
I look for something there
Something so deep it could quench
But I don't know **** about her
And, thankfully,
She doesn't know **** about me
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 5:05 AM UTC
Alexa, turn off the light
Alexa, it's cold in here
Alexa, tell me a story
Alexa, sing me a lullaby
Alexa, I miss my girl
Alexa, pull up my favorite ****
Alexa, are you real?
Alexa, I'm bored
Alexa, stop
I'm sad
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 5:26 AM UTC
I've walked away from feeling certain feelings for a long time
Allowing myself to emotionally need anyone
There's a good chance I'll be alone when I die
if I continue to let other desires get in the way of truly loving someone
Jan 19, 2018
Jan 19, 2018 at 1:46 PM UTC
I stay awake until 5 every morning
It's an escape
If I go to bed, I have to think
And I've given up on living
My ex weighs on my mind
And then my other exes join
No one will satisfy me
And my vision is going bad
Art won't be my living
I'll have to go back to productive work
I have no plan, no discipline
And I'm about to **** up some relationships
Everyone is sour, I believe
It's the most obvious quality of mine
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 5:50 AM UTC
You can't erase me from your past
So I wonder
What colors will you choose
to paint the me that was
Jan 18, 2017
Jan 18, 2017 at 5:44 AM UTC
There are nights I do things I can do
There are nights I do things I can't
Tonight I did something I can't
Jan 18, 2017
Jan 18, 2017 at 5:29 AM UTC
I could meet a dozen girls in a night,
But I couldn't connect with a one
Where I once had deep desire,
I now have chaos
A complete inability to put forth effort
Without the help of drugs
A fairy tale desire to **** them all,
But no internal life to manifest it
I may be the coolest dude in the bar,
But you might as well ignore me
Oct 20, 2016
Oct 20, 2016 at 4:31 AM UTC